First of all Pixie,

Welcome to the family! You have taken your first steps into the most wonderful adventure you can ever imagine! I suggest you begin by reading John in the New Testament. The thing you must do is learn about Our wonderful Lord JESUS. The
more you learn of Him the more you will love and adore Him! HE promises us when we love Him and become His, that HE will NEVER leave us nor forsake us!! Wow, what a promise and that from the Son of the Living GOD!!! HE promises that when we submit our lives to Him, HE comes to dwell within our hearts! (We still will struggle with the flesh but our hearts belong to HIM!)
As you grow in understanding of the Word of God, HE will begin to show you more things and help you understand more. I tried life running away from Him and life with Him and I completely and absolutely recommend life with HIM!!!
There is a beautiful movie you should see called Joshua: The Motion Picture.... it will show you so much about Jesus and His loving nature. Jesus' name in Hebrew is Joshua.....

I love the symbolic picture of the character of Maggie. Her life was a mess... she was hurting and had distanced herself from God. She takes the glass pitcher and shatters it on the floor into a million pieces. "There! That's my life and NO one can fix it!!" she screams at Joshua...... A few days later a stunningly beautiful sculpture of an angel, made from millions of shards of glass is given to her, a gift left for her by Joshua.... This is us, Pixie.... JESUS will take our shattered lives our mistakes, our messes and make something beautiful come out of them IF we will submit to Him and LET HIM work within us!!
He is no respecter of persons! What HE has done for one of us, HE will do for any of us who love HIM!!
We are all here for you to ask questions, feel free to PM anytime, my pm box is ALWAYS open! Welcome dear little Sister!

~Cyberwing