Feeling sorry for myself

[gods prophetess]

hi happy birthday sorry you wont get a call from your mom be encouraged in the lord ok ill be praying for you keep the faith

 

[BabyChristian22]

It's my birthday...and i wont be getting that phone call from my mom.


First's are hard - i give you that.

My mom died on Dec 8th, 2007. When she died, I felt sadness, emptiness, guilt, and fear. When she died it seemed like the whole city died and my childhood had died. And the night felt very dark, cold and gloomy. We never get completely over it, but with time the memory of it starts to fade a little and happen less frequently.

 

[WarriorAngel]

Thanks everyone.

I know time is the answer to make it hurt less - but never completely. I still miss my dad after 16 years.
Tomorrow it will be one month since she passed. Mother's Day and my Birthday were the first holidays without her - both personal - and it is hard.
In time my siblings will know how it is. Even though time will have drifted some... my one sister's birthday is 3 days before my mums.

Anyway - these Holidays absolutely stink. I cant help it, i get super depressed.

 

[xTx]

Happy birthday WarriorAngel.

I know how you feel. Since I was a kid I celebrated my birthdays without my Mom, later without my Dad, later without my sis.

It still takes the wind out of my sails. It will be nice if birthdays could be erased so I do not have to feel the loss so much.

Normally I feel awful most during Mother's day, Father's day. Thank God there is no Sister's day.

Gosh, if only I knew where the Reilly's Pub has gone. I can buy you a drink there.

 

[AMDG]

Anyway - these Holidays absolutely stink. I cant help it, i get super depressed.

Yep, "shadow grief" (a name for what that grief is called after the original--it often "hits" at Holidays and at personal occassions) sucks.

My own mother, who has been gone since 2007 would get super nasty and depressed at Mother's Day and about a week out from *her* mom's birthday. (Even my own daughter would notice.) It'll get easier--I surely hope.

 

[WarriorAngel]

Thanks T - so very sorry.
Thanks AMDG. Sorry for your loss too.

I hate 'first years' in this instance. Really would like to skip over the hard stuff.