Depression Support

[angelluv]

Have a friend who is an enemy now and trying to keep me from going back to my college. My depression is making me have a hard time being okay about it. Please pray.

 

[Taylor43]

Have a friend who is an enemy now and trying to keep me from going back to my college. My depression is making me have a hard time being okay about it. Please pray.

Praying for you to have the strength your friend does not hinder you of what you need to do. I know ut is hard . Praying hun

 

[Taylor43]

I am just feeling sad and depressed i do not know why. Life is hurting again can you please pray for me
Love
Taylor

Taylor. Is there anything in particular that's got you feeling discouraged? Or just life in general? And is there anything I can do to help?

 

[Soulwings]

Praying for both of you, Taylor and angelluv. That you both will have the strength to get through these rough times in your life; that God will wrap His arms around you and comfort you and give you His peace.

I'm always here if anyone needs someone to talk with.

 

[Soulwings]

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How is everyone?

 

[Eponine]

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How is everyone?

I'm up and down, but generally more up than down.

 

[kathleenmary]

im depressed right now. i dont want to go to school tomorrow because i dont have a lot of friends in my classes. ive tried talking to some people about this, but i still feel pretty bad. i took a shower but that didnt help either. some days i feel like my meds dont work at all. =[

 

[Restoredsoul]

I finally have an ultrasound appointment for my face on the 30th October!!

Also have a job interview tomorrow - am nervous but excited too!

Rs xxx

 

[Gwendolyn]

I like threads like these. How glad I am to be able to post with other people who understand my struggles. God bless you all.

I'm frustrated, because I am caught in a loop of sorts. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and the two together form an upsetting bond. Combined, they make it difficult for me to leave the house most days. I am a student in my fourth year of university, but I have one year after this because I have found myself unable to handle a full course load since I was first diagnosed with this illness (about a year and a half ago). When I feel down, I want to be alone, but then I also feel even more down because I am alone. How silly it seems, and yet I do not have the strength to really share my feelings with my friends. It is difficult to share them without crying because the feelings of pain and sadness are just so near.

Many of my feelings of worthlessness stem from the fact that I have great difficulties leaving the house to be a contributing member of society. Mentally, emotionally, psychologically, it is incredibly difficult for me to handle being in social situations. But when I do not leave the house, I feel like I do not contribute. Sometimes it makes me feel like a waste of space because I just end up lazing around the house all day, thinking about going out, getting anxious about thinking about going out... it is a vicious cycle.

I am trying to break these negative thought patterns with counselling. I am also on Cipralex (also called lexapro, I think), but I am very concerned that it is not working as it should. I've been on it for over a month now and I still have depressive episodes and my anxiety is still pretty bad. My doctor has upped the dosage from 10mg to 15mg, and she said I might have to go up to 20mg (the maximum dose for this drug). I am frustrated because this illness takes so much out of me. I do not want to feel like this, and I have tried on my own to break these thought patterns, but to no avail. I am sure that many of you know how upsetting it is to know rationally that you should not be sad, and yet find yourself unable to feel anything except sadness anyway.

I am trying to be strong and not just lie in bed and cry all the time, but this illness is so isolating. So many people do not understand or misunderstand mood disorders. They think that I can just suck it up and tell myself not to be sad, and that sheer willpower is enough. Certainly willpower is part of it - if I weren't motivated, I could not get anywhere. But willpower is not enough when you suffer from an illness like this. That is why I have sought outside help! I wish that others could understand or be more empathetic.

I am trying to take smaller steps toward praying and reading Scripture more often, because I know that I can't do this without Jesus. He will be my strength and my salvation, and only He can help get me through this. I will pray for all of you who suffer with me. We are in solidarity, my brothers and sisters, and I know that we will find strength in each other, and in Christ.

Thank you for sharing, and for allowing me to share. I feel better knowing that you understand how I feel.

Peace be with you all.

 

[ArielHosanna]

Thank you for sharing your struggles with us. I'm also glad to find this thread, and since you've had the courage to introduce yourself to the others here I thought that I'd finally chime in as well. I pray that the Lord comforts you and gives you the strength to cope with and manage these illnesses. In regard to the Cipralex, sometimes it takes a lot of trial and error to find an anti-depressant medication that is effective for you. So hang in there and stick with your medical treatment. A book that I've found helpful in dealing with depression is called "New Light on Depression", and it's written in part by a Christian psychiatrist who has suffered from a depressive illness. In one chapter, he addresses some of the myths and misconceptions that that surround depression, and he takes a no-nonsense approach to medical treatment for it, including medication. The book was co-written by a minister, and he cites many verses from Scripture that I found to be comforting. God bless.

I like threads like these. How glad I am to be able to post with other people who understand my struggles. God bless you all.

I'm frustrated, because I am caught in a loop of sorts. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and the two together form an upsetting bond. Combined, they make it difficult for me to leave the house most days. I am a student in my fourth year of university, but I have one year after this because I have found myself unable to handle a full course load since I was first diagnosed with this illness (about a year and a half ago). When I feel down, I want to be alone, but then I also feel even more down because I am alone. How silly it seems, and yet I do not have the strength to really share my feelings with my friends. It is difficult to share them without crying because the feelings of pain and sadness are just so near.

Many of my feelings of worthlessness stem from the fact that I have great difficulties leaving the house to be a contributing member of society. Mentally, emotionally, psychologically, it is incredibly difficult for me to handle being in social situations. But when I do not leave the house, I feel like I do not contribute. Sometimes it makes me feel like a waste of space because I just end up lazing around the house all day, thinking about going out, getting anxious about thinking about going out... it is a vicious cycle.

I am trying to break these negative thought patterns with counselling. I am also on Cipralex (also called lexapro, I think), but I am very concerned that it is not working as it should. I've been on it for over a month now and I still have depressive episodes and my anxiety is still pretty bad. My doctor has upped the dosage from 10mg to 15mg, and she said I might have to go up to 20mg (the maximum dose for this drug). I am frustrated because this illness takes so much out of me. I do not want to feel like this, and I have tried on my own to break these thought patterns, but to no avail. I am sure that many of you know how upsetting it is to know rationally that you should not be sad, and yet find yourself unable to feel anything except sadness anyway.

I am trying to be strong and not just lie in bed and cry all the time, but this illness is so isolating. So many people do not understand or misunderstand mood disorders. They think that I can just suck it up and tell myself not to be sad, and that sheer willpower is enough. Certainly willpower is part of it - if I weren't motivated, I could not get anywhere. But willpower is not enough when you suffer from an illness like this. That is why I have sought outside help! I wish that others could understand or be more empathetic.

I am trying to take smaller steps toward praying and reading Scripture more often, because I know that I can't do this without Jesus. He will be my strength and my salvation, and only He can help get me through this. I will pray for all of you who suffer with me. We are in solidarity, my brothers and sisters, and I know that we will find strength in each other, and in Christ.

Thank you for sharing, and for allowing me to share. I feel better knowing that you understand how I feel.

Peace be with you all.

 

[kathleenmary]

im not doing so well. earlier on today, i SI'ed. it wasnt bad at all, but the fact that i did it makes me mad. i just need a hug.

 

[Taylor43]

im not doing so well. earlier on today, i SI'ed. it wasnt bad at all, but the fact that i did it makes me mad. i just need a hug.

Hug sorry your having a bad day praying for you

 

[Gwendolyn]

im not doing so well. earlier on today, i SI'ed. it wasnt bad at all, but the fact that i did it makes me mad. i just need a hug.

I am not doing very well, either. The medication that my doctor initially prescribed for me - Cipralex, also known as Lexapro - has caused a prolonged intensification of my depression/anxiety symptoms, and has also provoked very serious suicidal ideation. (Apparently this is not supposed to happen in adult patients, with the possibility of such an occurrence being around 2%.) I went to my doctor to tell her this and we talked at length about other medications that may help.

I am feeling confused and worn out. I am a university student and I do not know if I have the strength to go through another adjustment to a different medication. All of the side effects really weigh heavily on me and with midterms and papers on top of that, I am afraid that I will not be able to handle it very well. This isn't a very good time to have generalised anxiety disorder, either - worrying about what another medication could do to me can consume me if I do not fight really hard!

I have been thinking about all of you and I will continue to pray. Please pray for me, too. We can get through this together.

 

[Soulwings]

Veritas. I've had similar experiences - suicidal ideation on depression medication - before, and I too am a university student, so I can really understand your concerns about switching meds in the middle of a semester. Is there any way that you could do without an antidepressant until midterms are over? Or would your depression be too much to handle? Praying for you.

 

[Scott89]

my week has been full of struggles as well. I am currently on Effexor XR and sometimes it just seems like a miracle pill and others it just seems like it doesn't do a thing at all for me.

 

[Restoredsoul]

im not doing so well. earlier on today, i SI'ed. it wasnt bad at all, but the fact that i did it makes me mad. i just need a hug.

Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Rs, it's good to see you again. I guess I've not really been here in awhile, for good, deep posts. How're you doing? and how are things going?

 

[Restoredsoul]

Rs, it's good to see you again. I guess I've not really been here in awhile, for good, deep posts. How're you doing? and how are things going?

I'm good have had my scan moved to tomorrow!! So am feeling happy that i may finally get this lumo removed from my face

Also have a new job to go to in January much nearer home - am so pleased!

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Goodgirl16]

I'm sorry for u guys i hope u get better

 

[Soulwings]

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I hope everyone is doing well.