I need help..

[BlueStarSkyMonkey]

I used to be very a very devout Christian..and then when things fell apart in my life, both spiritually and physically i suffered. In 2001 i had a Grand Mal seizure out of nowhere and i became very depressed, very angry at God for letting that happen to me. For years i was angry at Him..then right when i was clawing my way back to i guess believing again i started having seizures..and other health problems as well. I know that it could be alot worse but i still feel angry. Last night i prayed for the first time in years and basically asked for forgiveness and other things and and it felt good, but part of me still feels angry and wants proof that He is there. Is it normal for me to feel like this, is there anything i can do?

 

[salida]

Yes, its normal for you to act like this! I have a medical condition also and it's the "c word disease". This stuff has come back on me a second time as I found out 3 months ago as I had a four year remission. God has stopped it from going to vital organs and it can be controlled very successfully by hormones alone: many times for patients this isn't the case but its even worse.

I prayed and asked God why "again". He said more than one answer; through my trials you will be purified; and its for my glory. Well, going through it presently and looking back I have found that this is very much the case. I been more purified spiritually and people have said "wow, your so positive from christians and nonchristians". Its not me but the Holy Spirit or I will say its my faith.

I have been a christian for 27 years; BUT since we arn't perfect He will do His work in us through His Holy Spirit as long as we are living on earth. This world is a dressing room for heaven.

Advice by experience: take on day at a time and a step at a time even if its just baby walks; pray daily, read the Bible daily. If you can't find squeeze in time during the day; then pray silently where you can do two things at once. Prayer is the most powerful and important; the Bible is mandatory as its spiritual food. Ignoring this food is like ignoring your physical food.

 

[BlueStarSkyMonkey]

Yes, its normal for you to act like this! I have a medical condition also and it's the "c word disease". This stuff has come back on me a second time as I found out 3 months ago as I had a four year remission. God has stopped it from going to vital organs and it can be controlled very successfully by hormones alone: many times for patients this isn't the case but its even worse.

I prayed and asked God why "again". He said more than one answer; through my trials you will be purified; and its for my glory. Well, going through it presently and looking back I have found that this is very much the case. I been more purified spiritually and people have said "wow, your so positive from christians and nonchristians". Its not me but the Holy Spirit or I will say its my faith.

I have been a christian for 27 years; BUT since we arn't perfect He will do His work in us through His Holy Spirit as long as we are living on earth. This world is a dressing room for heaven.

Advice by experience: take on day at a time and a step at a time even if its just baby walks; pray daily, read the Bible daily. If you can't find squeeze in time during the day; then pray silently where you can do two things at once. Prayer is the most powerful and important; the Bible is mandatory as its spiritual food. Ignoring this food is like ignoring your physical food.

thank you so much for your advice i will definitely try that <3

 

[salida]

Wow you answered fast Ha!

Also, don't go by "feelings" I found out that doesn't seem to work and that God truly wants our faith. I even asked God for the Gift of Faith- this is faith that is given that comes more naturally. This means that one just acts by faith without much or any doubt at all or questioning.

Anytime you want to email me please feel free to do so.

 

[BlueStarSkyMonkey]

i see, i get what you are saying. I will pray tonight and ask God to grant me the Gift of faith. I really need some right now.
and thank you <3

 

[ebia]

I used to be very a very devout Christian..and then when things fell apart in my life, both spiritually and physically i suffered. In 2001 i had a Grand Mal seizure out of nowhere and i became very depressed, very angry at God for letting that happen to me. For years i was angry at Him..then right when i was clawing my way back to i guess believing again i started having seizures..and other health problems as well. I know that it could be alot worse but i still feel angry. Last night i prayed for the first time in years and basically asked for forgiveness and other things and and it felt good, but part of me still feels angry and wants proof that He is there. Is it normal for me to feel like this, is there anything i can do?

Yes, and it's ok to be angry with God at times. - just look at what the psalmists wrote. Some of those can be very helpful prayers at such times.

 

[ContentInHim]

i see, i get what you are saying. I will pray tonight and ask God to grant me the Gift of faith. I really need some right now.
and thank you <3

Pray now, then! Don't wait for tonight!

 

[Criada]

I can't add to the advice that you have been given.
But God is big enough to cope with your anger!

When my children are frustrated and upset, they often yell at me, precisely because they know that I won't stop loving them! And God loves you infinitely more than I could ever love them! He understands, and He is never going to love you any less, however much you shout at Him. You are completely secure in His arms.

I'll be praying for you.

 

[TexasSky]

Don't be afraid to be honest with God about your anger.
He is a loving parent, and He knows you're angry.

So there is no harm in speaking to Him, respectfully and honestly, about that anger, and asking Him to help you understand.

 

[BlueStarSkyMonkey]

I can't add to the advice that you have been given.
But God is big enough to cope with your anger!

When my children are frustrated and upset, they often yell at me, precisely because they know that I won't stop loving them! And God loves you infinitely more than I could ever love them! He understands, and He is never going to love you any less, however much you shout at Him. You are completely secure in His arms.

I'll be praying for you.

thank you for your prayers <3

 

[BlueStarSkyMonkey]

thanks everyone for your help

 

[Adstar]

I used to be very a very devout Christian..and then when things fell apart in my life, both spiritually and physically i suffered. In 2001 i had a Grand Mal seizure out of nowhere and i became very depressed, very angry at God for letting that happen to me. For years i was angry at Him..then right when i was clawing my way back to i guess believing again i started having seizures..and other health problems as well. I know that it could be alot worse but i still feel angry. Last night i prayed for the first time in years and basically asked for forgiveness and other things and and it felt good, but part of me still feels angry and wants proof that He is there. Is it normal for me to feel like this, is there anything i can do?

[FONT=&quot]You need to ask yourself What is your trust in God based upon:

Do you follow Him for a good life here and now? Is your faith a cargo cult? Dependant on the measure of life benefits God gives you in this world.

Jesus said to the apostles

John 16:33
These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”

In this life we will all have troubles, what Jesus gives is the peace and strength to face our troubles, following Jesus has never been a ticket to a trouble free life.

All Praise The Ancient Of Days[/FONT]

 

[indagroove]

Don't be afraid to be honest with God about your anger.
He is a loving parent, and He knows you're angry.

So there is no harm in speaking to Him, respectfully and honestly, about that anger, and asking Him to help you understand.

AMEN !

God loves you no matter what. Tell him how you feel. Your anger migth be displaced, but he understands and weeps with you. There is no comdemnation throught the blood of Jesus, God is not really doing this to you. It is the fall of man that creates your pain. But there is good news. Satan no longer has authority, and through your faith in the Power of the Holy Spirit, you have commend over your life. You can demand in prayer that your pain be cast out.

Ask God to open the eyes of your heart, and reveal his will to you. There is NO limit to the power, only a limit to our faith.

What you feel is normal, most of us have , and sometimes revisit that place. Your proof will be in your heart. Were you not enlighened after talking to him? That's you proof, and it can be magnified to all aspects of you life. Talk to God.

Remember, you cannot earn his love and grace. It is a gift that you only have to accept. There is nothing you can do to make him turn away from you. God never leaves us, we usually leave him.

We pray for you.

 

[HisArrow]

It is ok to be angry at God. Tell him so and why. At times I get angry..I have a handicap all my life. I get laughed at and left out of stuff that is going on. I ask God why me? But then I see God how God uses this for his purpose. Staying in communication with God and staying in his word and fellowship with others helps. Life has a lot of trials. When I get angry and depressed I remember that Job went thru a lot and God is in controll!