I feel trapped

[fragmentsofbeauty]

I don't know why, I am getting help for my depression finally after 7 years, I should be happy. But sometimes it only seems like every day sucks more out of me, I look at people twice my age in awe and wonder how anyone has the endurance to live that long. I'm trying to believe that things will get better but I'm not doing too great a job at the moment and wonder if soon I'll have had too much and end it all. The memories of being happy are fading and distant, its been too long, what if I can't make it? I so want to be a success story, but..that usually isn't me. *sigh* I'm just so tired, sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live just one day in the life of someone who's free from all this stuff. Sorry this is so depressing, just needed to know someone knows how i feel.

 

[goldenviolet]

excepting that we have down and blue days is something that carried me. next is finding things to help me manage my moods. so maybe i need to have a blue day... listening to my music on high. going to the library for a good book. watching movies. bible study, volunteer jobs, and people.... i just surround myself with things that distract and bring me comforts.

i just applied all these things. i still get the blues, but there is too much joy and peace in the things i surround myself with. what kinds of things can you do to motivate yourself when you feel blue? bless your heart. i'll even call a crisis line if i have to have someone to talk to. do whatever it takes to be safe and manage your moods. love dee

 

[Onlythingavailable]

I've never suffered from depression for long periods, so my experience is a little bit limited. However, when I do get them they really "shoot me down." I don't even really know what brings them on, but usually I just wake up and the only thing I'm aware of are the things that are "missing" from my life. It's like I forget everything that I have, and only focus on what I don't have.

Sometimes I combat it by occupying myself with random stuff. Essentially, I ignore the feelings and sooner or later they go away. Sometimes i try to figure out what sets it off, what is it I'm missing, etc. Remembering what I have seems to work best for me. Remembering that I have God, or rather God has me, helps me the most.

I suppose this only applies to"blue days", as goldenviolet put it, and not to long term depression. I'll be praying for you.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Gorgeous You are recovering – I’ve seen it – but recovery is never easy. There will be times when you feel too exhausted to go on. There will be times when slipping makes you think you’ve failed. But there will also be times when you can see the progress you’ve made and when you can look in the mirror and know that you’re not just going to survive – you’re going to live.

You say that you’re not a success story – I beg to differ. Do you remember those verses from yesterday? I'll remind you of a few of them...

You are a child of God (John 1:12). You are already saved by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). You are completely forgiven (Colossians 1:14). You are constantly, unconditionally loved (Jeremiah 31:3). You are a member of our family; of Christ's body (1 Corinthians 12:27). You can do all things through Christ who has already given you the strength you need (Philippians 4:13).

Beautiful, you are a walking miracle who God personally took the time to create and shape and even at this moment He loves you boldly and with an undying passion. That sounds like a success story to me

I’ve already seen the amazing courage you possess and I know you can make it. I have faith in you.

Love you so very much sis. You know that I’m praying for you.

Shalom,
Steffi

PS. Would you give Sunny a hug for me? I think he might be a little lonely.

 

[madison1101]

Well, I am approaching 50, and I can say that life is worth it. God has a plan and purpose for your life. Instead of thinking of ending it prematurely, why not seek God's face and learn what an awesome God He is. He loves you with an everlasting love, and will never leave you nor forsake you.

Have you read "The Purpose Driven Life" By Rick Warren? Get yourself a copy and read it. Get yourself in a women's bible study with women of all ages and learn from them how they have coped and cried through life's struggles.

I understand depression because I have had it and I am also a therapist in psychiatric hospital. If you get to the point where you consider suicide, call 911 or go to an emergency room BEFORE you act on the feelings. Discuss what you wrote to us with a psychologist or psychiatrist and have them evaluate you for risk of suicide. I have worked with many patients who attempted to die, and the guilt, shame and remorse they feel afterward is just devastating. What is worse is the pain and suffering the family experiences when a suicide attempt is successful. My father-in-law took his life 29 years ago. My ex-husband never really healed from that one.

Be safe and be good to yourself.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[fragmentsofbeauty]

Thanks everyone for the amazing support and advice, much appreciated I know that nothing is too big for God to do but sometimes I need a reminder that I'm not in this alone and it helps to get me through when people care. Still struggling, but God is faithful right? Thanks again,

Always,
Christina

 

[Anti Existance]

Depression comes from living your life in the wrong way. You see nothing in this universe can make you happy exept loving and helping other people. So if you live your life in a loving way, you can start pushing out your negativity and negative unrewarding lifestyle by something thats more positive which more balanced, replacing all the chaos with order and bringing your life in calmer waters.

 

[Crystal~Rose]

Praying for you!!!​

 

[Anti Existance]

that's beautifull LUVIN.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

34 years old.
I know how you feel.
It's harder at your age. Life is a disaster at 19 when thigns are going as well as possible.
Now...my tenacity grows deeper with each year.