Depression Support

[Quiddler]

I'm struggling a little bit now. I'm diagnosed with severe depression so this situation has kind of triggered that, if I allow myself to dwell on the depressing part of it. I'm really disappointed in some people in my life that I could respect, but no longer do, because of choices that they've made. I have to confront them about these choices, and it depresses me that such apparently strong Christian leaders would be unashamed of living with sin in their lives. It hurts, and makes me feel as though this world is completely corrupt, and I am alone in seeking to be more Christ-like. I don't mean to sound a prude or anything - I've done plenty of wrong things in my life, and I'm not proud of them - but ... not now. Not anymore.

Does that make any sense whatsoever?

 

[jscootermac0911]

Hi, I been feelin' depressed the past few day

hey chris

 

[jscootermac0911]

Hi, I been feelin' depressed the past few day

hey you there

 

[jscootermac0911]

my wife is now home and she is really battlin depression

 

[angelluv]

I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, PTSD, Borderline Personality disorder, and adult attachment. Right now I feel kind of down. I don't like where my life is going. I'm having trouble concentrating on subjects, and I am lonely cuz I don't have my friends right now. I'm just lonely. I don't know what my next step in life will be, it just depends on what my college I want to go to says on wednesday, and if my grades stay where they are theres no chance of me going to college. Help.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Gran seriously ill
Nothing happening about the lump on my face til doctors have had big meeting on the 7th November.

Boss was mean cos i had a day off as we thought my gran was going to die... Am hacked off and angry.

Rs xxx

 

[Eponine]

Popping back in to say hi!

 

[fieldmouse3]

Heh...I meant to come in here and post more often, but I guess that didn't happen.
Who else doesn't really remember what feeling really, truly, GOOD is like? For instance, today I feel decent. I can function, and I have energy, and I'm not forgetting stupid things or making silly mistakes at work. Still...I don't think this is as good as I SHOULD feel on an average day, and I sometimes wonder if that's too much to expect at this point!

 

[Soulwings]

Rs. Praying for you, gorgeous. I'm here if you need to talk.

Fieldmouse. I totally understand what you mean about not feeling really and truly good. I too have been decent, for the past few weeks, due to my meds finally kicking in ... but I don't remember having a good day. They all just flow by, so-so or bad. But nothing spectacular. I don't know if those days will ever happen. I suppose they will, in the future ... it just takes time to heal from mental problems, just like it does for physical illnesses.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Really depressed lately esp right now.. have a counseling appt tomm but very nervous.. jus dont see the good in anything anymore.. dont know if life is worth living..

 

[Soulwings]

Crystal. Praying for you, love. Life is worth the living - I promise you - it's just hard to see when things all look black. But life really is a gift. Try to find joy in simple things. Maybe posting in the thankful thread would help a little bit?? Good luck with the counseling - I'm sure it'll go okay.

 

[Xiana]

Hello I am new here; I suffer from clinical depression, and anxiety attacks. I am on a antidepression patch and it is not working. I am so miserable I wish everything would just be over. I have been feeling this way for more than six months and I'm tired.

 

[Soulwings]

Xiana. I'm April. Welcome to CF, welcome to the depression board, and I'm glad that you've found us here! It's not too lively in this thread but I check back here every day, and I'm sure others will be doing the same.

I'm sorry to hear that your antidepressant patch isn't working - how long have you been on it? It takes awhile for the med to build up in your system before it actually starts to take effect.

I'm also diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety among other things, so I can empathise. Thankfully, I'm on a med that is working (it's about my tenth try, so be persistant, lol), so I can see that there is a way out of depression other than suicide. So hang in there, sweetie. Things will get better.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

having a very hard time right now

 

[Abigayle's Legacy]

Crystal whether you choose to believe it or not I do understand.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Thanks

 

[Amin]

Thanks

Some days i just get tired of the whole stinking mess. They have me on 2 anti-depressants, 2 anxiety medicines, and nothing really shows a noticeable change. I have a friend i talk to via e-mail, and she's helped me somewhat,but somedays are just a *****.
Just kinda venting i guess. I have this problem of; Nothing makes adifference, so why care.
Thanks for the shoulder. Chuck.

 

[Quiddler]

Amin. I know how you feel - I've been on wads of antidepressants (and other medications - I'm currently taking 6 medications all for psychological problems). Even if the ADs and all don't make a difference now, they've probably not found the correct combination of meds yet. And therapy - are you in counseling of any sorts? That can really help too. Don't give up. The most important thing when you're depressed and feel like you're facing the hugest obstacles is to not give up hope. There is always hope.

I know that sounds so trite. You're probably thinking that I'm just saying that. But I'm not. I would have never thought that I would have gotten out of the mess that I got myself into over the past two years. But now - things aren't perfect - but I'm walking by faith and sometimes faith alone - and there is hope. Things can change even when you think that you're gone for. Trust me. Don't give up hope of getting better. Keep pushing forward. Keep praying. Stay close to God.

I'm here if you need to talk, okay? I'm on CF a lot and my PM box is always ready to receive more messages.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hi guys!
Haven't posted in here for a while!
Am off to the hospital at 10am to finally have something done about my lump - am having it injected with steroids under local.

It will be painful afterwards but should help - i may have to have it done more than once over next few weeks and it could mean no surgery - yay!!

Rs xxx

 

[Eleemon]

It's interesting that I came across this forum just now, when things are beginning to look so dark again.

Every time I go through a period where it's not so bad, I begin to hope that maybe I've overcome this all at last. When I start to slide back down into the pit like I have been over the last weeks, it's ... depressing.

I say it every time and I'll say it again: I don't know if I have the strength to make it through this again.

No, I know I don't have the strength. I have to keep reminding myself that it's not my strength that gets me through.