Greetings in the name above all names Jesus the Christ!
I wrote a lot in the about me area of the bio. This be more introduction. Raised in Christian family from parents, grandparents, and great grandparent. It took a long time and God worked and worked to get me to finally call out to Him.
On May 30th I was diagnosed with Lyme’s disease, very dangerous due to the fact I have stage three reflex synthetic dystrophy. By June 1st I was on my knees by the bed. I told the Lord I am a broken useless man, if He’d have me I would give Him my life. I asked to be forgiven and repeated “my life is yours Lord.” Spent many days in bed and I got sicker. As I did I listened to the only anchors of faith I’d ever had. The Visitation by Frank Peretti and Left Behind series by Jerry Jenkins and Tim LaHaye. After finishing The Visitation, the Spirit lead me to Isaiah 7 verse 11. “Ask the Lord your God for a sign, whether in the deepest gaps or the highest highs.” Few days later I saw a brand new baby deer bouncing through the yard. I didn’t think this was the sign.
As I got sicker and weaker I wasn’t sure what to do and I felt so lost. Then suddenly June 26th happened. Went out with mom to help make the house payment, we live in a wooded area of northern Wisconsin. Suddenly I see a blur of brown at the side of the road. I knew it was a deer had be hit. I was so close to my heart being hardened fully that day for good. Saying out loud “if that’s the baby, I’m going to come home and shut the door and be done talking to everyone for awhile.” My mom prayed for my light to not go out because she couldn’t lose me too. After rushing around town and getting sick I came home so tired and beat. When we pulled over I had mom stop and it was one of the older deer from the yard. I look down and saw a huge spot of blood. Had mom drive us home.
I went to my room wanting to cry out with anger and such rage. When I remembered the final book that’s talked about in Kingdom Come. First Corinthians chapter 13, after listening to it from six to twenty times it made sense for the first time. This was God’s love to me, you and all of us. This wasn’t how I’d been living or wanting to live. In that moment felt lead to ask for the Holy Spirit to enter my life. What a change! The Bible made sense, after all the relationships I’ve had I see how I never did my part with God. I thought it was like a twelve step program in regards to Christ, that every time I sinned it was like starting over again.
Started to study the Bible and the Spirit spoke to me and lead God to write personal laws on my heart.
No more lust
No more lies
No hypocrisy
Discipline
Responsibility
Put God first in all of life
Learn the Word daily
Learn to obey
At that time my girlfriend could tell the change inside of me. We’d been long distance for nine years, I’d been a good boyfriend listening and always there for her no matter what. At the same time I had issues with someone from my past and I wasn’t faithful in all but the physical sense. She wasn’t willing to come move to help me with my mom. The truth was we’d met on a website for adults that were seeking physically important relationships. When Christ started to change me, I didn’t feel the same about her. She didn’t like that I was brining up the Bible and sin when we talked. When I was trying to help my mom after eye surgery, she wouldn’t let me be. I asked her to walk with me as I walked the path. All she said was she wasn’t part of the conversation when I gave my life to Christ. I decided to end the relationship June 29th and the next day she agreed with me.
It hurt and yet when I got out I saw a lot that had been going on the last few years between us. It was God working on my eyes and ears to really be open to Him now.
Since June 26th I’ve been studying the Bible daily. Working through many good books about relationships, past experiences with mental and emotional abuse.
Due to my current situation helping take care of my mom in her slow dementia decline, I’ve been getting closer to her. The Lord is leading me to learn to serve by helping and honoring my mother.
In this experience, I’ve missed having others of the church to talk to and share together. People can pray for, with and ask if others willing to pray for me.
Look forward to what God will provide! Fan of storytelling of all mediums, outdoors, photography, history, current events, and more.
May the Lord bless you and keep you, may He make His light shine upon you.
I wrote a lot in the about me area of the bio. This be more introduction. Raised in Christian family from parents, grandparents, and great grandparent. It took a long time and God worked and worked to get me to finally call out to Him.
On May 30th I was diagnosed with Lyme’s disease, very dangerous due to the fact I have stage three reflex synthetic dystrophy. By June 1st I was on my knees by the bed. I told the Lord I am a broken useless man, if He’d have me I would give Him my life. I asked to be forgiven and repeated “my life is yours Lord.” Spent many days in bed and I got sicker. As I did I listened to the only anchors of faith I’d ever had. The Visitation by Frank Peretti and Left Behind series by Jerry Jenkins and Tim LaHaye. After finishing The Visitation, the Spirit lead me to Isaiah 7 verse 11. “Ask the Lord your God for a sign, whether in the deepest gaps or the highest highs.” Few days later I saw a brand new baby deer bouncing through the yard. I didn’t think this was the sign.
As I got sicker and weaker I wasn’t sure what to do and I felt so lost. Then suddenly June 26th happened. Went out with mom to help make the house payment, we live in a wooded area of northern Wisconsin. Suddenly I see a blur of brown at the side of the road. I knew it was a deer had be hit. I was so close to my heart being hardened fully that day for good. Saying out loud “if that’s the baby, I’m going to come home and shut the door and be done talking to everyone for awhile.” My mom prayed for my light to not go out because she couldn’t lose me too. After rushing around town and getting sick I came home so tired and beat. When we pulled over I had mom stop and it was one of the older deer from the yard. I look down and saw a huge spot of blood. Had mom drive us home.
I went to my room wanting to cry out with anger and such rage. When I remembered the final book that’s talked about in Kingdom Come. First Corinthians chapter 13, after listening to it from six to twenty times it made sense for the first time. This was God’s love to me, you and all of us. This wasn’t how I’d been living or wanting to live. In that moment felt lead to ask for the Holy Spirit to enter my life. What a change! The Bible made sense, after all the relationships I’ve had I see how I never did my part with God. I thought it was like a twelve step program in regards to Christ, that every time I sinned it was like starting over again.
Started to study the Bible and the Spirit spoke to me and lead God to write personal laws on my heart.
No more lust
No more lies
No hypocrisy
Discipline
Responsibility
Put God first in all of life
Learn the Word daily
Learn to obey
At that time my girlfriend could tell the change inside of me. We’d been long distance for nine years, I’d been a good boyfriend listening and always there for her no matter what. At the same time I had issues with someone from my past and I wasn’t faithful in all but the physical sense. She wasn’t willing to come move to help me with my mom. The truth was we’d met on a website for adults that were seeking physically important relationships. When Christ started to change me, I didn’t feel the same about her. She didn’t like that I was brining up the Bible and sin when we talked. When I was trying to help my mom after eye surgery, she wouldn’t let me be. I asked her to walk with me as I walked the path. All she said was she wasn’t part of the conversation when I gave my life to Christ. I decided to end the relationship June 29th and the next day she agreed with me.
It hurt and yet when I got out I saw a lot that had been going on the last few years between us. It was God working on my eyes and ears to really be open to Him now.
Since June 26th I’ve been studying the Bible daily. Working through many good books about relationships, past experiences with mental and emotional abuse.
Due to my current situation helping take care of my mom in her slow dementia decline, I’ve been getting closer to her. The Lord is leading me to learn to serve by helping and honoring my mother.
In this experience, I’ve missed having others of the church to talk to and share together. People can pray for, with and ask if others willing to pray for me.
Look forward to what God will provide! Fan of storytelling of all mediums, outdoors, photography, history, current events, and more.
May the Lord bless you and keep you, may He make His light shine upon you.
