- Jan 3, 2018
- 8
- 13
- Country
- Australia
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Christian Seeker
- Marital Status
- Single
Back in my early years in high school I wasn't exactly a Christian in fact I was the opposite which isn't something I feel proud to say but it happened. Anyway I'm confused because back then I felt amazing like life was great but a friend of mine encouraged me into Christianity and I'm not going to lie my life ever since then has sucked. Its been like that for years now like every time I try and build a stronger relationship with god life just becomes tougher yet when ever I kind of lay back from it my life all of a sudden becomes better. I feel like god doesn't want me because he has never really answered my prayers well maybe once but that's it. Like my faith was and has been incredibly strong yet nothing happens. I see everyone has some kind of testimonial of how god saved them and gave them hope but I'm just like well heck why haven't i been blessed like that. I've upheld gods values probably better then most people yet I'm just left in the dark. People say just hold and your time will come or just pray but I'm not invincible i can't hold on for ever and well my prayers are completely useless because they don't even work. Like am I really not fit for gods love.