well I was a christian for many years, not once did I feel like I knew god
Hi Awesomegirl,
Many come to Christ, and do not recieve discipling, nor get to understanding God's word, or perhaps in a church which helps in no way as well.
Others have much opporunity; it all depends, when one comes to Christ and their exposure and understanding and learning.
Since you said above, you felt like you didn't know God, it reveals then that you didn't perhaps read the word or if you did, you didn't grasp it. I've been a Christian 20 years and I know who God is, in as much as I understand about him from the bible, and there is much I don't know.
And of course you know, feelings have nothng to do with knowing God. We don't get feelings such as I mean, same as we would from a loved one. We can get feelings of peace, joy, and such which come from our walk with God.
We can get feelings of burning desire to know Gods word. But we don't get feelings per se meaning as one would in a relationship where one loves someone.
As we grow in Christ, we grow to love God. Of course, if had no love growing up, will be harder to get to that point, and depending on how bad things were from past experiences, love may be very difficult to know that He loves us, which is a truth, so may be hard to grasp such, as well as hard to love God, especially if never had love from others (as if were abused etc, or enviornmental factors), and so actaully tho, our love for God is quite small compared to what it can be.
We will grow in love with God all our lives, step forward, step back, however step back does not mean love God less at all, means we fail growing in God all the time such i meant step forward and back.
And in heaven, we will continue to grow in that love as we will forever be getting to know him more and he is infinite in his love and we won't have the hindrences we have here on earth. God says love the Lord your God, but hon, he knows our hearts and he knows what is difficult for us.
I love God, but due to way I was exposed to with no love from others growing up, and no father basically it doesn't come as easy to me as does to others. Regardless of that though, I do know God loves me very much so, and I also love God, even though it doesn't impact same way as would someone who was raised in a loving environment.
It's all okay, it's a process.
A good church would be the place if wish to get to know God, a Christ centered church, and without that, reading the bible and learning about God.
Many are limited in our knowledge of knowing God. It all depends on our walk, etc.
The closer we walk with God, that is reading the bible, praying, music, and if can go to church or a bible study, these help us in our walk with God.
But reading and music and praying are what anyone can do without leaving home and get to know God better.
I say music, because it moves me very much, due to type I listen to. Christian music is very moving for all of us.
Im sorry, I didn't write a good post here really..
Just wanted to let you know that due to your statement above, more than likely hon, you weren't exposed to much that occurs (tho of course not all) to others, bible, praying, church, bible studies etc, a woman helping you, answering your questions about God.
And you had bad experienes with Christians as well, and while no man should,many do attribute to God what a Christians says and does, which is in no way a picture of who God is, unless they are speaking truths and loving etc, as Jesus taught us.
So, we never look at man to see what God is like, as all men fail. We never put any man on a pedestal, only Christ, and look to Him for all things.
blessings.
tapero