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I'm really hoping this stays exclusively on CF and doesn't spread to either my wife or through Google but I have a question and need some advice. Has anyone ever suffered domestic violence before on here and their spouse actually fully repent and change?
When I was growing up my dad hit me a lot. I've discussed this several times during my time here on CF and my wife also struck me a few times when we were dating.
I think knowing that I already suffered lifelong physical abuse that my then girlfriend took advantage of that. I really do it makes sense. I don't think she expected that hitting me twice would have such devastating effects on me. Either or, she's been spending seven years trying to make it up to me but the damage has been done. I just can't get over it. It's really weird. I suffered over 20 years of physical abuse with my dad and I forgave him after I left home and my dad apologizes without really saying anything. But for some reason my future wife hits me twice in a year and I can't get over it over seven years later. We've been married for seven years now and I forgave her enough to marry her and remain loyal to her. I mean, she stopped physically abusing me years ago and has done nothing but try to make up for what she did.
So what's wrong with me? Why do I suffer from PTSD and want to avoid both of them at any cost? In fact i make my wife talk with my dad when it arises because i dont really feel comfortable talking to him. I mean, my wife has apologized countless times and never once has my dad apologize for hitting me hundreds of times. I just don't get it and I don't get why I'm so terrified of her. Men get hit by women almost all the time and it's actually more normal than childhood abuse. I just don't understand. So has anyone ever suffered from domestic abuse stuck by with the person and had them reform? If yes, how did you forgive them? I've been doing nothing but googling domestic violence for days now and I've only come across hopeless cases and hopeless reactions. As if domestic abusers never change and its a divorce only option (even though Jesus said the only cause for divorce that's accepted by God is sexual immorality).
I refuse to get divorced. I'd rather be physically abused for the rest of my life. And my wife hasn't even touched me in years and probably will never touch me again. I'm mostly just wondering if I'm being paranoid or not.
When I was growing up my dad hit me a lot. I've discussed this several times during my time here on CF and my wife also struck me a few times when we were dating.
I think knowing that I already suffered lifelong physical abuse that my then girlfriend took advantage of that. I really do it makes sense. I don't think she expected that hitting me twice would have such devastating effects on me. Either or, she's been spending seven years trying to make it up to me but the damage has been done. I just can't get over it. It's really weird. I suffered over 20 years of physical abuse with my dad and I forgave him after I left home and my dad apologizes without really saying anything. But for some reason my future wife hits me twice in a year and I can't get over it over seven years later. We've been married for seven years now and I forgave her enough to marry her and remain loyal to her. I mean, she stopped physically abusing me years ago and has done nothing but try to make up for what she did.
So what's wrong with me? Why do I suffer from PTSD and want to avoid both of them at any cost? In fact i make my wife talk with my dad when it arises because i dont really feel comfortable talking to him. I mean, my wife has apologized countless times and never once has my dad apologize for hitting me hundreds of times. I just don't get it and I don't get why I'm so terrified of her. Men get hit by women almost all the time and it's actually more normal than childhood abuse. I just don't understand. So has anyone ever suffered from domestic abuse stuck by with the person and had them reform? If yes, how did you forgive them? I've been doing nothing but googling domestic violence for days now and I've only come across hopeless cases and hopeless reactions. As if domestic abusers never change and its a divorce only option (even though Jesus said the only cause for divorce that's accepted by God is sexual immorality).
I refuse to get divorced. I'd rather be physically abused for the rest of my life. And my wife hasn't even touched me in years and probably will never touch me again. I'm mostly just wondering if I'm being paranoid or not.