Hi everyone! So I've been praying and getting back in church and reading my bible to help me get on the right path again, but my husband has lost hope that I am going to change or that I'm going to stay on this path.
I have a really bad anger problem, I've had it all my life and after we have gotten married it got better but I would still get really angry at things. I found that my husband was sending inappropriate texts to one of our good friends. They weren't pictures but just things you wouldn't say to another women while married. I found these and got very angry because we've been through this a few years ago. I was just so angry, I didn't know why he was doing this again to me. He told me he would flirt with her because I wasn't giving him enough attention. I am a full time student and I work full time. I am always stressed and always busy so it's really hard for me to be intimate and be in the mood like he was all the time. He stopped texting her inappropriate things but was still talking to her constantly and I told him he can't talk to her anymore because he was getting feelings for her. He says he doesn't think he was getting feelings for her but he was treating her how he used to treat me when we first started dating. I called her a couple days ago and told her that she can't be in our lives anymore because I feel like she's becoming the other woman and she agreed and cut it off with him. After I told my husband that, he started yelling at me saying that he doesn't want to be married to me anymore, he doesn't think he loves me anymore, he doesn't have and hope that my anger is going to change, that I'm never going to change. Not once did I raise my voice to him since then because I've realized there's no need to... After talking to his grandfather, which is our Pastor, we are going to do marriage counseling with our second Pastor at our church every Saturday. I am so happy but It's so hard to not have the love and support that my husband used to give me. He just gets up for work, gives me a peck, and leaves. I don't see him all day until night and he comes home, hangs out with our roommate. Then I o to bed, he stays up till 12 or 1 then just jumps in bed without saying a word. I feel empty and sad that I lost the other part of my flesh...
I've figured out what I need to do, I need to but God as number 1. I miss God. He does so much great things for me. So I'm doing what I can to get back on that path but it's so hard to not be sad that my husband doesn't have faith in me anymore. He just stays out all night with his horrible, non-Christian friends and I feel like they are having a huge impact on his decision or thinking. There's more to our problems but that would be way too long.
I would really appreciate prayers from people and just advice. I don't know if I should stay home, or text him, or be a wife to him when he can barely be a husband to me. I'm sad but at the same time I know God will put me in the right place and give me the strength I need.
I have a really bad anger problem, I've had it all my life and after we have gotten married it got better but I would still get really angry at things. I found that my husband was sending inappropriate texts to one of our good friends. They weren't pictures but just things you wouldn't say to another women while married. I found these and got very angry because we've been through this a few years ago. I was just so angry, I didn't know why he was doing this again to me. He told me he would flirt with her because I wasn't giving him enough attention. I am a full time student and I work full time. I am always stressed and always busy so it's really hard for me to be intimate and be in the mood like he was all the time. He stopped texting her inappropriate things but was still talking to her constantly and I told him he can't talk to her anymore because he was getting feelings for her. He says he doesn't think he was getting feelings for her but he was treating her how he used to treat me when we first started dating. I called her a couple days ago and told her that she can't be in our lives anymore because I feel like she's becoming the other woman and she agreed and cut it off with him. After I told my husband that, he started yelling at me saying that he doesn't want to be married to me anymore, he doesn't think he loves me anymore, he doesn't have and hope that my anger is going to change, that I'm never going to change. Not once did I raise my voice to him since then because I've realized there's no need to... After talking to his grandfather, which is our Pastor, we are going to do marriage counseling with our second Pastor at our church every Saturday. I am so happy but It's so hard to not have the love and support that my husband used to give me. He just gets up for work, gives me a peck, and leaves. I don't see him all day until night and he comes home, hangs out with our roommate. Then I o to bed, he stays up till 12 or 1 then just jumps in bed without saying a word. I feel empty and sad that I lost the other part of my flesh...
I've figured out what I need to do, I need to but God as number 1. I miss God. He does so much great things for me. So I'm doing what I can to get back on that path but it's so hard to not be sad that my husband doesn't have faith in me anymore. He just stays out all night with his horrible, non-Christian friends and I feel like they are having a huge impact on his decision or thinking. There's more to our problems but that would be way too long.
I would really appreciate prayers from people and just advice. I don't know if I should stay home, or text him, or be a wife to him when he can barely be a husband to me. I'm sad but at the same time I know God will put me in the right place and give me the strength I need.
