Depression Support

[Restoredsoul]

Hey soulwings!

Soz you've had a few bad nights hun but that's great about the 119 days - you rock!!

Rs xxx

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Hey guys, I called my therapist today and left her a message..

 

[Judy02]

how did it go? Does she often get back to u fairly quick? xxx
(*wonders if the UK has a service like this*)

 

[AnointedPoetess]

how did it go? Does she often get back to u fairly quick? xxx
(*wonders if the UK has a service like this*)

Well judy, this is the first time I've ever needed to call and she wasn't in so I left a message on her viocemail but I dont think she'll call me back today so I might call a crisis number I have but very nervous..

 

[Judy02]

how r u feeling now?? Not too bad I hope. Is there anyone u can talk to in ur house if u feel really bad too, who can help u, or be with u if u do phone? xx

 

[AnointedPoetess]

how r u feeling now?? Not too bad I hope. Is there anyone u can talk to in ur house if u feel really bad too, who can help u, or be with u if u do phone? xx

No, worse than before! no.. i dont trust anyone and ppl dont care bout my issues in my house so..

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey AP,
Sorry you are feeling so low - big hugs to you!
I'm sure she will call you back - if not ring again.
Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Thanks for the congrats, Rs How're you doing? I hope the pain has abated somewhat.

Crystal. I hope things are looking up a bit now!

Judy, soz I've not been around lately - how're you doing??

 

[Restoredsoul]

The pain in my face is not so bad now - am just waiting for the 7th for my next injections.

Am beginning to feel really stressed out and low again - i have no idea why - i got so mad yesterday i misjudged the door as i went into the bathroom and managed to bruise my hand and my knee.

I am just feeling a bit overcome with stress and not quite like myself.

Rs xxx

 

[Gwendolyn]

Hey guys, sorry for my absence!!

Amin and Veritas, ask your psychs about trying Parnate. It's an MAOI, not an SSRI - one of the older antidepressants (it's been around 30 years). It has a load of icky side effects and a lot of diet and drug restrictions, but IT WORKS. I've been on it for going on four months, and it's definitely working for me. And I've been on every SSRI (Prozac, Lexapro, etc.) as well as Effexor and Luvox, and none of them worked. Parnate does work. And if you're getting that desperate, then give it a go. Not many people know about it anymore, and not many psychs do deal with it, but if you ask, they might be able to info-search on it and prescribe you some. It's worth it.

Thank you for the suggestion, Soulwings. Could I ask what side effects you have exprienced while on Parnate? If you don't feel like posting it here, maybe you could PM it to me if you feel comfortable.

Funny you mention lexapro and effexor... those are the two I've tried since beginning treatment, and neither have worked (I'm still on effexor, but will be likely going off it soon because there has been no real improvement on it). Lexapro was awful and made me worse than I already am. Effexor has just made me flat emotion-wise and makes me feel zero motivation to do anything. My doctor will be sending me to an acute psychiatry clinic in the next two weeks to get yet another opinion and to have my meds adjusted. I will ask about the medication you mentioned.

Lots of doctors squawk about how if you go in anti-depressants, you'll start feeling better in a matter of weeks. I'm trying not to feel bitter about that, because it has been three months and I have seen no improvement. It is hard to feel hopeful, but I am trying to find anything that I can that brings me even the smallest joy right now - and even that is difficult because effexor has made me so blah.

My faith has saved my life thus far, and I trust that Jesus will continue to hold me up and preserve me from harm in the future. I am trying to stay as close to Him as I can in the midst of this fog.

I'm glad to have people here who understand, even if we are just posting on a message board, hehe. It's nice to feel understood. Hugs to all of you.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Have decided that my current moods are due to stress:
- having to sort out all of the exam entries for my students before i leave my job -
waiting for my CRB to come through so i can actually start my new job - don't know how we will manage if i can't start straight away in Jan!
Feeling like i'm the most busy person until Christmas - have so much booked in - DH and I have one weekend to ourselves!
Just generally feeling the strain...

Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Thank you for the suggestion, Soulwings. Could I ask what side effects you have exprienced while on Parnate? If you don't feel like posting it here, maybe you could PM it to me if you feel comfortable.

Side effects - chills/fever, sometimes separate, sometimes at the same time. Gas pains that come like clockwork (I'm pretty sure that is the Parnate that causes it, but just a normal gas pill helps with that). Dizziness (but as long as you stay hydrated that is not a problem - Parnate is like a caffeine pill, it will dehydrate you given the chance, so you've got to drink a lot during the day. If you don't drink enough, first you'll be dizzy, then you will pass out). Muscle weakness - this is a big one that still is bothersome!!

I think that's it. And then there's the food restrictions - no aged cheese or meat (the only exceptions to the cheese rule are cream cheese, American cheese, fresh mozzerella, and cottage cheese) (aged meats like bacon, pepperoni, summer sausage, etc.), no soy sauce or alcohol (although vodka is okay, I believe, in small amounts - but I don't know about this as I don't drink), no dried fruits or overripe bananas. This is being very careful, but any of the above items have the potential of causing a stroke with Parnate, so it's best to not try out any unless you are under the guidance of a nutritionist who knows Parnate or a psych.

And the drug restrictions - you can't have anything over-the-counter except plain Tylenol, Midol, and Ibuprofen/Naproxen. All cold and flu medications are out, including Benadryl and cough suppressants. There are also anaesthetics that you can't have, but I'm not sure of these. There are still a number of prescribed meds that you can also have with Parnate, but once again - consult a psych about them first.

But as restrictive and awful as this sounds - you can actually get by okay! I'm not particularly restricted in any of my food choices, and the side effects generally go away after awhile - mostly. I've been on it three months and I'm still having some of the side effects, but that may be partially because the med dosage has been increased over that time period.

Hopefully I didn't totally scare you off thinking about this med. It's helped me a lot, and it's definitely worth the trouble.

 

[Soulwings]

Rs. I'll be praying that things work out okay for you - I can see why you would be stressed though! Try and treat yourself sometime, even if it's just for a half hour or an hour during a mad busy day.

 

[Judy02]

Thanks for the congrats, Rs How're you doing? I hope the pain has abated somewhat.

Crystal. I hope things are looking up a bit now!

Judy, soz I've not been around lately - how're you doing??

Hey huni, I haven't been too bad thanks. Depression wise there's been an improvement over the last few weeks, but anxiety/obsessive worrying over what people think, and self esteem issues have come into play a bit. I'll write a new blog entry soon coz it'll prob take forever to explain on here, if u wana check it out!

Hows things been with you? xxx

 

[Soulwings]

I'm glad things have been going okayish! I'll check out your blog ... hrm I forgot you had one here

Things with me have been alright. I've had a few down nights that have been pretty awful, but I'm making it through them alright. The rest of the time I've been, well, managing. It's been 126 days () since I've cut/starved, and everything ED-wise is going pretty well. A bit nervous about Thanksgiving though, but I'll be okay.

/me hugs everyone.

And how are you all doing? If "all" can be used to describe the few people that post here, that is!

 

[Restoredsoul]

Thanks for the hugs Soulwings!
Judy - you're great and we all love ya.

Was exhausted on Monday but am feeling a bit better as the week has gone on - am trying to remain stress free because that is when my depression seems to kick in - when i'm stressed and tired and i don't want to go back down that road again!

Lots of things are happening at work which actually mean i only have one more full week of teaching before i leave so there are lots of breathing spaces! Which make me feel happier - am still waiting on my CRB form but am trusting it will come through in a couple of weeks.

Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Glad to hear that things are going a bit better, Rs. Sounds like you've still got quite a bit on your plate, though! Hang in there. And Happy Thanksgiving!!

 

[Restoredsoul]

Glad to hear that things are going a bit better, Rs. Sounds like you've still got quite a bit on your plate, though! Hang in there. And Happy Thanksgiving!!

Thanks
yes am just a busy bee at the moment but hey that's how it goes somethines - i think there will be a big difference when i leave my job - it is such a cause of stress for me right now!

Rs xxx

 

[Jeshu]

Hi all.
I've been pretty depressed the last 4-5 weeks and find it hard to stay awake, I'm sleeping 15 hours plus each day it is crazy. Ever since they took me of the Clozapine, a new drug I was trying out, but had to discontinue due to Myocarditis, I have been so depressed. My Psychiatrist wants to try me on ECT to see if she can get me out of my depression but I'm a bit scared to try that.

I can sure do with a few prayers.

Thanks


Gerry

 

[LittleRedRose]

I wish I was stronger. I wish I was happy all the time. I think I would be more lovable then. Probably sounds crazy. But thats honestly how I feel.

thats the same how i feel. I feel so weak and unable to get out of this state. I feel depressed. I don't feel like going out nor seeing anyone. I constantly think and worry about my fears and things that stop me from being free. I have a headaches because of it. I have never seen a doctor about it and I have never took any medicine. I don't believe in medicines and plus doctors here where I live... well, I would feel even worse if I would see a doctor because then I would feel that I am crazy. Well, don't know why I am saying all this stuff. Anyways... just felt like it.
At the moment I feel like I want someone to tell me something, to help me, but in the same time I wish that I am all alone with noone around me nor telling me anything. If only people knew the way to reach me. I can't do it by myself.
Most of all I want to have a close relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. But at this point I feel that it is so unreachable because at the moment i feel like talking to Him and at the moment I feel like just ignoring him and not wanting to talk or hear about him. There are so many rules on which I am concentrated right now. So many things that I have to do and I am unable. There are times in my lfie when I believed that Christ is there for me that He loves me and that he wants to help me, that he delights in my presence etc. And trough realizing how much he loves me i was able to love him in a way to do whatever he asks me to do. But, at this point in my life, those things are hard to believe because Bible seams a book full of rules and regualations and it just makes me feel lost. When I read something that pleases me, there is always something that is so hard and contrary to that what made me feel good. I don't know what to do.
I have someone in my life who cares for me but I am afraid that the person doesn't know how to help me.