Depression Support

[Restoredsoul]

I totally understand that wanting to keep your mind busy ... that's why I'm down here on the computer so late, usually I'm in bed by now but I needed someone to talk with so if it has to be through posting, then it has to be through posting. Anyway ... do what you think best, lovely, and I'll continue praying that the pain abates and that you can manage somehow. God's with you always.

Hey hun,
Am going to see how i go - had to call my husband on the way to work today because i thought i was going to faint. It's tough sometimes but i want to keep going for as long as i can - so that no one can say i didn't do my best.

Sorry that you were up so late hunni - hope you're doing ok? Sorry i wasn't around. Posting is good - even if people aren't around when you do - you know that someone will read it, that someone cares.

Big hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Rs. Don't push yourself beyond the limit of what you can *safely* do. I don't want you hurting yourself or wearing yourself out too much.

I'm doing alright. I just couldn't get to sleep and was getting frustrated with my mind, so I came down for some company. No worries about not being there, it helped just posting. Now I'm tired, lol. I don't do well with not sleeping loads.

 

[sahjacq]

I have suffered with this never ending cycle of depression for 10 years now and find i am an expert on mood swings. Again i have found that i am talking to the doctor about my anguish and never ending feelings of being sad and not understanding why I always feel this emotion of never being happy. My doctor wants me to go on anti-depression tablets but i have refused as i was on prozac last year and the lord told me i do not need to be putting these poisonious chemicals into my system and found myself trying the herbal alternatives like st johns wart, I care so much for all the people out there who as me wake daily with such saddness in their hearts i have found that time is a healer and some days you can sail through with so much joy in your heart, but i fear the days when all and everything is dark and misrable on them days my lord i pray is with me in all i do and on my days of joy i am just so thankfull to the lord jesus for the love and guidance he gives to me.

 

[oat02351]

hehe yeah it's stayed sunny for longer than normal over here too, which is cool. (no pun intended).

I know this sounds a bit weird, but does anyone ever struggle with feelings of bitterness? Like over friends, or family who u feel should have understood, or been there for you more than they have?

I know that sounds a bit stupid and unfair, coz I don't know if I'dve understood before I had it, but I can't help feeling some of my uni friends, and family could've been there for me more than they were...I don't think its coz they don't care, but u know. Just don't know if they tried enough.

it's been kinda' wierd because yesterday I crashed and I was crying non-stop as if I was greiving a loss or something.... but today I'm fine and just a little hyper . These wierd mood swings have only been since starting the med. I am going to my doctor today. I don't really know if these are usual side affects because I've never taken anti-depressants before

 

[Restoredsoul]

Rs. Don't push yourself beyond the limit of what you can *safely* do. I don't want you hurting yourself or wearing yourself out too much.

I'm doing alright. I just couldn't get to sleep and was getting frustrated with my mind, so I came down for some company. No worries about not being there, it helped just posting. Now I'm tired, lol. I don't do well with not sleeping loads.

I'm ok - i promise
Have just finished my application for a new job much nearer home - i really hope i get an interview. This would be an exciting new start for me.

Same thing as i do now except a 20 minute walk to work instead of a 90 minute journey!!

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Judy02]

I'm ok - i promise
Have just finished my application for a new job much nearer home - i really hope i get an interview. This would be an exciting new start for me.

Same thing as i do now except a 20 minute walk to work instead of a 90 minute journey!!

Hugs
Rs xxx

Hey soulwings and RS

Just wanted to drop by. My prayers are with you both, hope you're feeling better April, and very best of luck with your job app RS! I hope things get a bit better for you soon, u sure deserve it.

Sorry, I don't feel I can offer much in the way of advice, but just letting u know, I'm thinking of you both xxx

 

[Judy02]

it's been kinda' wierd because yesterday I crashed and I was crying non-stop as if I was greiving a loss or something.... but today I'm fine and just a little hyper . These wierd mood swings have only been since starting the med. I am going to my doctor today. I don't really know if these are usual side affects because I've never taken anti-depressants before

Which meds are they if u dont mind me asking? I didn't get much side effects with me, apart from when I was first on citalopram, I had a headache for the first 2 - 3 days, the first anti dep I tried. It could just be the way life is right now, life can sometimes do that to you. I hope things go well at the doctors hun! xx

 

[Judy02]

Bleh, not doing great right now. I've just listened to some Evanescence and that's brought back memories of cutting. It hurts to know that even after two months of not cutting, if I actually saw my blades, I'd end up cutting. And talking with a friend has got me worried about her - has to do with cutting - I wish there were more I could do, that's what I absolutely HATE about being online, you can only encourage and pray, but not do anything in the "real world" to help. So that really frustrates me ... *sigh*

Just wanted to say, hope you're feeling a lot better. Some things tend to make my depression worse and trigger stuff off. Can't even watch the news sometimes - heh well lets face it, over here it can be pretty depressing.

Yeah sometimes I wish I could do more for people as well. You guys seem so great and supportive. And you seem so kind and wise, compared to most friends my age. You've got real wisdom, and a caring nature about you. Hope that didn't sound patronising because so didn't mean it like that. But you're so understanding!

I'd love to know more people in real life, like the people I meet on here ; or better still, to know you guys!

Heh, wow that sounded really emotional! My chicken still hasn't hatched

 

[oat02351]

Which meds are they if u dont mind me asking? I didn't get much side effects with me, apart from when I was first on citalopram, I had a headache for the first 2 - 3 days, the first anti dep I tried. It could just be the way life is right now, life can sometimes do that to you. I hope things go well at the doctors hun! xx

I told her evrything that I've been experiencing and my bh talked to the nurse on the phone so they could know from his point of view too. She advised that I stop the welbutrin and wait till Monday to try the new one; generic prozac. My sis advised I should be careful of it. That's kinda' the idea when it's your brain. It said on the paper that it was good for pmdd... gravey! I've had a couple issues there too:o . I think I'm so willing to talk when I'm hyper ey?

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey soulwings and RS

Just wanted to drop by. My prayers are with you both, hope you're feeling better April, and very best of luck with your job app RS! I hope things get a bit better for you soon, u sure deserve it.

Sorry, I don't feel I can offer much in the way of advice, but just letting u know, I'm thinking of you both xxx

Hey hun,
I don't expect you to have all the answers for me - it's just great that you post. I know that i have people thinking about me and it makes me feel good.

I know that i can share on here and not be judged just supported - it means a lot

Rs xx

 

[Soulwings]

Judy, thanks for the encouragement, love. How are you doing??

I'm not doing too great today. Nightmares last night, woke up this morning crying; just not a great start to a day. I'm feeling quite drained. I guess that means time for coffee, eh?

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Hey guys,
I'm having a hard time with my depression right now due to the weather changes and other stuff. I feel so lonely and like i have no one to really turn too!

 

[Restoredsoul]

Hey guys,
I'm having a hard time with my depression right now due to the weather changes and other stuff. I feel so lonely and like i have no one to really turn too!

You have people my lovely - you have all of us and you have your father in heaven who loves you as his own child. He will carry you through this time.

It's rough when the weather changes and we feel out of balance within ourselves but you are a strong person and you will get through this.

Hugs
Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

Crystal. Rs is right. We're here, you can always pm any one of us, and God is always there for you, His beautiful daughter. Hang in there, beautiful. And hang close with God. 'Cause He rocks, and can help you better than anyone to get through this time.

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Crystal. Rs is right. We're here, you can always pm any one of us, and God is always there for you, His beautiful daughter. Hang in there, beautiful. And hang close with God. 'Cause He rocks, and can help you better than anyone to get through this time.

Thanks April, I'm glad to have u guys here for me and thanks for the encouragent!

 

[Soulwings]

Anytime, gorgeous.

Last night was rough for me ... generalised anxiety got the best of me- it seems like there is so much to worry about right now!! But God is there, and I'm working on not keeping my burdens just on my shoulders, but unloading some on His. It's so hard though.

 

[Restoredsoul]

Anytime, gorgeous.

Last night was rough for me ... generalised anxiety got the best of me- it seems like there is so much to worry about right now!! But God is there, and I'm working on not keeping my burdens just on my shoulders, but unloading some on His. It's so hard though.

Hey hun,
I feel the same way - i had an encounter with God at church this morning - He said 'it's all going to be ok. Just let me in.'

it really challenged me to how much i carry around and don't give up to God. How much i want Him in my life but how much i keep Him out by putting up barriers.

I just want to encourage you to let go a bit more - that's what i'm going to focus on this week. maybe we can keep each other updated!

Anointed Poetess - be safe in the knowledge that you are loved.

Rs xxx

 

[Soulwings]

That's a good idea, Rs. I'll do my best as this week begins ... it is very difficult, but possible. And it's scary, relinquishing control to God. Kind of funny though, to think that we could have control over our lives, you know?

 

[Judy02]

That's a good idea, Rs. I'll do my best as this week begins ... it is very difficult, but possible. And it's scary, relinquishing control to God. Kind of funny though, to think that we could have control over our lives, you know?

Hey everyone. Sorry I've been a little quiet lately, stuff's been bothering me and getting me anxious too, and I haven't felt much like talking. Very groovy hair RS!! You're looking very different!

How are you april? r u feeling much better?? xx

 

[Soulwings]

I'm doing better tonight, thanks Judy I've had a talk with my boyfriend, and it was lovely since I hadn't got to talk with him for over a week. So things are looking ... worthwhile? once more. Tomorrow is going to be icky though ... emergency orthodontic appointment (I'm having a midlife crisis - I feel like I'm 13 again!! ) and counseling appointment with Lori, whom I haven't seen in 10 weeks, and I'm also supposed to go to the clinic!! So I don't know how I'm going to fit all that into one day ...

How're you doing, gorgeous? *hugs*