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So, I can't really say if I suffered like you but I can tell you this, we all experience deep, dark pain sooner or later in our lives. Great emotional pain that feels unbearable. I can tell you through a combination of being angry at God and the career field I work in, it exposes me to much evil and suffering, I lost the ability to have any compassion. Someone's spouse died? Big deal. I was an unfeeling, cold-hearted individual.How long did it take you to restore your relationship with God. Did you suffer the same way as I'm suffering right now? Like did you lose your personality, the ability to show any emotion, the desire to actually do things and basically everything else what makes a human a human?
What more? Keep praying and keep reading your Bible. Never give up! Fight the good fight. Run to win. The enemy loves a defeated Christian. If God is tugging on your heart, respond to it. The enemy will respond to it by telling you lies. The lies will be that your too far gone (as if you have the ability to move to where God can't reach you). The lies will be that fail, that you can't go back, your rejected. Anything that you might grab hold of out of fear, he will offer it to you. Don't fall for them. Keep your eyes on Jesus.What more can I do than lay off bad habits , read my Bible and pray A LOT? I am sure that I was an elect and that my salvation was depending on me fulfilling the role that was set out for me. It was really like the revelation told me "all or nothing". I was ungrateful and didn't respect God as I should have after he ripped me out of my depression and gave me promises of a beautiful life ahead of me. I don't even think that I'm a wicked person even though I really am. There is no remorse or guilt for what I've done and even repenting doesn't change anything for me. I really hope that the church I'm going to visit can fix me. I don't feel actual hope though. I just say that I hope ,but I don't. Do you know what I mean? I know I need forgiveness for sinning against the Holy Spirit but there seems to be none. I read many testimonies of people that were able to at least live a normal life, be it in utter darkness and void of God's love.
Why do I get the XL Deluxe suffering package? I just don't understand. I am 22 and there are so many people that do so much more wrong than I do and they are able to live a normal life. Go to school, hang out with friends etc. I really have the urge to just end it all like..tomorrow or any day soon. Things are getting worse after giving up on alcohol and weed. I feel even less motivated to work out and look after myself. Right now I am lying on my bed, don't know what to do because I don't feel like doing anything at all. I start my playstation and after 5 minutes I turn it off and go back to bed pondering on stupid and perverted thoughts my mind keeps producing. What must I do to get out of this hell? I am clueless
.I was never really addicted to either alcohol or weed. I was a 'casual' consumer of both keeping it down to weekends only. The symptoms I have, have been there for all this time now. Be it on medicines or off medicines, with or without drugs.
.Only thing I can't stop doing is smoking tabacco. It's just impossible for me to stoo under these circumstances. Could smoking be the problem here?
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Let's look at the story of Job. At the end, Job kept the faith but his wife lost faith, ie she cursed God and died = probably lost her chance at salvation.(cf; 1PETER.3:19 & 4:6)
God permitted Satan to afflict Job and his family because he committed a very ignorant sin/evil-deed against God by making an "insurance" offering to God in the event that his spoiled sons might commit sins. Job feared losing all his hard-earned prosperity by being "a blameless and upright man, one who fears God and shuns evil".(JOB.1:5 & 3:25)
... About 400 years later, through Moses Law at EXODUS.20:5, we now know that the sins/evil-deeds of the sons would not befall on the father or grandfather. So, Job had worried about his sons' sins for nothing. But Job's ignorant sin above befell on his spoiled sons and daughters.
So, whatever suffering we are going through, eg self-inflicted ones through our own sins/evil-deeds/law-breaking, we should never lose faith in God/Jesus, even though sometimes we may not know why we are suffering, like Job. Never curse God/Jesus and die, like the wife of Job.
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LUKE.23: = 33 And when they had come to the place called Calvary, there they crucified Him, and the criminals, one on the right hand and the other on the left. 34 Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.
.Nowhere in the book of Job does it say Job sinned.
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JOB.1:5 = 5 So it was, when the days of feasting had run their course, that Job would send and sanctify them, and he would rise early in the morning and offer burnt offerings according to the number of them all. For Job said, “It may be that my sons have sinned and cursed God in their hearts.” Thus Job did regularly.
JOB.3:25 = 25 For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me,
And what I dreaded has happened to me.
JOB.42:6 = Therefore I abhor myself,
And repent in dust and ashes.”
EXODUS.20:5-7 = For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, 6 but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments.
7 “You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain.
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If Job did not sinned, why did he repent in front of God.?
... Job was ignorant of his sin/evil-deed. Eg ...
LUKE.23: = 32 There were also two others, criminals, led with Him to be put to death. 33 And when they had come to the place called Calvary, there they crucified Him, and the criminals, one on the right hand and the other on the left. 34 Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.”
.In Jobs day the sacrificial system was being practiced and what he did was according to that practice.
I just want to know. If I truly repent, which I am doing now, maybe not heartfelt but I am. Wouldn't God then take me back in His arms? I am cleaner than anyone I know and yet nothing changes for me. Didn't Jesus promise us to take care of us if we truly repent? Am I not being helped right now because I'm only clean for 1 month now? With clean I mean no sexual sin, alcohol/weed, trying to keep my nasty thoughts in control etc. Only thing I can't stop doing is smoking tabacco. It's just impossible for me to stoo under these circumstances. Could smoking be the problem here?
I just want to know. If I truly repent, which I am doing now, maybe not heartfelt but I am. Wouldn't God then take me back in His arms? I am cleaner than anyone I know and yet nothing changes for me. Didn't Jesus promise us to take care of us if we truly repent? Am I not being helped right now because I'm only clean for 1 month now? With clean I mean no sexual sin, alcohol/weed, trying to keep my nasty thoughts in control etc. Only thing I can't stop doing is smoking tabacco. It's just impossible for me to stoo under these circumstances. Could smoking be the problem here?
.Back to the main point. JOB did not sin. The text clearly states this.
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Please show the relevant Scripture where people like Job made burnt offering to God for cases like “It may be that my sons have sinned and cursed God in their hearts.”
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Do you really believe that a loving God will permit Satan to afflict His sons/children with calamities and terminal diseases like cancer, just to test their faith.?
... DEUTERONOMY.28:15- , PROVERBS.1:25-27, ROMANS.2:5-12, 1CORINTHIANS.5:1-13 & 11:30, 1JOHN.5:16-19 say otherwise.
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1JOHN.5: = 16 If anyone sees his brother sinning a sin which does not lead to death, he will ask, and He will give him life for those who commit sin not leading to death. There is sin leading to death. I do not say that he should pray about that. 17 All unrighteousness is sin, and there is sin not leading to death.
Knowing the True—Rejecting the False
18 We know that whoever is born of God does not sin; but he who has been born of God keeps himself, and the wicked one does not touch him.
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DEUT.28: = Curses on Disobedience
15 “But it shall come to pass, if you do not obey the voice of the Lord your God, to observe carefully all His commandments and His statutes which I command you today, that all these curses will come upon you and overtake you:
16 “Cursed shall you be in the city, and cursed shall you be in the country.
17 “Cursed shall be your basket and your kneading bowl.
18 “Cursed shall be the fruit of your body and the produce of your land, the increase of your cattle and the offspring of your flocks.
19 “Cursed shall you be when you come in, and cursed shall you be when you go out.
20 “The Lord will send on you cursing, confusion, and rebuke in all that you set your hand to do, until you are destroyed and until you perish quickly, because of the wickedness of your doings in which you have forsaken Me. 21 The Lord will make the plague cling to you until He has consumed you from the land which you are going to possess. 22 The Lord will strike you with consumption, with fever, with inflammation, with severe burning fever, with the sword, with scorching, and with mildew; they shall pursue you until you perish. 23 And your heavens which are over your head shall be bronze, and the earth which is under you shall be iron. 24 The Lord will change the rain of your land to powder and dust; from the heaven it shall come down on you until you are destroyed.
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Yes, JOB.1:22 & 2:10 say that Job did not sin but that was in the context of not blaming God after he was struck by calamities. Earlier at JOB.1:5, he did sin by making an inappropriate burnt offering to God for 'maybe' sins, based on his own ignorance and misplaced fears or worries.
... In comparison, his foolish wife did the opposite by blaming God for the calamities = she likely cursed God and died(JOB.2:9) = probably lost her chance at salvation. Job did not.
"At JOB.42:8, God showed Job and his friends how a proper burnt offering should be done, ie offered for actual sins/evil-deeds and not for 'maybe' sins."
This was the Lords rebuking of the 2 friends of Job.
8"Now therefore, take for yourselves seven bulls and seven rams, and go to My servant Job, and offer up a burnt offering for yourselves, and My servant Job will pray for you. For I will accept him so that I may not do with you according to your folly, because you have not spoken of Me what is right, as My servant Job has." 9So Eliphazthe Temanite and Bildad the Shuhite and Zopharthe Naamathite went and did as the LORD toldthem; and the LORD accepted Job. 10The LORD restored the fortunes of Job when he prayed for his friends, and the LORD increased all that Job had twofold.…
God accepted Jobs prayers for the two friends - go look at some other translations and go look at the original Hebrew text.
discipler7 said:"Do you really believe that a loving God will permit Satan to afflict His sons/children with calamities and terminal diseases like cancer, just to test their faith.?"
.No I believe all good comes from God and all evil is from Satan. We were talking about the story of Job ... in that story, in the context of that story, yes God permitted Satan to do every evil thing to Job except taking Jobs life.
It'Hello all,
I have already shared my story on this forum somewhere about a year ago. I'm still stuck in the same predicament and I've been wondering if I have committed the unpardonable sin. To summarize my story: I was depressed, as an atheist, around the later part of 2015. Then I prayed, because I was so desperate and my prayer was answered. I found God and I learned what the Holy Spirit was and what It did in my life. I had really never felt better than ever before, it felt as if I became a new human being. I started walking,talking, thinking and doing everything in a new way. I was so happy that I found God and wanted to become a better person after He'd shown me that I was a great sinner before.
Then I started backsliding, severely, and ignoring the revelations and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I didn't want to do certain things that God wanted me to do, because that meant giving up on sin. So I started to love sin again and was a great partaker in it. I kept doing this until my mind got, what I believe is called 'reprobated'. Emotionally flat, no interest in anything, mentally turned inwards and hella confused, concentration and sleeping problems. Summarized: I have nothing left to live for, I don't even love my closest family anymore.
Life is so hard right now and I can't take it much longer. All of this writing doesn't come from actual despair, I don't feel anything at all. I don't even seem to care about God and my past sins anymore, my conscience is seared and it doesn't stop.
I quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol 3 weeks ago , but it hasn't changed anything for me. Hebrews 6 4-6 isn't even bothering me anymore even though I know I fit the picture and I certainly can't be returned to a repentant state. I have rejected the gift of salvation and I'm therefor hellbound. I even saw a part of me slipping into a great red wall of fire when I was on a shrooms trip áfter I had lost the Holy Spirit or close to the end of losing It and I actually felt the heat for a brief moment. I took these shrooms because I wanted to get another revelation. I heard my parents cry that I was gone and then saw that part of me sinking in a pit of fire. I was ungrateful, only loved sin after I had been born again and I'm a terrible person.
Also, there is no actual hatred of self anymore, I don't have to 'forgive myself',because I don't even feel that there's something to forgive. As if I have forgotten about everything I've done in the past. My mind is a mess.
So my question is: Can I fix this situation or am I done here and should I just accept my fate?
The answer is very easy to figure out. If you feel remorse and want to repent and return to the Lord, then you haven't committed the unforgivable sin. How do I know? Because the only way you would be drawn back to the Lord is if the Holy Spirit were doing the drawing back.Hello all,
I have already shared my story on this forum somewhere about a year ago. I'm still stuck in the same predicament and I've been wondering if I have committed the unpardonable sin. To summarize my story: I was depressed, as an atheist, around the later part of 2015. Then I prayed, because I was so desperate and my prayer was answered. I found God and I learned what the Holy Spirit was and what It did in my life. I had really never felt better than ever before, it felt as if I became a new human being. I started walking,talking, thinking and doing everything in a new way. I was so happy that I found God and wanted to become a better person after He'd shown me that I was a great sinner before.
Then I started backsliding, severely, and ignoring the revelations and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I didn't want to do certain things that God wanted me to do, because that meant giving up on sin. So I started to love sin again and was a great partaker in it. I kept doing this until my mind got, what I believe is called 'reprobated'. Emotionally flat, no interest in anything, mentally turned inwards and hella confused, concentration and sleeping problems. Summarized: I have nothing left to live for, I don't even love my closest family anymore.
Life is so hard right now and I can't take it much longer. All of this writing doesn't come from actual despair, I don't feel anything at all. I don't even seem to care about God and my past sins anymore, my conscience is seared and it doesn't stop.
I quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol 3 weeks ago , but it hasn't changed anything for me. Hebrews 6 4-6 isn't even bothering me anymore even though I know I fit the picture and I certainly can't be returned to a repentant state. I have rejected the gift of salvation and I'm therefor hellbound. I even saw a part of me slipping into a great red wall of fire when I was on a shrooms trip áfter I had lost the Holy Spirit or close to the end of losing It and I actually felt the heat for a brief moment. I took these shrooms because I wanted to get another revelation. I heard my parents cry that I was gone and then saw that part of me sinking in a pit of fire. I was ungrateful, only loved sin after I had been born again and I'm a terrible person.
Also, there is no actual hatred of self anymore, I don't have to 'forgive myself',because I don't even feel that there's something to forgive. As if I have forgotten about everything I've done in the past. My mind is a mess.
So my question is: Can I fix this situation or am I done here and should I just accept my fate?
Hello all,
I have already shared my story on this forum somewhere about a year ago. I'm still stuck in the same predicament and I've been wondering if I have committed the unpardonable sin. To summarize my story: I was depressed, as an atheist, around the later part of 2015. Then I prayed, because I was so desperate and my prayer was answered. I found God and I learned what the Holy Spirit was and what It did in my life. I had really never felt better than ever before, it felt as if I became a new human being. I started walking,talking, thinking and doing everything in a new way. I was so happy that I found God and wanted to become a better person after He'd shown me that I was a great sinner before.
Then I started backsliding, severely, and ignoring the revelations and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I didn't want to do certain things that God wanted me to do, because that meant giving up on sin. So I started to love sin again and was a great partaker in it. I kept doing this until my mind got, what I believe is called 'reprobated'. Emotionally flat, no interest in anything, mentally turned inwards and hella confused, concentration and sleeping problems. Summarized: I have nothing left to live for, I don't even love my closest family anymore.
Life is so hard right now and I can't take it much longer. All of this writing doesn't come from actual despair, I don't feel anything at all. I don't even seem to care about God and my past sins anymore, my conscience is seared and it doesn't stop.
I quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol 3 weeks ago , but it hasn't changed anything for me. Hebrews 6 4-6 isn't even bothering me anymore even though I know I fit the picture and I certainly can't be returned to a repentant state. I have rejected the gift of salvation and I'm therefor hellbound. I even saw a part of me slipping into a great red wall of fire when I was on a shrooms trip áfter I had lost the Holy Spirit or close to the end of losing It and I actually felt the heat for a brief moment. I took these shrooms because I wanted to get another revelation. I heard my parents cry that I was gone and then saw that part of me sinking in a pit of fire. I was ungrateful, only loved sin after I had been born again and I'm a terrible person.
Also, there is no actual hatred of self anymore, I don't have to 'forgive myself',because I don't even feel that there's something to forgive. As if I have forgotten about everything I've done in the past. My mind is a mess.
So my question is: Can I fix this situation or am I done here and should I just accept my fate?
Isn't faith something that you either have or not? I think I lost my faith. I believe that Christ died once for our sins but there is no actual faith backing it. It's as if I don't care anymore and that is wrong.
.Satan was basically telling God that the only reason Job loved God and served Him was because of all the blessings God had bestowed on Job. In the story Satan was proven wrong when all the of Job's blessings were all destroyed by Satan and even so Job remained faithful to God.
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