Laurelin - that's absolutely awesome-sounding. How're you enjoying it over there? Do you know Spanish well? I imagine that if you don't, you will by the time you come back!! Hang in there and try and stay positive.
Lily - I'm so glad to hear that! You deserve a break from depression and other worries.
Judy - Yeh, I've been bitter before about family and friends just not understanding where I am, with the cutting and eating disorder especially. I think everyone I know mostly understands depression, or at least knows enough to not ask asinine questions about it, but ED & SI are two totally different stories. It's just another thing to bring to God in prayer. He'll help your heart from being hard, and He'll grant you some understanding as to what your mates and family may be thinking, where they're coming from. It may seem that they aren't trying, but maybe they just have no idea what to say that would help you and not hinder or harm you.
Hope things are going okay for you all today!
[[It's sunny again!! *bounces*]]
Thanks soulwings, you're a star
Yeah, been thinking for a bit, To be honest, I could just be being overly sensitive. I really am extra sensitive at the moment, and it doesn't take me much lately to jump to the conclusion that 'people don't care.'
Well to be honest, I was feeling upset about some of my uni mates, coz they knew about my depression (someone else told them) and I was upset they never openly spoke to me about it, or asked me how I was doing. But I've never brought it up with them either, and I managed to sort of imagine their reactions if I did tell them, and I think if I spoke about it, they would care. I tried to put myself in their shoes. Before I got depressed I was so ignorant as to what depression was, and I think if I was aware one of my friends was depressed, I would feel uncomfortable bringing it up first, in case I upset them or something, and maybe would wait to see if they wanted to talk about it.
Hehe, ok maybe to some people this sounds ridiculous...I dunno maybe it is, I think I'm just perceiving and reading into everything negatively again...that and I try to remember other people will have their issues and problems at times as well. I dunno, have u ever had problems with getting upset easily by people, and being very sensitive??
I'm just really sensitive right now, it's very easy for me to slip into thinking people don't care. Maybe that's why CBT is important for me. I dunno, I'm sure my family and friends aren't perfect, just like I'm not, maybe all of them don't necessarily handle it perfectly, but I think they prob do care hehe.
But anyway huni, I think I do understand u a bit with ED/SI , but I'll certainly try to understand more if u ever need to talk
I've been tempted to SI so many times, and I did do it a couple of times in the early stages a couple of years back, but I have been tempted by it, and can kinda guess why it's attractive in a way, and I went through a phase of hardly eating at times when I was a teenager, and was always worried/scared I was fat. I got quite obsessive about it actually, I understand what it's like to worry about stuff like that.
Actually, even now I don't eat properly, if I'm very down, I just can't be bothered, with eating. Ha!...yeah it seems to be more laziness now.
But anyway I'm here for you, I think I can relate a bit, even if I've only suffered from it in a mild form, and I don't think you're weird at all. I'm here if u need me
My meds have been working, which is such a total God-thing, because I've NEVER been on meds that have worked so well in the past, and I've NEVER been so motivated to recover from depression/SI/ED. God certainly is amazing!! and I'm learning to love Him more and more and it's so cool! 
It's just another thing to bring to God in prayer. He'll help your heart from being hard, and He'll grant you some understanding as to what your mates and family may be thinking, where they're coming from. 
One of the side ffects is the inabilty to communicate effectively - speech problems etc... That's my life - communicating verbally. 
