Feeling unstable... Pls pray

[Olivet]

I feel so heavy idk where to start. May just bullet point.

# Have baby.
# struggle with crazy ocd thoughts..
Range from crazy harm thoughts, to put down of self esteem thohghts. Afraid od losing touch with reality. Sui..thoughts..derealization... Just worsw of qorsw

# get so scared I start to pace or like a couple days ago....saw stars out of my left eye.. Hyperventilate. Afraid of passing out.

# can't sleep

Juat exhausted.


Lost job bc son was sick. Job fired me.
So no money. I need money for meds..

Dont wanna start juat to experience withdrawls.

Scared. Pls pray.

Feel i wont make it 2nite.

So scared. Cant calm down. Feel frantic and exhaustsd.cant foxus. Sad.

Parents need me but im too weak memtally. Trying not to crack bc they need me.

Trying not to cry.

EDIT- Im afraid of psychosis n Schiz but i feel thata where im headed.. So sad. Trying yo hold on
Veru scared. Wanna kms. Anxiety bad. Tired of it..also afraid id hell...whixh ia why i stay .wish itd go away..
Embarassed to ask 4 help...

Why me? Im nit gonna last.

Pray (((

 

[Pavel Mosko]

I feel so heavy idk where to start. May just bullet point.

# Have baby.
# struggle with crazy ocd thoughts..
Range from crazy harm thoughts, to put down of self esteem thohghts. Afraid od losing touch with reality. Sui..thoughts..derealization... Just worsw of qorsw

# get so scared I start to pace or like a couple days ago....saw stars out of my left eye.. Hyperventilate. Afraid of passing out.

# can't sleep

Juat exhausted.


Lost job bc son was sick. Job fired me.
So no money. I need money for meds..

Dont wanna start juat to experience withdrawls.

Scared. Pls pray.

Feel i wont make it 2nite.

So scared. Cant calm down. Feel frantic and exhaustsd.cant foxus. Sad.

Parents need me but im too weak memtally. Trying not to crack bc they need me.

Trying not to cry.

EDIT- Im afraid of psychosis n Schiz but i feel thata where im headed.. So sad. Trying yo hold on
Veru scared. Wanna kms. Anxiety bad. Tired of it..also afraid id hell...whixh ia why i stay .wish itd go away..
Embarassed to ask 4 help...

Why me? Im nit gonna last.

Pray (((

I pray you find peace and also find a good friend to talk to in person.

 

[Olivet]

I pray you find peace and also find a good friend to talk to in person.

Mental prace eludes me. Feel am too crazy.
Cant copr.

 

[Olivet]

Also hve potential fatal physical illness that if lrft unchked couls lead to cancrt. Dont care anymore.No more chk ups.
Just wanna gomm. Cant hve good life bc of bdoken mind.

 

[Pavel Mosko]

Can you focus on something positive and spiritual? I really like certain forms of Christian music. I like good chant especially.

 

[Olivet]

Can you focus on something positive and spiritual? I really like certain forms of Christian music. I like good chant especially.

When anxiety high. Cant. Thnkn of Er 2nite.

 

[Pavel Mosko]

Good night and God bless you.

 

[royal priest]

When anxiety high. Cant. Thnkn of Er 2nite.

Dial 911 and tell the operator exactly what you are thinking.

 

[Olivet]

Dial 911 and tell the operator exactly what you are thinking.

Feel 2 embarassd. Dont want bby taken. Parent r ill n need my help. Cant help if locked up hmm?

 

[royal priest]

Feel 2 embarassd. Dont want bby taken. Parent r ill n need my help. Cant help if locked up hmm?

Are you able to gain control of your thoughts?

 

[Olivet]

Are you able to gain control of your thoughts?

Maybw. If i feel i cant. Ill jusy go to er.

 

[returntosender]

When anxiety high. Cant. Thnkn of Er 2nite.

For you and your babies sake you need to try hard to stop the thoughts you are having, as the poster said put your mind on happy thoughts and remember Jesus is there. Going to the ER may be a good idea. Remember your baby for positive thoughts for the future. Keep your mind stay on him.
You are his special child.

 

[returntosender]

Feel 2 embarassd. Dont want bby taken. Parent r ill n need my help. Cant help if locked up hmm?

That's not always the case. They are there to help you to health as well as your babies well being. Their intent is to heal you so you can take care of baby. Get your self well please, for that baby. They are there to help you.
God bless you.
If possible and you don't go to the er, turn a radio or tv on and your thoughts will be erased by the other thoughts from the tv or radio.

 

[Mari17]

I feel so heavy idk where to start. May just bullet point.

# Have baby.
# struggle with crazy ocd thoughts..
Range from crazy harm thoughts, to put down of self esteem thohghts. Afraid od losing touch with reality. Sui..thoughts..derealization... Just worsw of qorsw

# get so scared I start to pace or like a couple days ago....saw stars out of my left eye.. Hyperventilate. Afraid of passing out.

# can't sleep

Juat exhausted.


Lost job bc son was sick. Job fired me.
So no money. I need money for meds..

Dont wanna start juat to experience withdrawls.

Scared. Pls pray.

Feel i wont make it 2nite.

So scared. Cant calm down. Feel frantic and exhaustsd.cant foxus. Sad.

Parents need me but im too weak memtally. Trying not to crack bc they need me.

Trying not to cry.

EDIT- Im afraid of psychosis n Schiz but i feel thata where im headed.. So sad. Trying yo hold on
Veru scared. Wanna kms. Anxiety bad. Tired of it..also afraid id hell...whixh ia why i stay .wish itd go away..
Embarassed to ask 4 help...

Why me? Im nit gonna last.

Pray (((

I'm so sorry you're struggling!! It sounds like you have a lot going on. That would be difficult for anyone to cope with. And OCD can make everything seem so much worse. I've had harm OCD in the past, too, and it is a really difficult theme to deal with. The good news with OCD is that it IS possible to learn to manage it, and to find joy and freedom again. I've had it since I was a child, and have had many ups and downs with it, but recently I've learned a lot about how to manage it, and it has helped so much. Have you been diagnosed with any particular mental disorders? Do you think you might be also struggling with postpartum depression?

We're a similar age, it looks like! My heart goes out to you. Don't give up, please. You won't regret fighting your way through this, and things will, and I repeat, WILL, get better. Please feel free to pm me if you need to talk. If you are feeling suicidal, please call the national suicide hot line at 1-800-273-8255, or text HOME to 741741.

I'm going to bed now, but I will check back here in the morning. You are loved and cared for. Please reach out to whomever you need to, and get the help that you need to get. Talk to you in the morning! <3

 

[Olivet]

I'm so sorry you're struggling!! It sounds like you have a lot going on. That would be difficult for anyone to cope with. And OCD can make everything seem so much worse. I've had harm OCD in the past, too, and it is a really difficult theme to deal with. The good news with OCD is that it IS possible to learn to manage it, and to find joy and freedom again. I've had it since I was a child, and have had many ups and downs with it, but recently I've learned a lot about how to manage it, and it has helped so much. Have you been diagnosed with any particular mental disorders? Do you think you might be also struggling with postpartum depression?

We're a similar age, it looks like! My heart goes out to you. Don't give up, please. You won't regret fighting your way through this, and things will, and I repeat, WILL, get better. Please feel free to pm me if you need to talk. If you are feeling suicidal, please call the national suicide hot line at 1-800-273-8255, or text HOME to 741741.

I'm going to bed now, but I will check back here in the morning. You are loved and cared for. Please reach out to whomever you need to, and get the help that you need to get. Talk to you in the morning! <3

Im goin to folow you. Please tell me how you got through it .

 

[Mari17]

Im goin to folow you. Please tell me how you got through it .

OK, sent you a pm!

 

[Dendy]

Olivet, bless your heart. I was reminded of back when I was trying to raise a baby by myself. I lost a job. Things got really bad and it was so hard. You need help. Maybe an Aunt or a really good friend that you trust could help with the baby so that you can see a doctor and maybe apply for some monetary assistance, food stamps, etc. Please don't give up. You may be able to get on Medicaid or something to have an easier way to get medication. It will get better. I'm living proof. I'm here so many years later. Is the babies dad helping you?