I dont trust God anymore..

[I'm_Sorry]

Wow I'm spool sorry about your spouse..I am really.

Watching YouTube videos is helping to calm me down....


I think I'll be okay for now.

Thank you guys for your support.

Thank you, see you cant be hated, if you can love!

Concentrate on your ability to be loving, let Christ teach you how much love you have to offer to the world.

God loves you like this:

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 New International Version (NIV)

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.



Remember when you feel like ending your life God is there with you always loving you, that's his nature.

He even put brothers and sisters on the earth to be with you when you feel this way too.

Some have experience it just as you and some have been there for people like you.

So if you feel that way don't hesitate to reach out to us.

You can see God's loving nature.

Go outside during the day and feed some animals. Befriend them, love them and you will be rewarded with love in return. Be with His creation, watch its complex beauty and feel and smell its life.

God bless you, endure with Christ Jesus unto the end.

 

[I'm_Sorry]

That way I can not blame god or be mad at someone that's not on the forefront of my mind,,..and I can be free in my own way.

Yeah I think this is what I'm going to do.

First learn different perspectives of your awesome loving Father and His creation.

Go outside and enjoy it as I mentioned. Learn God's love

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

First learn different perspectives of your awesome loving Father and His creation.

Go outside and enjoy it as I mentioned. Learn God's love

Idk... I'm not ready to trust God right now. Not now maybe some years from now.

 

[I'm_Sorry]

Idk... I'm not ready to trust God right now. Not now maybe some years from now.

Take some time to enjoy God's creation, keep Him in your thoughts and reflect on the help your brothers and sisters provide here for you

God bless you.

 

[timewerx]

My life hasn't gotten,better since I've gotten saved not with my effort or Gods, there's just obstacle after obstacle.. I'm 25 in 5 more years ill be 30 ...

I've prayed ,for help,healing and got neither... And I know now God isn't for me. He doesn't like or love me ...don't waste your breath because ill never be convinced....

I feel like an idiot for believing in Gods promises...there only for some people, people he likes and I'm not one of them...

Its crystal clear....

I just wonder if God just made me to be his punching bag,something to laugh at ,something to torment.?

I'm done....

I have alot of thinking to do.

There's a lot of false teachings in Christianity today that places unrealistic expectations upon God.

You are simply a victim of these false teachings.

It isn't actually God's responsibility to help you... but those who has been given more. It is their responsibility. It's in the Bible. God meant it this way to test humanity.

Just hang in there! My life is in terrible shape too! Just hanging by a thread as well!

 

[Greg J.]

@Far Side Of the Moon, why have you associated your pain and suffering with God? You have been conditioned to believe something that is not true. Pain and suffering is the result of sin. It isn't fair, but the reality is that other people's sins are the source of most of our pain and suffering.

Thinking God should rescue you requires you put yourself in the place of God. Our goal is to accept whatever God has chosen to allow, and trust him. He has promised to ensure whatever cost we paid in suffering will be paid back 10 or 100 times in good things. The only thing required of us is to trust him. Stick with him and do not reject him.

One thing that I think can help anyone's faith is to hear or read people recounting what God has supernaturally done in their lives. I didn't vet any of the videos here, but some look like they're worth checking out. There are also monthly publications that encourage with the truth, as well as books and devotionals.

The LORD’S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22-23, NASB)

Remember to drink from the wellspring of life every day. Receive your daily bread from the Lord. Read some (encouraging) Scripture and pray. Persist in asking for what you need and want, but you must also do what you can do in the same direction. Short-term tempering of pain can come from other people, especially those who love you in ways that you perceive as love.

 

[I'm_Sorry]

Remember to drink from the wellspring of life every day. Receive your daily bread from the Lord.

Yes just as your body feels terrible when you starve it from food and water, so do does your spirit when it's starved of spiritual bread and water. Hearing the living Word of God and being in a loving relationship with Him committing all your heart mind soul strength in love to Him.

The rewards once He begins to change your word view from "world" to "heavenly" are forever Good!

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

@Far Side Of the Moon, why have you associated your pain and suffering with God? You have been conditioned to believe something that is not true. Pain and suffering is the result of sin. It isn't fair, but the reality is that other people's sins are the source of most of our pain and suffering.

Thinking God should rescue you requires you put yourself in the place of God. Our goal is to accept whatever God has chosen to allow, and trust him. He has promised to ensure whatever cost we paid in suffering will be paid back 10 or 100 times in good things. The only thing required of us is to trust him. Stick with him and do not reject him.

One thing that I think can help anyone's faith is to hear or read people recounting what God has supernaturally done in their lives. I didn't vet any of the videos here, but some look like they're worth checking out. There are also monthly publications that encourage with the truth, as well as books and devotionals.

The LORD’S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22-23, NASB)

Remember to drink from the wellspring of life every day. Receive your daily bread from the Lord. Read some (encouraging) Scripture and pray. Persist in asking for what you need and want, but you must also do what you can do in the same direction. Short-term tempering of pain can come from other people, especially those who love you in ways that you perceive as love.

If we have to accept whatever, then what's the point of his promises? Does that mean I stop believing in them?

 

[I'm_Sorry]

If we have to accept whatever, then what's the point of his promises? Does that mean I stop believing in them?

Tell us the promises you're struggling to understand

E.g. Why did God promised this "" and I see/feel/hear this ""

 

[Greg J.]

Some people seem to have forgotten this is a support forum.

We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many. (bold mine, 2 Corinthians 1:8-11, 1984 NIV)

Based on my own experiences, @Far Side Of the Moon is experiencing greater pain than Paul did. She doesn't have Paul's strength. One cannot apply ideas about pain to others. It's even inaccurate to apply one's own experience of pain to another. We're all different. The best and only way is to see how it is affecting them and trust that if it is disabling it is severe. If I stub my toe and it throws me into years of wishing I was dead, only the "wishing I was dead" part is useful for understanding what I'm going through.

It can be comforting to read the book of Job, because one can see that he wrote things that the person could have written themselves in describing their pain.

Hardly any of God's promises have a guaranteed time frame. Believing the truth of Scripture is the only way to know God correctly, and at the root of it all is that God is love (1 John 4:8, 16). His nature is love; he cannot act outside his nature. Every act of his has sacrificial love as its root motivation. Allowing any experience to influence one's understanding of (or relationship to) God can be deceptive.

Personally, I attribute the good things in my life to God (James 1:17) and the bad things to the sin in the world. Except when I'm suffering, in which case I acquire a blaming heart and don't understand why he is allowing it. Like it or not, it is through battling that contradiction with the truth that healing and strengthening comes, because it opens up greater access to you by God.

 

[Galatea]

Yeah I have felt worse in my past.
I guess you're right.

I just wish I had faith in myself...myself esteem is just not the best.

One thing that helps me is that I always know who I am in Christ- precious enough for Him to suffer and die. Hold onto that, always.

I would say, something that might help you is finding a Bible verse that will speak to your heart and memorize it, that way you can remember it when you have false ideas about yourself playing in your head.

Mine is Romans 8:38-39 "For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

He loves us that much.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

One thing that helps me is that I always know who I am in Christ- precious enough for Him to suffer and die. Hold onto that, always.

I would say, something that might help you is finding a Bible verse that will speak to your heart and memorize it, that way you can remember it when you have false ideas about yourself playing in your head.

Mine is Romans 8:38-39 "For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

He loves us that much.

Things have gotten better, I'm gonna be starting work on Thursday and getting a new car. I could really bawl right now.

 

[look4hope]

@Far Side Of the Moon,
It is very good to hear things have gotten better. New job, new car. That is fantastic. But you know what is ever more fantastic? You, feeling better and hopefully....keeping that faith in God. Hold on tight, even in the middle of a tempest.

Best wishes

 

[Galatea]

Things have gotten better, I'm gonna be starting work on Thursday and getting a new car. I could really bawl right now.

Go ahead and cry. Crying is good for you. It releases some things, it's cathartic.

 

[LoyalToGod]

Things have gotten better, I'm gonna be starting work on Thursday and getting a new car. I could really bawl right now.

Congratulations!

 

[LovebirdsFlying]

The OP is written in the language of depression, one that I speak fluently. I, too, have felt sometimes that my role is to be life's punching bag, that I exist for bad things to happen to. That way, or so my reasoning goes when I am depressed, society can look at what happened to me, and say "That's bad. Let's not let it happen again." Then changes get made, attitudes get rethought, laws get written, and other people are spared what happened to me. Not a bad reason for existing, I suppose, if in the long run it benefits society.

But again, that's depression talking. Depression can warp logic. If it really were my designated role to be life's punching bag... what happens when we are truly living our purpose? Don't we feel fulfilled? If I were supposed to be the punching bag, and I'm serving the purpose I'm meant to serve, I would *love* it. If I don't feel fulfilled, if I don't love it, then it's not my role.

I hope that bit of rambling helps. And congratulations on the new job and new car. Go ahead and bawl if it cleans out your system.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

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[Far Side Of the Moon]

The OP is written in the language of depression, one that I speak fluently. I, too, have felt sometimes that my role is to be life's punching bag, that I exist for bad things to happen to. That way, or so my reasoning goes when I am depressed, society can look at what happened to me, and say "That's bad. Let's not let it happen again." Then changes get made, attitudes get rethought, laws get written, and other people are spared what happened to me. Not a bad reason for existing, I suppose, if in the long run it benefits society.

But again, that's depression talking. Depression can warp logic. If it really were my designated role to be life's punching bag... what happens when we are truly living our purpose? Don't we feel fulfilled? If I were supposed to be the punching bag, and I'm serving the purpose I'm meant to serve, I would *love* it. If I don't feel fulfilled, if I don't love it, then it's not my role.

I hope that bit of rambling helps. And congratulations on the new job and new car. Go ahead and bawl if it cleans out your system.

Thank you all for your thoughtful responses ...of really love if this thread could be closed

 

[mnorian]

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