I hate my life.

[empe80]

I'm almost 30 and I hate my life. I wish I had never been born. Because I'm alive I think how I should kill myself. I tried it once but obviously I didn't succeed. I don't have any friends, job and money. I have never even had a girlfriend.

 

[HopingForJesus]

You are special
One of a kind
Please don't give up
Because of your mind
Hold on to your faith
Take one step at a time
May He guide you and lead you
On this mountain you climb...



Please seek out help as soon as you can. Call a hotline even to find someone to talk with. May God bring you through all this.

Said a prayer for you...

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

I'm almost 30 and I hate my life. I wish I had never been born. Because I'm alive I think how should I kill myself. I tried it once but obviously I didn't succeed. I don't have any friends, job and money. I have never even had a girlfriend.

There is hope it can get better, no matter how bad it looks, it still can get better, they used to call me hard luck tom, that was until my luck changed, it is called psychotherapy, and you need about five years worth of a therapist's time to get you to correct your thinking. Hang in there!

 

[empe80]

There is hope it can get better, no matter how bad it looks, it still can get better, they used to call me hard luck tom, that was until my luck changed, it is called psychotherapy, and you need about five years worth of a therapist's time to get you to correct your thinking. Hang in there!

Nothing has changed for the last five years so why should I believe my situation will ever get better?

 

[Criada]

Nothing has changed for the last five years so why should I believe my situation will ever get better?

Well, I don't know what your situation is, or what you are doing about it, brother..
But I do know that God loves you, that He created you for a purpose, and that He has a plan for your life.
It sounds as though you are depressed... if you haven't seen a doctor, it would be a good idea to do so. Meds can make a difference.. they don't change your circumstances, but they can enable you to look at it in a different way.

I am praying for you, brother, and if you need to chat, please PM me.
God bless you.

 

[Ariel]

empe, you sound deeply depressed. I am so sorry.

Don't give up! There are ways to help, your life can change dramatically.

Depression is an illnees, it can be treated. Go to your regular doctor, tell him or her how you feel and ask for help. There are anti-depression medications that can make a world of difference. They take about a week to work, this means that by this time next week you could be feeling so much better.

Just talking about your pain helps as well. Find someone to talk to. A counselor or psychologist can help tremendously. You may just need them for a short time, see if you can find someone. If you can find no one else, talk to a friend, or one of us. We care about you.

Something else that can help is journaling. Write your thoughts and get a handle on your pain--what is bothering you, what has hurt you. Just labeling these things can help you get power over them.

Another huge help is seeking God and finding Him. If you need help just ask.

I am praying for you. (((hug)))

 

[Pathfinder]

I'm almost 30 and I hate my life. I wish I had never been born. Because I'm alive I think how should I kill myself. I tried it once but obviously I didn't succeed. I don't have any friends, job and money. I have never even had a girlfriend.

How come you think you got into this position? If you want you can PM me or contact me on instant messenger. I'm always around to talk and I'd really like to talk with you.

 

[empe80]

Yes, depression can be treated. But I won't kill all the people on Earth (I'm not going to kill anyone (maybe excluding myself)) to stop being afraid. I hate people, hate myself, hate changes. I'm afraid that somebody could beat me up just because I'm weaker. Don't tell me about training judo or sth because I'm not going to do this. I don't even go out after 4pm.

 

[UnitynLove]

Yes, depression can be treated. But I won't kill all the people on Earth (I'm not going to kill anyone (maybe excluding myself)) to stop being afraid. I hate people, hate myself, hate changes. I'm afraid that somebody could beat me up just because I'm weaker. Don't tell me about training judo or sth because I'm not going to do this. I don't even go out after 4pm.

Who are you angry at?

 

[UnitynLove]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92FU...52E6B25F5&index=6&playnext=7&playnext_from=PL

 

[empe80]

I'm angry that I exist.

 

[Criada]

I'm sorry that you feel this way.
I know it probably doesn't help a great deal right now, but your existence is important, and you do have a reason to be here. I am sure that there are those who would miss you if you weren't around.
You seem very depressed.. and that can so easily make life seem impossible, and death seem the easier choice.
But.... I have been at that point.. and I am very glad now that I carried on.. because, even amidst problems, there are so many things that do make life worthwhile.
God loves you.. I know you are probably angry with Him... and you know, that is ok. He can cope with all the anger and negative emotions... and He will still love you just as much.

Praying for you, brother
God bless you.

 

[UnitynLove]

I'm angry that I exist.

Why do you say that?

 

[Ariel]

empe, there is hope for you. Your life can change. Many of us here have made huge changes in our lives. You can too.

I am praying for you.

 

[empe80]

Why do you say that?

Because life is too hard and I don't think there is anything I should live for.

 

[empe80]

empe, there is hope for you. Your life can change. Many of us here have made huge changes in our lives. You can too.

I am praying for you.

But I hate changes. I've been almost the same for fifteen or more years. My clothing or views haven't changed much since then.

 

[Ariel]

Then empe, let me ask you this: How is this working for you? Are you happy?

 

[Criada]

There are good changes and bad ones....
And a change which makes you happier, more at peace, has to be good.

 

[empe80]

Then empe, let me ask you this: How is this working for you? Are you happy?

No, but I'm not happy because I'm alive.

 

[Ariel]

empe, you can be happy to be alive. I know, I've done it.

You need help, my brother. Let me help you.