Wow, I mean simply reading your testimonies really sheds light on God's sovereign grace. For me I started out pretty much heavily Arminian. My uncle even warned me that "Calvinists were not to be trusted. That they were simply intellecutalized everything." At this time I put the pretense of listening to it, already arguing from the other side.Then later on I found out then some of the Christians whom I respected, were Calvinists. I found that really odd, so I started reading more into the doctrines, and TULIP. I tried to be objective by perusing through various sites and also reading on the arguments from each side. Yet I found that being unbiased was impossible. The flesh is corrupt and therefore it wasn't until I understood the extent of human depravity that I actually took heed, and as Acts 17:11 says, "Testing everything with Scripture. I simply didn't want to embrace what I beleived to be a parrot of John Calvin. Plus I was unwilling and unprepared to defend doctrinally Calvinistic views with my predominantly Arminian Christian sphere. So instead, I read books like"Why Am I Not A Calvinist" and "Chosen but Free" (by Norman Geisler, a self-proclaimed Calvinist" His views seemed to coincide with mine at the time being. I later came to realize Geisler is not a true Calvinist. It was not until I changed churches was I taught the rich doctrines, and how no one in the right mind would accept the idea that God monergistically saves man, and other Calvinist ideas, if it were not for the grace of God.So my transition was one from me, "Calvinism, as something difficult to understand yet, I cannot argue that the 5 points are indeed biblical. To what Spurgeon said,"That Calvinism is just biblical Christianity."Still among Arminan circles however, I do not go under the staunch banner of Calvinism, not that I am ashamed but rather that I rather appeal to them through scripture in what is biblically Chrisianity, because of the gross mispreceptions that go along with the label of a Calvinist. Am I a Calvinist? Doctrinally speaking, I agree and am still learning because a surface level understanding of TULIP does not do the Reformed view justice. But I'd rather identify myself as a Christian that is Word Centered, and strives to live a God-centered life. I did not believe it to be fruitful to tell every professing Christian about the TULIP lest they show genuine desire to know, not that I am witholding anything, but in discussing scripture it is truly unavoiding to not bring up election, depravity and other characteristics that are so apparent. In fact often times I share with my Arminian friends why we should not be so fearful when we go out to evangelize, and then they so "Oh, you mean that Calvinist view." I get slightly irratated because it is a Biblical view, and but merely taxonomizing it to be Calvinist and brushing it off in ignorance, is really foolish. Yet, I am not to get so provoked over that, but to stick with scripture. So by not intentionally identifying myself as a Calvinist, among nonCalvinists unless asked, not because of the fear of man, but for the interest of the spiritual growth of others. Be all things to all men, however doesn't mean that we put on Arminian clothing, to blend into the crowd and then but merely preaching the Word and telling others that God is Holy and Just and not merely loving. And that salvation is not a choice of man, but a choice of God. Please pray that God may continue to reform my mind, that I can unlean anything view that is not completely biblical. I praise Him for His sovereignty and election.
Joh 17:9 I am praying for them. I am not praying for the world but for those whom you have given me, for they are yours.