Hello....
I hope you can find the strength Wendy. Me too.
I'm in the same boat. I've been going to one a week, but I'm NOT working a program, and I CAN TELL. I am SO depressed, (coming off the pills too) I feel like such a dummy. I have addict tendancies no matter what I take. I have to stay active in my own recovery, or I won't be recovered. I feel horrible. I know what to do about it, and I'm not going to dwell on the thoughts of how worthless I am. I'm tuning them out with my own positive self talk, I try to talk about all of this with someone else, that's what I've been told to do. Right now, I'm just thankfull I have not gotten back into alcohol or 'drugs' (as if pills are not drugs, but I mean the hard ones) anyway, I will fight this. I pray for strength, and i'll pray for you too Wendy.
Thanks for being here, to all who are.
Blessings,
B~
Hey B~
Find the strength?? I guess I didn't, I chose to go to my son's hockey game.
I'm not working the program either. I got to step #3, and now I'm where I am.
I don't have anyone to talk to besides the AA members I have met...and since I haven't been there over the last while....haven't really talked to anyone. I guess I have tried to...but it's hard to get my mind straight enough to really express..."where I'm at" other than...I've had slips,
now I feel physically sick...(which is weird considering what I used to drink to feel like this) which leads to emotional/mental strain. I have so many issues with my home life...that I just want the world to stop so I can get my thoughts out Or at least straight in my head. I know the world won't stop so I can 'catch up'...but right now...I'd appreciate it if it did.
I know...what's my problem???...I know what I should do, I don't want to go back to where I was...what's my problem????????
Thanks for your prayers B~
And I too thank all that are here.
Not the best way to celebrate 3rd month.
Wendy
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