I think I've made a vow, but I'm not sure. Recently I am doubting my salvation. Not that I have to repeat a prayer to be saved again, but whether I believe the right doctrine or not. I believe in the faith alone doctrine without baptism.
Then one day I had a thought in my head. I thought 'hmm i still doubt whether I'm saved or not, I probably should do something about it, but I'm too lazy and I don't really care right now'. Then I felt guilty about my thought and said to God: 'I'm sorry for my thought and that I don't take the matter of salvation seriously'. And now I think I have made a promise that I should figure out whether I'm saved or not. That means reading my bible looking for answers how to be saved. Reading articles on the internet how to be saved. Until I've found a satisfying answer that I'm indeed saved. And because it's a promise I have to do that first and cannot do other things. Like I would really like to go shopping for clothes, but now I cannot because of this promise which have to be done first. Was it really a promise or is it ocd?
Then one day I had a thought in my head. I thought 'hmm i still doubt whether I'm saved or not, I probably should do something about it, but I'm too lazy and I don't really care right now'. Then I felt guilty about my thought and said to God: 'I'm sorry for my thought and that I don't take the matter of salvation seriously'. And now I think I have made a promise that I should figure out whether I'm saved or not. That means reading my bible looking for answers how to be saved. Reading articles on the internet how to be saved. Until I've found a satisfying answer that I'm indeed saved. And because it's a promise I have to do that first and cannot do other things. Like I would really like to go shopping for clothes, but now I cannot because of this promise which have to be done first. Was it really a promise or is it ocd?