what has happened to you is very cruel and unfair, but it is not your fault.
what you are doing is speaking negativity in your life. the more you keep telling yourself that your are a curse, the more you will begin to believe it. we can tell you and tell you and tell you (the truth) that it is not a curse, but it is your choice to believe it or not.
gee, I know its hard. people are unkind and its annoying when people don't understand you, but its like ive said before, if everyone in the world was the same, then nothing would ever get done! you are the way you are for a reason, and God has A plan for you. he loves you more than any human ever could, it expands further than our imaginations. please, please, know this truth.
its ok to be upset, but please don't blame yourself.
answer me this, is it not true that God creates perfect things? "he saw that it was good"
does that not mean that you are one of his perfect creations? yes of course humans are tainted from sin and whatever, but that is nothing to do with Aspergers. don't insult God by hating his creation. don't insult God by hating yourself.
over time, things will get better, and the pain of what that girl did to you will begin to ease. remember that we don't need a partner to be truly happy. Gods love is sufficient enough. spend time with God, spend time with good people that accept you for who you are, and please, make the choice today to speak well of yourself.
believ th TRUTH. everyday when you wake you, instead of thinking "I hate how I am", say something good to yourself. think of your gifts and talents and amazing things about you. everyone is unique and special.
Jesus was different, and people were unkind to him, but he mad ethe choice to place trust in his father, not in the people around him.
make that choice today.
God bless, and smile!
