Could I have religious OCD?

[Neostarwcc]

I happened to watch a YouTube video on religious OCD and found that, I might actually suffer from It personally. I do believe in Jesus and have had faith for several years (since 2013 actually). However I also find myself each and everyday more and more terrified of God and his judgements. What's weird is I can't stop thinking that I've not done enough for God and that God is angry at me.

I know, it's all based on Christ and what he's done for us not what we've done for him. We cannot have faith unless it was granted to us by God. I realize and acknowledge the truths but I cannot stop thinking that I'm doing or did something wrong. I cannot find peace even though God died for me and I know this. It's like condemnation is all I ever think about. Its gotten to the point where I think that whether I go to heaven or hell it doesn't matter. Because I'll get to tell God that I loved him in life regardless and If I'm condemned I only get what I deserve and if I'm saved, I get what I don't deserve. I don't know, does anybody feel this way? Or am I just alone? What can I do?

In the video it also said that people who have religious OCD tend to have blasphemous thoughts. Years ago I had thoughts that the Holy Spirit was let's just say... demonic in nature. I thought it had to do with my schizophrenia but...maybe I have religious OCD. Idk... I can't stop thinking about God at any rate. I think about him almost all the time. Jesus is my world.

 

[friend of]

I can't stop thinking about God at any rate. I think about him almost all the time. Jesus is my world

I'm in the same mental issue boat as you. I think this quote of yours right here is all that really matters. God desires us to come to full assurance of His great salvation usward. When we do this, we believe Him at His word. I think you are on the right track, just try to go easy on yourself, okay?

 

[jesuslover811]

same I spend almost all my time either worshiping or researching never in my life have I been so interested in something.

 

[pescador]

I happened to watch a YouTube video on religious OCD and found that, I might actually suffer from It personally. I do believe in Jesus and have had faith for several years (since 2013 actually). However I also find myself each and everyday more and more terrified of God and his judgements. What's weird is I can't stop thinking that I've not done enough for God and that God is angry at me.

I know, it's all based on Christ and what he's done for us not what we've done for him. We cannot have faith unless it was granted to us by God. I realize and acknowledge the truths but I cannot stop thinking that I'm doing or did something wrong. I cannot find peace even though God died for me and I know this. It's like condemnation is all I ever think about. Its gotten to the point where I think that whether I go to heaven or hell it doesn't matter. Because I'll get to tell God that I loved him in life regardless and If I'm condemned I only get what I deserve and if I'm saved, I get what I don't deserve. I don't know, does anybody feel this way? Or am I just alone? What can I do?

In the video it also said that people who have religious OCD tend to have blasphemous thoughts. Years ago I had thoughts that the Holy Spirit was let's just say... demonic in nature. I thought it had to do with my schizophrenia but...maybe I have religious OCD. Idk... I can't stop thinking about God at any rate. I think about him almost all the time. Jesus is my world.

John 3:16 (perhaps the most famous Bible verse) says, "For this is the way God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." It has nothing to do with having done enough for God, which the Bible addresses as "works".

 

[musicalpilgrim]

John 3:16 (perhaps the most famous Bible verse) says, "For this is the way God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." It has nothing to do with having done enough for God, which the Bible addresses as "works".

This is a wonderful promise from the Lord, it is a good thing to memorize a verse of faith such as this to get your mind back where it belongs, which is thanking the Lord for his wonderful sacrifice.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

I happened to watch a YouTube video on religious OCD and found that, I might actually suffer from It personally. I do believe in Jesus and have had faith for several years (since 2013 actually). However I also find myself each and everyday more and more terrified of God and his judgements. What's weird is I can't stop thinking that I've not done enough for God and that God is angry at me.

I know, it's all based on Christ and what he's done for us not what we've done for him. We cannot have faith unless it was granted to us by God. I realize and acknowledge the truths but I cannot stop thinking that I'm doing or did something wrong. I cannot find peace even though God died for me and I know this. It's like condemnation is all I ever think about. Its gotten to the point where I think that whether I go to heaven or hell it doesn't matter. Because I'll get to tell God that I loved him in life regardless and If I'm condemned I only get what I deserve and if I'm saved, I get what I don't deserve. I don't know, does anybody feel this way? Or am I just alone? What can I do?

In the video it also said that people who have religious OCD tend to have blasphemous thoughts. Years ago I had thoughts that the Holy Spirit was let's just say... demonic in nature. I thought it had to do with my schizophrenia but...maybe I have religious OCD. Idk... I can't stop thinking about God at any rate. I think about him almost all the time. Jesus is my world.

I'm not sure how to present my comment. It will not still well with you.
That being said, you do not have religious OCD but rather an understanding of soteriology that has caused you to question The Cross. If you want relief I suggest exploring other theological views.
Blessings.

 

[BobRyan]

In the video it also said that people who have religious OCD tend to have blasphemous thoughts. Years ago I had thoughts that the Holy Spirit was let's just say... demonic in nature. I thought it had to do with my schizophrenia but...maybe I have religious OCD. Idk... I can't stop thinking about God at any rate. I think about him almost all the time. Jesus is my world.

Have you read this massive amount of detail on the life of Christ? The Desire of Ages

If you do, you may find that it will change your life.

 

[Sketcher]

Maybe, but people who have it tend to post threads asking questions that you do not.

 

[JAM2b]

Scrupulosity is a type of OCD that is a real problem for some people. If you think you have it, then getting evaluated by a mental health professional is important.

 

[ISteveB]

I happened to watch a YouTube video on religious OCD and found that, I might actually suffer from It personally.

Here's a novel thought for you...
Welcome to the human race.
On some level, everyone, at some point in their lives will get OCD about something.

I'm the least OCD person I know-- my wife complains that I'm too laid back.

Each and every single time I use the toothpaste I flatten it with my fingers to get the most out of it.

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I do believe in Jesus and have had faith for several years (since 2013 actually). However I also find myself each and everyday more and more terrified of God and his judgements. What's weird is I can't stop thinking that I've not done enough for God and that God is angry at me.

Hmm....

Here's another thought.
When was the last time you had a sitdown conversation with him?
Please read 1 John 1:5-2:2.

In the event he actually is angry with you, this is the solution.

I know, it's all based on Christ and what he's done for us not what we've done for him. We cannot have faith unless it was granted to us by God. I realize and acknowledge the truths but I cannot stop thinking that I'm doing or did something wrong. I cannot find peace even though God died for me and I know this. It's like condemnation is all I ever think about. Its gotten to the point where I think that whether I go to heaven or hell it doesn't matter. Because I'll get to tell God that I loved him in life regardless and If I'm condemned I only get what I deserve and if I'm saved, I get what I don't deserve. I don't know, does anybody feel this way? Or am I just alone? What can I do?

Oh yeah.
This sounds like you are experiencing spiritual warfare.
According to Romans 8, and John 3:18, once you've placed your trust in Jesus, you are no longer condemned by God. You and he are good.

In the video it also said that people who have religious OCD tend to have blasphemous thoughts. Years ago I had thoughts that the Holy Spirit was let's just say... demonic in nature. I thought it had to do with my schizophrenia but...maybe I have religious OCD. Idk... I can't stop thinking about God at any rate. I think about him almost all the time. Jesus is my world.

Please read Romans, Colossians, Philippians, and 2 Corinthians 10.

 

[Petros2015]

Its gotten to the point where I think that whether I go to heaven or hell it doesn't matter.

We spend our lives becoming something, I think that matters more than the Giant Carrot and Giant Stick. Those will follow naturally, I'm sure.

 

[Kettriken]

However I also find myself each and everyday more and more terrified of God and his judgements. What's weird is I can't stop thinking that I've not done enough for God and that God is angry at me.

Find a reputable counselor, be they clergy, spiritual advisor, or christian mental health professional. They can help you in ways that forum members are not qualified to do.

 

[lastofall]

True actual Christian shall quarrel with and battle against sin all the day long, because they are regenerated and penitent sinners now: contrariwise the ungenerated and impenitent sinners have no quarrel with sin, because they have not the Spirit of God.
Such an concept they you have mentioned is of the world, and not of God: it is a good thing that we learn not to think above that which is written; for any thing that is thought above that which is written is where only exaggeration and over-estimation dwelleth.

 

[bèlla]

My faith is simple. I believe in God and Christ. I don’t allow theology or the church to muddy the waters. And I’m mindful of my consumption.

I don’t struggle with guilt or doubt His love. Nor do I fill my head with other people’s opinions. Whether they’re lay people or pastors. I’ve learned to rest in Him.

The mind is a tool. It’s meant to serve us. We aren’t its servant. I don’t know everything and that’s okay. He’s my guide. Not my head or religious teachings.

~bella

 

[Neostarwcc]

I'm in the same mental issue boat as you. I think this quote of yours right here is all that really matters. God desires us to come to full assurance of His great salvation usward. When we do this, we believe Him at His word. I think you are on the right track, just try to go easy on yourself, okay?

Yeah, i know. Welcome to being human. Technically me being afraid is a good sign an unrepentant unregenerate would care less c about his eternal destinationl

 

[Neostarwcc]

I'm not sure how to present my comment. It will not still well with you.
That being said, you do not have religious OCD but rather an understanding of soteriology that has caused you to question The Cross. If you want relief I suggest exploring other theological views.
Blessings.

Doubt it. I'm not easily offended and I'm curious about what you have to say

 

[Neostarwcc]

Maybe, but people who have it tend to post threads asking questions that you do not.

Oh? Like what? I'm genuinely curious. I only have 1 video ad a very minutes of googling worth of knowledge.

 

[Neostarwcc]

Scrupulosity is a type of OCD that is a real problem for some people. If you think you have it, then getting evaluated by a mental health professional is important.

I usually don't respond9 well too therapy. I do have a n appointment with my psychiatrist coming up sometime this month. I can ask him then, we're pretty good friends.

 

[Neostarwcc]

Find a reputable counselor, be they clergy, spiritual advisor, or christian mental health professional. They can help you in ways that forum members are not qualified to do.

My wife and I are quite close to our Elder at our church. I haven't been to church much for the last several months though. Reality hasn't been treating me very well. I do however call and E-mail him frequently. I will send him a n email and see what he has to say.

 

[SamInNi]

Mental and emotional problems can be eased by properly renewing our thinking. To put it another way, where does my mind spend most of its time?

The world often gets a free daily pass into our lives – several hours a day probably, 7 days a week. Many Christians rarely do enough to stop it. There were times when I did nothing to stop it, and it had a big impact on my relationship with God. The spirit of the world is continually in direct opposition to God and we do get contaminated by it (James 1:27; 4:4).

Sometimes, too, we spend too long listening to the wrong people and being influenced by dodgy opinions.

Christ said that His followers are not of the world and that the world hates them: “I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. “I do not ask You to take them out of the world, but to keep them from the evil one” (John 17:14, 15).

We may be more settled in our minds if we push back hard on the world and renew our minds in Scripture (Romans 12:2). I don’t just mean working our way through the Bible each day as part of an unthinking routine—a daily reading plan, perhaps.

We can read a lot mechanically and get little from it. But, are we really getting challenged and built up by it? Are we getting taught good stuff from it by God-appointed teachers in church meetings? Real teachers are thin on the ground, in my opinion (James 3:1).

God’s Word living in us exposes what comes from self (consider Hebrews 4:12, 13). Being over-familiar with the world will harm our thinking, and that in turn can weaken our emotions—in real terms it can lead to fears and insecurities that hold us back from God's best.

Philippians 4:6-8
John 10:29