Depression Support

[Restoredsoul]

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Rs xxx

 

[Judy02]

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Rs xxx

Lovely pics, looks like a great day, thanks for sharing them with us xx

 

[oat02351]

...just am. I actually got up the nerve to tell my primary care doctor how I've been feeling. She precribed me Wellbutrin (generic). It was an ordeal trying to get the prescription filled because the insurance company required an authorization. That took about a week and a half to get sorted out. I just took my second dose today. I hope this works out well... I'm heading off to work in a few. Any day that I can go without crying in work is a good day. It's been a couple weeks since I cried in work so that's real good.

 

[Judy02]

...just am. I actually got up the nerve to tell my primary care doctor how I've been feeling. She precribed me Wellbutrin (generic). It was an ordeal trying to get the prescription filled because the insurance company required an authorization. That took about a week and a half to get sorted out. I just took my second dose today. I hope this works out well... I'm heading off to work in a few. Any day that I can go without crying in work is a good day. It's been a couple weeks since I cried in work so that's real good.

You're in my prayers

Don't beat yourself up too much thinking 'you don't have a big enough reason' to be down huni. My life story is nowhere near as dramatic as some either, but we all deal with things in different ways, the causes of depression are so diverse. Plus this life isn't always a nice place, sometimes stress ultimately gets us down, feeling hopeless. Best of luck with the meds, where do u work? xxx

 

[oat02351]

Thanks Judy, I work in a grocery store, prepared foods

 

[Soulwings]

Hey everyone *hugs* It's been awhile since I've been here. How're y'all doing?

I've got some good news - things for me have been looking up. My meds have been working, which is such a total God-thing, because I've NEVER been on meds that have worked so well in the past, and I've NEVER been so motivated to recover from depression/SI/ED. God certainly is amazing!! and I'm learning to love Him more and more and it's so cool!

Judy, Rs. I've missed you two.

 

[oat02351]

I'm having a kinda' blah day myself. So many things just seem to bore me. My life is like hardcore monotany and I don't know what to do about it. I try doing things I like, like going to a pet store just to play with the kittens, visiting my friend. I'm delighted... or well you know, happy at least, til I come home and it's like---- ho-hummm *sigh*. Most people like going home after being out all or part of the day right? What's up with me??? and why don't I think I have anything to look forward to?

 

[Soulwings]

Oat. I understand what you mean. After long days on campus, it seems that I should look forward to coming home, but sometimes I just... don't. I get tired of the quietness of being at home. But sometimes quietness is what we need, even though at first it may seem like monotony. It's when we're quiet, and when we've quieted our minds, that we can hear it when God speaks. 'Cause generally, He doesn't go screaming at us. No. He's the still small voice, which so often gets trampled on by our racing minds.

Is there any way that you could find "fun" activities to do at home? Do you have a place where you could garden, or at least spend some time outside relaxing? 'Cause it sounds like you're always on the go. That's okay, but sometimes we need to just ... sloowwww way down and catch our breaths.

Hope that helped a little. Hang in there. I'm sorry today has been blah.

 

[Judy02]

Hey everyone *hugs* It's been awhile since I've been here. How're y'all doing?

I've got some good news - things for me have been looking up. My meds have been working, which is such a total God-thing, because I've NEVER been on meds that have worked so well in the past, and I've NEVER been so motivated to recover from depression/SI/ED. God certainly is amazing!! and I'm learning to love Him more and more and it's so cool!

Judy, Rs. I've missed you two.

That is absolutely fantastic hun! I am so pleased to hear things have been going well, its always fab to hear stuff like that, and you've deserved a break through

I've missed you too, it's great to see you around here again, and to hear how you've been doing xx

 

[Judy02]

I'm having a kinda' blah day myself. So many things just seem to bore me. My life is like hardcore monotany and I don't know what to do about it. I try doing things I like, like going to a pet store just to play with the kittens, visiting my friend. I'm delighted... or well you know, happy at least, til I come home and it's like---- ho-hummm *sigh*. Most people like going home after being out all or part of the day right? What's up with me??? and why don't I think I have anything to look forward to?

Hey hun, I'm sorry you're still feeling rough, things aren't great for me right now, I know how u feel, its not a nice place to be in.

I don't know your full situation, but at a guess, I think we can feel down coming in home at the end of the day, because life is often quieter then. When we're working, doing activities and seeing people, we're busy, our mind is on the things we're doing, which is why targets, and doing things for people can help. It helps to distract the mind from depression and focus it on other things. When we come back home, if our home life isn't busy or hectic, things are quiet, we have private time to ourself, and its easy to drift back into our thoughts of 'I'm depressed,' especially if there's not much to do, or going on. You don't sound strange hun, its just one icky part of depression that can affect us all. Have u ever tried counselling? I have a self help book on CBT which can sometimes help (i.e. training our minds, rejecting the ideas that come as a result of depression and focusing on the truth) thats written by 2 christians. That, and maybe, plan specific things u cud do when u get home. Nice, enjoyable things? Things that could help u to look forward to coming home? Other than that, maybe pray. Like soulwings said, use some of it to pray, or worship God, let him know how u feel, tell him your needs etc. After that, try and do something you enjoy. Ask God to show u, how u can get better, if there is a specific problem that needs sorting out (there very well may not be) these were just things I ran through first, and if there's no unresolved issues or problems, I'd just look for ways u can positively adapt your life, and give yourself helpful targets. CBT apparently as well is often said to be very helpful.

If you've never tried counselling before as well, maybe give it a try, but its up to you xx

 

[Soulwings]

Judy. It's good to see you again, sorry I've not been on MSN lately. It's been busy with uni. How're things going with you??

Rs, those are lovely pics. Thank you so much for sharing.

 

[oat02351]

Oat. I understand what you mean. After long days on campus, it seems that I should look forward to coming home, but sometimes I just... don't. I get tired of the quietness of being at home. But sometimes quietness is what we need, even though at first it may seem like monotony. It's when we're quiet, and when we've quieted our minds, that we can hear it when God speaks. 'Cause generally, He doesn't go screaming at us. No. He's the still small voice, which so often gets trampled on by our racing minds.

Is there any way that you could find "fun" activities to do at home? Do you have a place where you could garden, or at least spend some time outside relaxing? 'Cause it sounds like you're always on the go. That's okay, but sometimes we need to just ... sloowwww way down and catch our breaths.

Hope that helped a little. Hang in there. I'm sorry today has been blah.

Sometimes I always have to be doing something or going somewhere but, not neccesarily have to. Sometimes I think too much when I'm not doing anything. Ya I know what you mean about God's voice. There is this little chapel in the nursing home were I like to go with my friend. They have preists there that say mass at 10am but, I usually go there with my friend after they have lunch. I feel the presence so strong in there... there is just something about this chapel. It's kinda' like Jesus taking my lifeless body in his arms and breaths life into me. It's quiet and we both pray. I'm about 30-40 minutes away so I can only go once a week into town.

 

[oat02351]

Hey hun, I'm sorry you're still feeling rough, things aren't great for me right now, I know how u feel, its not a nice place to be in.

I don't know your full situation, but at a guess, I think we can feel down coming in home at the end of the day, because life is often quieter then. When we're working, doing activities and seeing people, we're busy, our mind is on the things we're doing, which is why targets, and doing things for people can help. It helps to distract the mind from depression and focus it on other things. When we come back home, if our home life isn't busy or hectic, things are quiet, we have private time to ourself, and its easy to drift back into our thoughts of 'I'm depressed,' especially if there's not much to do, or going on. You don't sound strange hun, its just one icky part of depression that can affect us all. Have u ever tried counselling? I have a self help book on CBT which can sometimes help (i.e. training our minds, rejecting the ideas that come as a result of depression and focusing on the truth) thats written by 2 christians. That, and maybe, plan specific things u cud do when u get home. Nice, enjoyable things? Things that could help u to look forward to coming home? Other than that, maybe pray. Like soulwings said, use some of it to pray, or worship God, let him know how u feel, tell him your needs etc. After that, try and do something you enjoy. Ask God to show u, how u can get better, if there is a specific problem that needs sorting out (there very well may not be) these were just things I ran through first, and if there's no unresolved issues or problems, I'd just look for ways u can positively adapt your life, and give yourself helpful targets. CBT apparently as well is often said to be very helpful.

If you've never tried counselling before as well, maybe give it a try, but its up to you xx

Thank you ever so much, that's why I like this site so much. Everyone is so supportive of one another. It's funny though because there's nothing really in my life to be depressed about accept maybe my job. Cbt?

 

[Soulwings]

CBT is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It's what seems to work the best for depression issues. Your little chapel sounds absolutely lovely; I love places where God feels so close. I have a few of those, except for me they are out in the woods and fields, places where I can just look into the sky and feel so insignificant and yet know that God loves me, me, a sinner. Pretty amazing, isn't it?

So how's your day going today, sweetie?

 

[wes1948]

I woke up this morning after a bad dream with my thoughts full of lies about myself and my life. I started to catch them and argue with them and speak to them in a positive and more realistic way. It's amazing how I have been listening to all this negativity for so long. No wonder I am depressed. I have hope now that this is going to work out. No more accepting lies about myself.

 

[Judy02]

Thank you ever so much, that's why I like this site so much. Everyone is so supportive of one another. It's funny though because there's nothing really in my life to be depressed about accept maybe my job. Cbt?

Yeah basically CBT is basically an exercise looking at ways we think, and negative thinking styles, i.e. how we tend to perceive and interpret various situations and events, and which we're apparently much more likely to pereceive more negatively when we're depressed. It then focuses on training our minds to adopt more helpful thinking styles. Basically, the belief as well is that, how we think and perceive things will affect how we feel, behave and what we end up believing really. I didn't used to think how we think matters that much, but I think it can be quite a powerful thing. Phew, that sounded kinda complicated, but it really isn't. Tsuriyel recommended a book I think, which is a thread on this forum somewhere, which draws on CBT, which she said was helpful. I'll prob buy it when I have the money

I don't feel I have much to be depresed about either, except failing uni last year, and having to spend an extra year on it, but that only really came after depression anyway. Don't worry about why too much, just on how you can get yourself better. I know its tough, we're here for you as much as we can

 

[Judy02]

Judy. It's good to see you again, sorry I've not been on MSN lately. It's been busy with uni. How're things going with you??

Rs, those are lovely pics. Thank you so much for sharing.

It's ok huni. I'm doing ok thanks. Been a bit down recently, but I think that's mainly because it's taken me ages to find work, and there's not much to do recently, but hopefully I'm getting better hehe. It's been good to see depression support up and running again, it seems to have been dying for a while

Let's get it to split to number 2, yeah!

lol...u can tell I've been starting to spend too much time on here... xx

 

[Judy02]

I woke up this morning after a bad dream with my thoughts full of lies about myself and my life. I started to catch them and argue with them and speak to them in a positive and more realistic way. It's amazing how I have been listening to all this negativity for so long. No wonder I am depressed. I have hope now that this is going to work out. No more accepting lies about myself.

That's great that you've found yourself in a position to do that. I think we all need to be determined to do this and fight, but sometimes it does take time. Would u mind sharing how u got to this stage, if that's ok? If it's too private that u dont wana go into detail about though, that's ok

 

[Soulwings]

Wes1948 - it's lovely to see that you've recognised some of the thought patterns that have contributed to your depression. I've learnt in treatment that recognising them is the first step, and then when you've got that down, you can go ahead and battle the thoughts that have been causing you problems for so long.

 

[Soulwings]

Judy - yeah, I noticed that this thread had been dead for awhile, so I thought since we'd both been in it since the beginning, it would be a shame to let it die completely down. And anyway, a specific place for depression support is something that this board needs. So yes, let's aim for getting this thread split. I'm sorry the past few days have been downers. I hope things will/are look/ing up for you, 'cause you deserve it. Depression sucks, no matter whether there's a cause or not.