getting help

[dreamchildattucus]

I hate counselors I had 2 that were terrible I won’t go into detail but lets just say I never was going back no matter how bad I got I could make it on my own.

then things got out of hand I was deep in depression i was drinking and drugging my self in to a pit i couldn’t get out and then my sister got committed to a inpatient facility my like spun out of control. i would spend hours in the bathroom at work crying and bleeding then i was talking to this guy i was sort of sleeping with my manager and i told him a week before that my sister was a cutter and he asked why i never said anything i told him i cut. he was appalled and he told me if i didn't go to counseling he’d let my mom know. so i had two weeks to make an appointment.
i found my self in the office of Gina Baker. i thought ill jus tell her some sad story get some pills and get out well God had different plans. By the end of our appointment i had told her a lot but not all.

Soon i had spilled my whole story about my bi polar mother who kicked me out about the pastor and his wife who turned there back on me and my dad who didn’t even know me.

Well now i have made my last appointment, i am going to college this fall and have stopped drinking am no longer sexually active, i still struggle with drugs and cutting but we all have our demons. i have also forgiven so many and am working on the rest...

 

[bubblefish]

That is a great achievement Hun Talking to someone about the issues is one of the first steps to working on things. Keep going. And thank you for sharing. It is very encouraging to others who struggle with finding help.

 

[dreamchildattucus]

i am tierd of whereing long sleeves in 90 degree weather grrrr... and im to the point where i dont care what people think i just dont want my family to worry about me.....

 

[Criada]

Hang in there.
Your scars are not something to be ashamed of, sweetie... if other people react to them, that's their problem. I know it's hard, but you can get through this time.

 

[dreamchildattucus]

thanks it helps a lot to know people care... my uncle has made it a game to try and get me to pull my sleves up i dont think he knows what im hiding just that i hiding something and it is getting anoying, but only a few more days before im back home and dont have to worry about it...

 

[Criada]

Keep going, sweetie, a few days will soon pass.
You are doing so well!

 

[dreamchildattucus]

so here is my update I have been super busy with stuff but this weekend i am super happy because i am moved up to the college i have been working for so i will be starting classes at Crown college and i would just like to thank you guys for all of your support... i love you guys and i will try and get on when i can...