SweetDee
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- Jul 13, 2010
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I thought I write this so that I don't explain it to everyone about it, cause it does break my heart a little.
So, on friday when I came home, my parents kept asking, "how are you feeling, what did you think?" I wouldn't give them a straight answer. On saturday, I saw him again after my best friends art show and I have to say I had such a great time again. I really miss a guy being that attentive with me, noticing me, holding my hand, and most importantly not having insecurities. I know it was only the second date, but we really, really connected. He told me on friday that he travels a lot for work and he is going to be moving to another state. Which meant a lot of things, one of them would be having a long distant relationship with him. I know he wanted to date not for fun but for marriage. Which I thought was a big "WOW people here do that too, YAY"
Besides the long distance, even if things "worked out" that would mean moving. Again, my family, my work, my school. It would be hard for me. So last night, after explaining everything to him, he was so understanding and thanked me for being wise enough to see this before we started anything else. He also told me, he mentioned that in the beginning because he liked me a lot (apparently he knew more about me from my friend then I did about him) and he wanted us on the same page cause his last gf did not like when he was traveling a lot. Okay, this is long...but he gave me a big long hug (is it bad that I loved that so much?). I'm really sad because of this, and I did not tell my parents I made that choice because of it, cause I know it would hurt them a lot knowing I choose being with my family and friends over someone I can have a good relationship with. But, I wanted to stop this before it got serious. I know it would get serious...I know my heart (and saw a little bit of his). Maybe, it would have worked, maybe not, but one thing I do know is that I need* someone here with me. I felt like a selfish person and someone who is not fighting for "love" or to have love, but its the big choice I made, and now I need to live with it.
Okay. I just spilled my love life at you guys. Sorry.
But, I have to say, I am not scared to go on a blind date anymore.![]()
I'm sorry



and then a touch of this!

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