- Jun 3, 2017
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- Eastern Orthodox
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- Single
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- US-Constitution
With all that's going on at my work, I'm just beginning to think that the only thing I'm cut out for is simple manual labor in poverty. I'm no more perfect than any other human being, but I'm very intelligent and insistent on honesty, and as soon as people pick up on that, they start maneuvering against me because they figure their dirty little secrets aren't safe from me. I know the life of a monk is not escape from the world. I realize shady stuff goes on even in the deepest chambers of our Church. But if I can just find a simple pattern of living, away from all the games of thrones that intensify whenever there are big-time resources and social influence to win, I can at least prevent myself from being stressed enough to want to die. I mean, maybe a simple job at Kroger can offer me the same thing, but either way, I feel I am done with any skilled labor that involves actually applying my expertise. I know how to play the Game; but it's not worth playing to me.