On the brink of insanity and willing yourself to be okay because my mom needs me. Having zero self worth after a bad church experience and it plays over and over in your mind but I ruminate and have nothing to do and can't do nothing, have chronic nightmares to the point I try not to sleep at night and sleep in the day...
And I get to see other people have a nice life in front of my face
Now forget what you're thinking about concerning people living nice lives.
Lets concentrate on your life as its just as loved and important as people who appear blessed.
Describe the Church experience for me?
Describe your thoughts of what you think is insanity. What makes you think you're insane?
Also regarding nightmares, God will always protect you. Call on Him when you're scared and say.
Heavenly Father, I'm scared, my dreams, Lord I don't want to feel scared, I know you saved me Lord and defeated evil, you have all Power over evil, may you take my bad dreams away and expel any bad or evil feelings? I'm sorry for my sins, I don't want to sin, I want to love you God the way you love me. In Jesus name Amen.
Meditate on each line of the Lord prayer, learn it if you haven't and pray it meditating (talking to God) to acknowledge what each word means.
Matthew 6:9-13King James Version (KJV)
9 After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.
10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.
11 Give us this day our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.
Speak it out loud when you're really scared and your Faith and belonging within Christ Jesus will scare off evil its self.
We need to get you back to living in the light hours and sleeping in the nocturnal hours.