- Jun 19, 2016
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- Country
- United Kingdom
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
This started a few years ago. When I was 17, it seemed like my attraction to women just went away within the space of a few days. This affected me a lot.
Then I slowly lost my interests in other things: I lost interest in what I was studying at school, lost interest in watching sports and lost interest in doing anything.
Nowadays I am my only company and entertain myself with the internet and that is it for the most part. I have no friends and no interest to get on with my life. While other people grow up, get a wife, family etc. I feel I will never make that step - it doesn’t feel natural for me.
I don’t feel like there’s a point to anything. There’s no point meeting people as they are all fake and don’t even really care about me - just themselves. There’s no point going out because I’m not even enjoying myself, it’s like I’m just finding a way to pass time.
Also, I don’t love or care about anyone - I don’t even think I care about myself. There’s nothing I can do about this, I can’t have feelings that I don’t feel.
Then I slowly lost my interests in other things: I lost interest in what I was studying at school, lost interest in watching sports and lost interest in doing anything.
Nowadays I am my only company and entertain myself with the internet and that is it for the most part. I have no friends and no interest to get on with my life. While other people grow up, get a wife, family etc. I feel I will never make that step - it doesn’t feel natural for me.
I don’t feel like there’s a point to anything. There’s no point meeting people as they are all fake and don’t even really care about me - just themselves. There’s no point going out because I’m not even enjoying myself, it’s like I’m just finding a way to pass time.
Also, I don’t love or care about anyone - I don’t even think I care about myself. There’s nothing I can do about this, I can’t have feelings that I don’t feel.