Howdy fella's, and perhaps a few intuitive ladies!
The name's Aaron, and I've got a really frustrating problem.
I've been trying to figure out just what God wants me to do, for quite some time, and I just can't find it. I've tried speaking at church, and persuing the whole ministry idea, but the truth eb told, I'm uncomfortable on stage, and I'm sure my points don't make the sense I want them too.
So I started to persue the Army Reserves, 37F, PsyOp. A special Op unit. I wanted to do something useful and "manly" so to speak. but my mother was diagnosed with stage three breast cancer, so I had to be the bigger man, and step away from my bonuses and manly job, and take care of my momma.
Now, I've just turned 19 in March, and I'm still at a loss. I looked into the Navy/Coast Guard Recently, rescue swimming, in particular, and got pretty excited about it, but the same type fo thing happened when I started to persue my past career choices, and they fell through.
I feel lost. I want to help people. I want to make a difference. I want to serve and protect. I want to be a good soon to be fiance and husband. I want to have an impact on this world, and live my life in a good ministring way, and I want to feel like a man doing it. I grew up with little relation, with momma or my dad. He was a truck driver and was gone all the time, and mom is well mom. Her mother got ill when I was very young, and when my father tried to start his own bussiness, he amde a couple poor choices in not telling my mom and soo much went down, that my sisters left, dad eventually got kicked out, we lost the house ect. I've had a rough growing up period.... to say the least. but it's made me very compassionate- which I am SOO thankful for, now. Not so much then, but now haha.
But Yeah; I'm at a loss, and it's making me completely misserable. I've been praying for a long time for guidance and direction, but I keep chasing dead end leads. I feel like a fisherman, who get's great bites on what seems like a nice catch, but then when i real it in, and it's almost in sight, it just lets go.
I'm 19, and wanting to step up, to do something that matters, and be a mature, thoughtful, greatful Christian Man... but I'm struggling to just get through each day, as I feel like it's a waste and I'm going no where. Everyone's so fed up with me testing the waters with all my choices- which I get... but I'm just lost, and it's slowly killing me on the inside...
Men, any advice...?
The name's Aaron, and I've got a really frustrating problem.
I've been trying to figure out just what God wants me to do, for quite some time, and I just can't find it. I've tried speaking at church, and persuing the whole ministry idea, but the truth eb told, I'm uncomfortable on stage, and I'm sure my points don't make the sense I want them too.
So I started to persue the Army Reserves, 37F, PsyOp. A special Op unit. I wanted to do something useful and "manly" so to speak. but my mother was diagnosed with stage three breast cancer, so I had to be the bigger man, and step away from my bonuses and manly job, and take care of my momma.
Now, I've just turned 19 in March, and I'm still at a loss. I looked into the Navy/Coast Guard Recently, rescue swimming, in particular, and got pretty excited about it, but the same type fo thing happened when I started to persue my past career choices, and they fell through.
I feel lost. I want to help people. I want to make a difference. I want to serve and protect. I want to be a good soon to be fiance and husband. I want to have an impact on this world, and live my life in a good ministring way, and I want to feel like a man doing it. I grew up with little relation, with momma or my dad. He was a truck driver and was gone all the time, and mom is well mom. Her mother got ill when I was very young, and when my father tried to start his own bussiness, he amde a couple poor choices in not telling my mom and soo much went down, that my sisters left, dad eventually got kicked out, we lost the house ect. I've had a rough growing up period.... to say the least. but it's made me very compassionate- which I am SOO thankful for, now. Not so much then, but now haha.
But Yeah; I'm at a loss, and it's making me completely misserable. I've been praying for a long time for guidance and direction, but I keep chasing dead end leads. I feel like a fisherman, who get's great bites on what seems like a nice catch, but then when i real it in, and it's almost in sight, it just lets go.
I'm 19, and wanting to step up, to do something that matters, and be a mature, thoughtful, greatful Christian Man... but I'm struggling to just get through each day, as I feel like it's a waste and I'm going no where. Everyone's so fed up with me testing the waters with all my choices- which I get... but I'm just lost, and it's slowly killing me on the inside...
Men, any advice...?