I am losing it...

[hanaya]

I feel like I'm going completely out of my mind. I mean, this comes and goes but today it's bad and I mean really bad. I can't sleep, I feel sick to my stomach, I'm shaking and I can't breathe and I keep crying for no reason. I"m losing it and I don't know how to stop that from happening. I need help but I don't even know what I need. It's my depression and my anxiety at least but it feels like something more. I'm not  suicidal but I am going crazy. I'm hearing things and seeing things that aren't there, I'm having all sorts of awful thoughts and I just can't deal. All I want to do is curl up in bed and go to sleep but I can't do that.

And I want to be able to curl up in the arms of the guy I love and have him tell me that everything is okay, but he's not and it's not. He has his own burdens and I need him so much right now but I can't ask that of him and even if I could I don't know how. He doesn't understand, I don't even understand.

And I don't even think I know how to pray right now. I mean, I don't even want to be with myself, why would God want to deal with me? I know I should just give this to God and I'm trying but I don't know how. I'm desperate here. I'm having a total breakdown and I'm losing myself and I know if I fall then I won't be able to get back because I barely made it out last time and I'm so scared. I don't want to lose myself again. I don't know how to fix this.

Please help, pray for me, I don't know, just don't let me fall. Anyone, please.

-Hanaya

 

[paulewog]

/me prays for her, and asks God to envelope her in His love, to bring to her mind the great, perfect, love that He has for her

 

[Miyu]

Sounds like you are having a panic attack...I get them sometimes, and it is exactly like you describe.

Mine usually do not last long...an hour or two, and do not come often...so I just try to tough it out.

But when I got them more frequently, I did go on medication for a while, and it really helped...I would suggest seeing a doctor.

And of course, I will pray for you.

 

[hanaya]

I have anxiety attacks and depression and it hasn't just been a few hours, it's been all of today and a little bit over the last few days, the last few weeks even. I tried some meds but they didn't do anything. I'm just losing it and it's like there's nothing I can do to stop it
-Hanaya

 

[Miyu]

sometimes it takes a while for the meds to kick in...prozac takes about two weeks before it starts making a difference...

Also, sometimes you have to try more than one to find the one that works best for you. So don't give up.

Medication won't make your problems go away, but it can take the edge off so you can handle them better...so you don't feel so hopeless.

And even when you can't feel Him, God is right there with you.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
For I am the LORD your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

 

[JDM]

Hanaya, I will pray for you.

 

[Praise ADONAI !]

When you seek to resolve the problem yourself, you are left to yourself.
Bring in two seriously, dedicated, Believers to you (if they still have active sins in their life-bypass them and get someone else-God doesn't hear the prayers of subverted sinners)and have them anoint your head with oil and have them pray for you. Have them also agree to pray and fast for you x number a day per week. A true fast is consist of nothing to eat or drink. Have them read Isaiah 58 the entire chapter!

You'll notice that when you fast, it must be done when you're not working or doing anything else. Most people have two days off per week from work, one day per week would be a good start.

Now for you, I have this recommendation. You may not like it. You too should pray and fast to Our Heavenly Father in Jesus Name to remove your WILL and AGENDA from your life and surrender yourself to the LORD! If you are sinning, it MUST stop now! If you continue after your healing is complete, your nightmare plus more will return. You mentioned a boyfriend. If twaining is involved and you two have no intentions on marrying, this too must stop. If you HAVE intentions on marrying, you are already married in God's eyes.

The last required action to take involves a sweet mystery that I love. You must clean your mind out..........
How do you do that? You may not believe it and this fact isn't persuaded by your disbelief whatsoever.......you must read the Holy Bible (King James Version) every single day! Read the entire book of John with in the four gospels. Read it Mornining, noon and night! When you get to the end, go back and start all over again.

I am telling you a mystery here. You may not understand it but it works! Jesus Words have spiritual powers in them. What His Words do to the human soul is a mystery to me, all I know it works. When His Words abide in you and you abide in Him with sin abated, and you do what He ask, you'll find your prayers being answered according to God's Will and Objective for your life and His overall plan for His creation.

You will also need a faith excercise in order to built up your faith muscle. It sounds a little flabby. Find a homeless shelter or a church that has outreach activity that brings food to people in need. This good work will seal fruit into your testimony and build up your faith muscle. One additional requirement for your faith muscle is to tune into a radio or t.v. channel featuring a minister that is reading from the Word Of God.

There are plenty of christian stores that have the Holy Bible on audio tapes or cd's. Your spirit and soul needs to Hear the Word of God, Read the Word of God, Pray the promises of the Word of God, if you remember, quite of few Believers in the Bible reminded God of what He said in order to get the desired result. I think it is a way God uses to see if we know His Word. Just like the rich man that walked away when Jesus told him to sell all that he has and follow Him. Had the rich man known the promises of God, he would have known that God say He will repay those whom stretched out their hand to the poor!

Lastly, don't sin..............and your faith will rise as high as the morning sun and your joy will fill your heart and never leave. The peace that and calmness that stays with you is simply awesome and when trials and tribulation comes, you'll keep asking your self, "how come I'm not getting upset? this is wierd!" and your sleep is so deep and sound....you have no idea!
Death doesn't scare you anymore, violence doesn't scare you anymore, the condition of this society or world doesn't scare you anymore......

Keep that faith muscle strong, and built, with diverse curves, cut into it and it will reward you in the end..lo it is your faith that will lift you up when the Trump sounds and we all are caught up with Him in the clouds to be with the Lord forever...........................................

I also will be praying for you.

Your Brother In the Body Of Christ,

Jeff

 

[Hopeful]

the meds dont work for a few weeks, dont give up

 

[Susan]

(if they still have active sins in their life-bypass them and get someone else-God doesn't hear the prayers of subverted sinners)

Um. . .then nobody can pray for her, not even you, because we all sin in many ways every day. Even if we don't intentionally sin (a goal we should all strive for) we sin unintentionally, and if we just lay around in bed all day reading the Bible so we don't sin, we've sinned a sin of omission-of not doing what was needed. And since we inherit sinfulness by simply being in a human body. . .it is impossible to live an absolutely sinless existance unless we literally are dead.

And what special spiritual value does the KJV have other any other translation of God's Word?

Sorry for sidetracking this, but I see some major problems with that post and have more than a few questions.

Hanaya, I prayed for you. . . and I hope God heard.

I second Miyu's advice to get some help, because while the problem may be demonic (in which case the prayer, fasting, and leaving your boyfriend and any thoughts toward him would help, but KJV onlyism is unnecessary), it is most likely medical.

 

[rssllue]

Oh boy have I been there. I don't think I ever had a specific anxiety attack, but I have felt such isolation and lonliness as if not even god could find me in my despair. I was just thinking about that today in fact before I came here to view posts; funny how God works-but very COOL hoe He works. All I can tell you, hanaya is that God Is stretching out His hands to you right now. And that the Lord Is trying to pull you into His sweet loving embrace. All I can say in relation to my struggles in the past, was that when they were at their worst, and I did not believe the things i just typed, and I found myself sitiing in my car at work unable to get out and face another day in this corrupt world that we dwell in and that I let myself become a part of with compromise, at that time God used a song that i barely know to reach out to my heart and pull my eyes from this earth to Him in His heaven! It was Horizon by 38th Parallel. And when they said: So here at the end of this day, when the world is faded in grey, I will look to blue horizons, and watch for You to come, when my hope is tattered and torn, when my faith is weathered and worn, I look to the blue horizons. The words struck me deep through my depression and I found myself gazing at the horizon in front of me actually waiting for the Lord to return right then! Of course that did not happen that day, but to remember that He PROMISES to return for us one day and to bring us into His eternal peace and rest! And let me tell you, hanaya, that this will all be SO worth it when you get to look into His loving eyes and never have to worry anymore about being loved, or feeling bad, or sinning

 

[Susan]

Lastly, don't sin..............and your faith will rise as high as the morning sun and your joy will fill your heart and never leave. The peace that and calmness that stays with you is simply awesome and when trials and tribulation comes, you'll keep asking your self, "how come I'm not getting upset? this is wierd!" and your sleep is so deep and sound....you have no idea!
Death doesn't scare you anymore, violence doesn't scare you anymore, the condition of this society or world doesn't scare you anymore......

That doesn't sound like faith to me. That sounds like an almost-stereotypical disconnect from reality. And if real death and violence don't scare you, excuse me while I run, as fast and as far as possible, from you. That's absolutely frightening in itself that someone would feel that way.

 

[rssllue]

Oh boy have I been there. I don't think I ever had a specific anxiety attack, but I have felt such isolation and lonliness as if not even god could find me in my despair. I was just thinking about that today in fact before I came here to view posts; funny how God works-but very COOL how He works. All I can tell you, hanaya is that God Is stretching out His hands to you right now. And that the Lord Is trying to pull you into His sweet loving embrace. All I can say in relation to my struggles in the past, was that when they were at their worst, and I did not believe the things i just typed, and I found myself sitting in my car at work unable to get out and face another day in this corrupt world that we dwell in and that I let myself become a part of with compromise, at that time God used a song that I barely know to reach out to my heart and pull my eyes from this earth to Him in His heaven! It was Horizon by 38th Parallel. And when they said: So here at the end of this day, when the world is faded in grey, I will look to blue horizons, and watch for You to come, when my hope is tattered and torn, when my faith is weathered and worn, I look to the blue horizons. The words struck me deep through my depression and I found myself gazing at the horizon in front of me actually waiting for the Lord to return right then! Of course that did not happen that day, but to remember that He PROMISES to return for us one day and to bring us into His eternal peace and rest! And let me tell you, hanaya, that this will all be SO worth it when you get to look into His loving eyes and never have to worry anymore about being loved, or feeling bad, or sinning EVER AGAIN! It is such a thing to look forward to! I still look to the horizon and watch for Him on the days I feel down or unworthy, or just out of sorts with the world and that always reminds me of His beautiful promise. I hope you can get something out of my struggle and get into the Lord's peace, hanaya! I will be praying for you! Take care and keep the faith for sometimes it is all we have, but it is all we ever need!

 

[supermagdalena]

I entirely understand. The important thing with things like this, panic attacks or not, is to come to the realization that this won't kill you if you give it to God, and that it will pass and you'll be alive after it. It's hard to realize since thing that this feel so fatal, and so awful that you almost want to die. I still suffer from panic attacks, but now I just kind of cope by ignoring them, I've learned after a year now. Most of all, pray and get people prayin' for ya', which is what I suspect you're doing I'll be praying for God to give you the strength to overcome this.

"I know God won't give me anything that I can not handle, I just wish He did not trust me so much." --Mother Theresa

 

[supermagdalena]

Sorry, but uh, if you're narrowing it down to sinless people, then you only really have one choice. Jesus. If any of us were sinless we wouldn't need Him in the first place.

And if God didn't listen to prayers of sinners then He wouldn't have much to do as far as us humans are concerned.

 

[Susan]

BTW-Happy birthday supermagdalena!

(I was quoting "Minister Jeff's" post in my posts)

 

[supermagdalena]

I noticed you didn't originally say that stuff. I agreed with what you said, just felt like expanding I don't think I have the capability of keeping my mouth shut..

Thanks!

 

[Susan]

That's fine: I was only making sure no one misunderstands me as saying that. I give worthless advice, not dangerous advice. -^.^-

Oh, and you're welcome

 

[jayebrownlee]

hanaya,

Thissi something I can really relate to, I have serious psychiaric illness and I struggle with things like this all the time. Just last night I told my fiancé to his face that I had never seen him before and I wanted him out my house. The thing to relasie is that you can't do this alone. You need to get medical help, you need to get to a doctor. Don't worry that youdon't know what you need they will be able to help you. Trust them, even if ti goes against your instincts.

God is looking after you, remember the poem "footprints", it is true.

If you want to talk to someone who has been there and done that then PM me or E-mail me.

God bless you sister

Your sister in HIm

Jay

 

[Vollkommen Warrior]

Jeff has some great advice and aspirations. I agree with his intent completely. As to the meds, these folks are ABSOLUTELY correct, go get them NOW. Don't suffer. This is way to hard. You know when you need them, you are saying uncle like me. I hate pills but I "requested" them after I felt like that. And I didn't even know if they would help. Well, they do. It takes 3 weeks, you can do it but take it the full length of time. Many of the folks on here are at the point where a chemical is missing and the body aint producing it. If you had diabetes, would you not take your meds? It may be at the point it is physical illness, you just may be to that point right now and need some physical or chemical interaction. Hope you feel better, said a prayer 4 u.

 

[Galadriel]

I understand how things can get real bad sometimes. IT can feel like you are just in a lonely void, but rssllue said some really good things, and I know it can feel like God is far away, but He promises to be with us always, and someday He will come, but you gotta keep fighting. You are in my thoughts