Reading the bible is what solidified my atheism into this monster I'm not sure I will ever defeat.
Please don't take this as internet chaff. This is sincere. The statement above is first of all, and most of all, for me, a sadness. A heartbreak. And I don't even know you. I believe it is a side affect of the chestnut from the protestant reformation called "sola scriptura", which created as many bishops as there have been bibles sold. It often results in heresy, reformations, splits, etc., but the inevitable byproduct is something less than God, (gnostiscism, agnosticism, deism), and eventually, distrust, and critical skepticism, and finally atheism. Because to ingest the bible and all it's content apart from the authority which gathered it together in the first place, and to take it completely out of context of liturgy. To have what was always intended as "readings", without a sermon or homily is to be lost to ones own imagination and interpretation without guidance. Of course it would eventually lead to atheism. How could it do any other? If there is no earthly interpretive authority to settle disputes among even believers, what of those who are skeptical and leaning toward disbelieve to begin with. It is the Holy Spirit of God that converts souls. That brings the graces of the Father and the Son to creatures. It is the shepherds. The bishops, patriarchs, and rabbis anointed by the Holy Spirit and given the grace of teaching authority, (magisterium), who bring out the truth of the scriptures, just as the Lord Himself set it up to be. I don't blame you, or feel anything apart from love for you, as we are to love all of our brothers and sisters, and I am inspired to pray for you. If you were also a person of faith, I would ask for your prayers for me as well. We all need each other in this journey, and prayer can join us, and break down many barriers. It is not that I have anything that you don't. I am dust. But our Lord said to love one another. It is the basic buy in for humanity. Sorry. A little long winded. Pithyness is not my strong suit. All I can say is please don't let the written word of God or even the believers of God be a stumbling block or a barrier to a genuine openness to the eternal Word of God, (John 1:1-18), Jesus Christ.
Peace to you,
Steve