- Dec 27, 2018
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Hey all, I have been reading the prayers in this forum and following them to see how everyone is doing now it's really lovely to see the Christians on this forum are so loving and friendly towards eachother and I am glad I found this place, unfortunately I've had the opposite experience I have asked the church for support often times to them seeing me as "not trying hard enough" and just backlashing me when I needed a friend and it hurt me a lot.
I just want to get off my chest I am struggling at the moment coming back to the Lord, it's been 2 years now since I became a Christian and found the truth, in that time I've sinned, I've grieved the Holy Spirit and feared I had seared my concience.
I am sorrowful as I remember that the whole time I just didn't see the light, I knew the truth but I didn't allow it to change me.. I thought that the Lord was saying "It's ok Amy, you are just young.." ect but the holy spirit left. I'm not alone I know there's others in this situation although for a good few months I was convinced I was the only one. The Lord is pulling me back, convicting me still but I don't feel the holy spirit like I used to a few years ago, I am struggling so much with pride and hardness of heart and I want to repent fully please will you pray I do repent in fullness
I just want to get off my chest I am struggling at the moment coming back to the Lord, it's been 2 years now since I became a Christian and found the truth, in that time I've sinned, I've grieved the Holy Spirit and feared I had seared my concience.
I am sorrowful as I remember that the whole time I just didn't see the light, I knew the truth but I didn't allow it to change me.. I thought that the Lord was saying "It's ok Amy, you are just young.." ect but the holy spirit left. I'm not alone I know there's others in this situation although for a good few months I was convinced I was the only one. The Lord is pulling me back, convicting me still but I don't feel the holy spirit like I used to a few years ago, I am struggling so much with pride and hardness of heart and I want to repent fully please will you pray I do repent in fullness