- Jun 24, 2003
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I'm feeling a little confused and upset around the issue of confession.
Some of you may know where I'm coming from: I am attempting during Lent (and hopefully long after) to be a weekly Communicant for the first time ever.
I spent a couple of years (when I was most on fire) not being able to receive the Eucharist due to my having unresolved annulments. During that time I did not avail myself of Confession very often.
Alot of time would pass between my visits to the Confessional, so I'd always have tons o' bad stuff to Confess and do penance for.
So now is the first time that I am really having to deal with determining which of my many sins are mortal and which venial on a weekly basis. I understand the three requirements for a mortal sin to have taken place.
My confusion comes around the issue of determining which are grave matters.
On the one hand, I feel as though I made it through this week without any mortal sins. But that seems kind of crazy - how in the world could I have done that? I'm not very holy at all. I'm really messed up and sinful.
On the other hand, if I look at the mortal sins very closely, it seems as though I commit mortal sins every day and could only receive the Eucharist if I could go to confession ten minutes before Mass begins.
* I envy other people's stuff all the time. Not drooling over it or obsessing over it, but I'll say, "Hey that guy always has sharp clothes. I wish I could dress like that." or, "That guy's so tall; I hate being short. Why can't I be tall like him?"
* I am greedy. I'm selling a big portion of my book collection, and I'm thrilled at the prospect of the money it may bring me so that I can buy stuff I want.
* Am I sinning against Charity by the indifference I often show the poor on the city streets?
* No matter how observant I am during Lent, there is always more that I could do, but I also do want my leisure time and my licit temporal pleasures. Is this lukewarmness or spiritual sloth?
* I have a bit of a problem with profanity which I am working to undo. This morning I used the Lord's name in vain, but only in my head - it didn't make it to my lips. Was that a mortal sin?
* Is every profanity a mortal sin, or only the ones which misuse and abuse the name of God?
* I have lustful thoughts in my head, but have been good at avoiding inappropriate contentography and have been doing okay at nipping these thoughts in the bud before they become full-blown fantasies. Is each of these thoughts a mortal sin?
* I get really angry when dealing with my ADHD son. Is my terrible anger a mortal sin? If so, is every time I express it a separate mortal sin?
I may be making too much of this, but I am really afraid of receiving the Eucharist unworthily. I felt like giving up this morning as I fretted over whether I needed to go to Confession and if I did, what I should confess. I'm trying not to give up, but this feels supremely important and terribly overwhelming.
Some of you may know where I'm coming from: I am attempting during Lent (and hopefully long after) to be a weekly Communicant for the first time ever.
I spent a couple of years (when I was most on fire) not being able to receive the Eucharist due to my having unresolved annulments. During that time I did not avail myself of Confession very often.
Alot of time would pass between my visits to the Confessional, so I'd always have tons o' bad stuff to Confess and do penance for.
So now is the first time that I am really having to deal with determining which of my many sins are mortal and which venial on a weekly basis. I understand the three requirements for a mortal sin to have taken place.
- Mortal sin is a sin of grave matter
- Mortal sin is committed with full knowledge of the sinner
- Mortal sin is committed with deliberate consent of the sinner
My confusion comes around the issue of determining which are grave matters.
On the one hand, I feel as though I made it through this week without any mortal sins. But that seems kind of crazy - how in the world could I have done that? I'm not very holy at all. I'm really messed up and sinful.
On the other hand, if I look at the mortal sins very closely, it seems as though I commit mortal sins every day and could only receive the Eucharist if I could go to confession ten minutes before Mass begins.
* I envy other people's stuff all the time. Not drooling over it or obsessing over it, but I'll say, "Hey that guy always has sharp clothes. I wish I could dress like that." or, "That guy's so tall; I hate being short. Why can't I be tall like him?"
* I am greedy. I'm selling a big portion of my book collection, and I'm thrilled at the prospect of the money it may bring me so that I can buy stuff I want.
* Am I sinning against Charity by the indifference I often show the poor on the city streets?
* No matter how observant I am during Lent, there is always more that I could do, but I also do want my leisure time and my licit temporal pleasures. Is this lukewarmness or spiritual sloth?
* I have a bit of a problem with profanity which I am working to undo. This morning I used the Lord's name in vain, but only in my head - it didn't make it to my lips. Was that a mortal sin?
* Is every profanity a mortal sin, or only the ones which misuse and abuse the name of God?
* I have lustful thoughts in my head, but have been good at avoiding inappropriate contentography and have been doing okay at nipping these thoughts in the bud before they become full-blown fantasies. Is each of these thoughts a mortal sin?
* I get really angry when dealing with my ADHD son. Is my terrible anger a mortal sin? If so, is every time I express it a separate mortal sin?
I may be making too much of this, but I am really afraid of receiving the Eucharist unworthily. I felt like giving up this morning as I fretted over whether I needed to go to Confession and if I did, what I should confess. I'm trying not to give up, but this feels supremely important and terribly overwhelming.