I feel the same way and have been looking for someone to talk to. Lately I have been very vengeful. I got involved in my neighbors business a few months back and they offended me by their comment. Ever since then I have just had this uncontrollable urge to "get back at them". I have called the cops and claimed they almost ran over my child. I also called one day because my husband thought they beeped at us at a stop sign. Most recently I called and claimed that the male was beating the female, but really I only heard them arguing. The police came and arrested him. After that I was so scared that he would come after me for causing him all this pain. I called the police again and claimed that I thought he was outside my house with a gun in the middle of the night. Honestly I am just worried about him coming home once this is over and I want things on records to show that I am afraid, but really none of that is true. I have been in an abusive relationship so I know what it's like and what I needed to say to get him arrested. My life has just been so hard. I committed check fraud when I was younger, I blame my abusive boyfriend but really, I was on drugs at the time and no one made me sign the check but myself. My life is just horrible and I want others’ lives to be horrible sometimes. I have had child services called on me twice. My daughter was cutting herself. I have no job because of my depression and anxiety. I sit at home all day smoking cigarettes and when my kids get home from school, they just get on my nerves so I yell at them. My husband and I are having financial difficulties and marriage trouble and we have only been married for about two years. It was a marriage based on finance not love, so I guess I get what I deserve.
I went to court over the false abuse claim and I put my hand on the bible and lied. This is what made me really regretful, not ruining these people’s lives but lying to God!
It is too late for me to take back what I said, I could go to jail! I feel I am stuck in this lie and will end up in hell for it.
Any advice would be appreciated.
-Christine Steely PA