He keeps saying we'll discuss it once we get the full result back from my doctor's office, but I got a faint line on a pregnancy test, I've been cramping, I spotted, feeling hot instead of cold, I already know I'm pregnant. It's obvious. He doesn't want to talk about it until I get the full result.
Don't feel like I can block his number and move on. Isn't that illegal cause it would be his kid too.
Definitely don't feel like o have wonderful moments ahead of me. I'm not ready to give up my youthful lifestyle. I honestly came from a place on deciding whether to get my tubes tied permanently since I've been bitter about not finding a guy to marry me despite going on plenty of casual dates.
Feels like the worst thing in the world since I wanted so badly to be successful in life. I took the hardest major I could in school, I graduated with a nice gpa, took internships, considered grad school, trying to save money, look into investing, etc. go on dates to find a husband and get married. I've never been much of the one that wanted a kid, maybe for a very small percentage of my life, but it's always been a desire for a spouse not a child. Even thought of marrying someone who doesn't want children either. I wish this never happened to me, that I never made the choice to be with this person sexually.
In every way having a kid feels like failure especially when I'm not married. I always wanted to be one of those women that got married as a virgin and her boyfriend/ husband loved her and would do anything for her. No man ever cared about me that much, men are only interested in sex and they leave you once they get it. Not sure why those type of women get what they want but it's not so for me.
I keep going back and forth trying to decide whether I'm going to terminate my pregnancy. I don't want to and know it's a sin against God, but I don't want to be a failure single mother like my mom. And a baby would keep me from ever getting married.