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[Lisa0315]

I want to spend eternal life with God and Jesus more then anything in the world spend an eternity in peace even more than my family does that mean I love God and Christ more than my family?

I think you missed what I was saying...

If you were called away to Africa, would you leave your father, mother, brothers and sisters to go? If so, then, you have nothing to worry about.

Lisa

 

[Jayangel81]

That verse is never easy for a new Christian, our love for God grows and its not always there in the begining. I know that was my case. I realize that if my ministry takes me away from everyone that I love han im prepared to do it.

Jesus doesnt want anything to get in the way of it. there were a few people in the New Testament who had a problem with that, they wanted to go back to their families before following Jesus to wherever He wanted to take them..

Just as Lisa said.

My heart was set on becoming a full time missionary, I would rarely ever see my family. My mom had a huge problem with that. But God comes first. Its not like He wants to tear us apart from our loved ones, but He wants us to prepare to do whats nessacary.

Its part of you offering yourself as a sacrifice to God.

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

Romans 12:21

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we need to remember we were bought at a price, and I have to say. It isnt always easy. ​

 

[JamesAH]

This is not easy.It's hard to focus on things but when you have a zillion thoughts going through your head you can't focus on what matters.

I live in constant fear of doing the wrong thing,saying the wrong thing and feeling the wrong thing to make God angry to the point where I lost my ticket to be with him and his Son.

Like I said before this has affected my personal life.The things I enjoyed doing like playing games,listening to music or spending time with my family I have no longer joy because of my constant thoughts and fears of doing the wrong thing in the eyes of the Lord himself.It's affected my health like I hardly eat much anymore and I can't get decent sleep because of my anxiety attacks.

I'm also afraid of reading,listening or saying anything relating to God and Jesus in fear of it triggering an unwanted response it's even affecting my prayers.

I'm like a lost kid,alone in the dark scared with nothing but despair and hopelessness.

I can't talk to anyone outside a forum like this because of embarrassment and I'm usually a private person anyway.

It's like I'm handcuffed beaten down and drained.I'm 36 and yet I feel like a little child in the fetal position wondering what to do.

 

[Lisa0315]

This is not easy.It's hard to focus on things but when you have a zillion thoughts going through your head you can't focus on what matters.

I live in constant fear of doing the wrong thing,saying the wrong thing and feeling the wrong thing to make God angry to the point where I lost my ticket to be with him and his Son.

Like I said before this has affected my personal life.The things I enjoyed doing like playing games,listening to music or spending time with my family I have no longer joy because of my constant thoughts and fears of doing the wrong thing in the eyes of the Lord himself.It's affected my health like I hardly eat much anymore and I can't get decent sleep because of my anxiety attacks.

I'm also afraid of reading,listening or saying anything relating to God and Jesus in fear of it triggering an unwanted response it's even affecting my prayers.

I'm like a lost kid,alone in the dark scared with nothing but despair and hopelessness.

I can't talk to anyone outside a forum like this because of embarrassment and I'm usually a private person anyway.

It's like I'm handcuffed beaten down and drained.I'm 36 and yet I feel like a little child in the fetal position wondering what to do.

How long have you been on meds? You really should be feeling some relief by now. I recommend that you call your MD. Something is not working well enough for you.

Lisa

 

[JamesAH]

How long have you been on meds? You really should be feeling some relief by now. I recommend that you call your MD. Something is not working well enough for you.

Lisa

Only a few days it took at least 3 months last time I was on.

 

[Lisa0315]

One more thing...I cling to Romans 8. The whole chapter. It starts out with No Condemnation and ends with No Separation. That is a promise that God will keep even if we do not keep our promises to Him.

Lisa

 

[JamesAH]

See this is what I mean I can't read things like glorify God without thinking that he's some arrogant ego person which he isn't.

I'm scared that it is me and not the OCD or my GAD acting up I'm hoping the medication starts helping.

 

[Jayangel81]

James whats GAD?

 

[JamesAH]

James whats GAD?

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

 

[Jayangel81]

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Gotcha

Well im praying your medicine kicks in soon

 

[JamesAH]

Does God and Christ love us more then the stars in the heavens and the grains of sand on the earth? and are we the most important thing to them?

 

[JamesAH]

Also does He want us to love him more because he loves us more than anything sorry to ask these stupid silly questions but this will help me understand God a lot better.

 

[Jayangel81]

Does God and Christ love us more then the stars in the heavens and the grains of sand on the earth? and are we the most important thing to them?

God loves you much more than you think. He loves you as He loves His Son Jesus. That is some major Love!

"As the Father has loved Me [Jesus], so have I loved you."
John 15:9​

Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with loving-kindness I have drawn thee."
(Jeremiah 31:3)​

Jesus and the Father are one. If you understand that than you can understand the verse ​

God sacrificed His only Son for you. there is no greater love than what Jesus did for us, we were enmity to God before, and He died for us.​

The Kingdom of Darkness will do everything to keep you from believing this.​

Also does He want us to love him more because he loves us more than anything sorry to ask these stupid silly questions but this will help me understand God a lot better.

I would imagine so We love because God first loved us. These arent silly questions. To know and understand Gods love for all of us are very important.​

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=e808fd1d41b62d7784a9​

 

[picassoui]

AND AMEN

 

[JamesAH]

So we are the most important thing to God then?

 

[picassoui]

So we are the most important thing to God then?

No i don't say that but we are very important ....

 

[JamesAH]

I'm in another dilemma I can't seem to get excited or enjoy praying to God for some reason.I feel like I'm evil or something and I don't think it has anything to do with my OCD.Prayer is very important to me but for some reason I can't enjoy it or get excited about it.

I'm probably going to Hell for that one

 

[Jayangel81]

I'm in another dilemma I can't seem to get excited or enjoy praying to God for some reason.I feel like I'm evil or something and I don't think it has anything to do with my OCD.Prayer is very important to me but for some reason I can't enjoy it or get excited about it.

I'm probably going to Hell for that one

Your not the only one who feels like this at times.

Let me ask you something, how can you develop a relationship with someone and enjoy the company of them if you believe they are just waiting to throw you in hell and punish you.??

My fear for condemnation and fear that God doesnt love me or whatnot has done me the same thing. It keeps me away from the Lord.Your not evil James. Give God some time to work on you, I didnt love God when I first came to Him. It took a long time for me to fall for Him. even still I have problems with praying..

Im constantly asking God to change me, its a process. Your not evil and God is not going to throw you into Hell. He loves you, you must believe that. Has he ever gave you one single reason to possible think that?

Im curious, why did you come to God? Did you grow up knowing God through your family? Did you come to Him through fear of Hell, was it because you wanted to change?

It really doesnt matter how you did, God called you. But if you did come through fear give God some time to work on you

I came through fear personally and it took alot of work to change my heart.

 

[JamesAH]

Your not the only one who feels like this at times.

Let me ask you something, how can you develop a relationship with someone and enjoy the company of them if you believe they are just waiting to throw you in hell and punish you.??

My fear for condemnation and fear that God doesnt love me or whatnot has done me the same thing. It keeps me away from the Lord.Your not evil James. Give God some time to work on you, I didnt love God when I first came to Him. It took a long time for me to fall for Him. even still I have problems with praying..

Im constantly asking God to change me, its a process. Your not evil and God is not going to throw you into Hell. He loves you, you must believe that. Has he ever gave you one single reason to possible think that?

Im curious, why did you come to God? Did you grow up knowing God through your family? Did you come to Him through fear of Hell, was it because you wanted to change?

It really doesnt matter how you did, God called you. But if you did come through fear give God some time to work on you

I came through fear personally and it took alot of work to change my heart.

I always believed in God but never came to Christ until last year when I read an article about God's final judgment that was a call for me to get right with God.

I don't know if I will ever be able to get excited about praying I know I should I can get excited about going somewhere but not talking to God what kind of person that makes me selfish because we should get excited about prayer or even enjoying like I said it's a part of my life now but I can't get any kind of excitement about praying.

This is why he would send me to Hell because I wasn't excited to talk to him I'm having a panic attack now I love God with all my heart but can't get even excited I'm in tears now I don't know what to do

 

[kaykay9.0]

I always believed in God but never came to Christ until last year when I read an article about God's final judgment that was a call for me to get right with God.

I don't know if I will ever be able to get excited about praying I know I should I can get excited about going somewhere but not talking to God what kind of person that makes me selfish because we should get excited about prayer or even enjoying like I said it's a part of my life now but I can't get any kind of excitement about praying.

This is why he would send me to Hell because I wasn't excited to talk to him I'm having a panic attack now I love God with all my heart but can't get even excited I'm in tears now I don't know what to do

Again, I think you are putting waaaaaay too much emphasis on your feelings, James. Many Christians don't necessarily get excited about prayer. Even ministers have dry times! I think we all do. There are many times when prayer feels like work more than pleasure. Maybe it shouldn't be that way, but it often is. Even people who are considered great intercessors don't necessarily always get excited about praying. It is more important to do it than to FEEL somethng about it. I think the problem is you are overanalyzing your feelings AND you are expecting way too much of yourself here.

I don't believe our salvation rests with our feelings either.
Praying for peace for you right now, James.