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[Jo1]

Hi everyone, tlb, mask, bigtoe, dnihila, Imarie23 how are you all well I hope. love the pics dnihila just feel this wonderful sense of peace coming from them, the stillness of creation.
talking of creation ive been busy posting down on creation evolution part. gosh a debate has been going on.. great stuff.
went to a church group tonight first time for couple of months. As i promised to go to this one. Got hurt still in past now. I was told I couldnt go back to it now ive been invited back!!
it was good, but I kind of feel a bit alone I suppose. Just lack of sharing with people. Everybody seems to see each other, but I dont see much of people really. but thats just the way it is sometimes. ministries hard and you kind of feel like that at times. God gives you a vision but I suppose you hope for the support more but anyway, lots of love all. speak to you soon. god bless love Jo

 

[Mask]

Hope you have a great sleep TLB!

Jo1...just curious, what ministry are you involved in?

 

[Jo1]

Hope you have a great sleep TLB!

Jo1...just curious, what ministry are you involved in?

hi mask hope your ok thanks for your post bless you by the way. anyhow best way to explain is in my prayer request here thanks for asking. love Jo
http://www.christianforums.com/t5425646-please-pray-for-us.html

 

[lmarie23]

hi everyone.

Mask, i'm glad the building finally got moved. it must feel good to have that done.

April, i hope you're having a wonderful reunion with Jarrod and a great vacation.

Bigtoe, it's great to see you posting on here again. I'm sorry that your vacation was stressful

Jo1, nice to see you back on here after a bit of an absence. thanks for the pm!

TLB, hope you are sleeping well. i wonder how much of a time difference south africa is from here.....

Today I had a job interview for an assistant teacher job at a head start day care program for underprivileged children. I think it went pretty well. Like not great, but not bad either. I hope they offer me the job! it's not an ideal job, it's half an hour away, but i really need a good job. Friday I had a phone interview for a work from home job, it's investigating insurance fraud. It sounds like an interesting job, it's full time and everything. I just hope it's legit, I'm kind of wary because it's a work from home job.

tonight was my brother's tennis team potluck dinner/awards presentation. it was nice. their coach always speaks so nicely about the students.

Lynne

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody,

yes I did have a good sleep. Not sleeping has never really been a problem for me.

Lynne, I think I'm about 6 hours ahead of you. We're 2 hours ahead of GMT.

 

[Jo1]

hi everyone. imarie23 that job sounds really good. sorry tlb youre not sleeping well. i didnt get much last night at all.
ive not been doing so well. posting all round. love Jo

 

[HannahBanana]

Sorry I haven't posted here in a while. I've just been struggling with a bout of depression and feeling like I shouldn't bum y'all out. I've also been struggling with my faith and feeling like giving up on it, since I can't even manage to pray without thoughts like "There is no God. Why are you even praying when there is no God?" running through my head. I've also been struggling with not using science or logic to explain what God has done in my life. I'm just in a bad place mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and that's why I haven't been posting.

Just thought I'd let you all know where I was, so that you didn't think I was banned again or anything.

 

[Jo1]

Sorry I haven't posted here in a while. I've just been struggling with a bout of depression and feeling like I shouldn't bum y'all out. I've also been struggling with my faith and feeling like giving up on it, since I can't even manage to pray without thoughts like "There is no God. Why are you even praying when there is no God?" running through my head. I've also been struggling with not using science or logic to explain what God has done in my life. I'm just in a bad place mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and that's why I haven't been posting.

Just thought I'd let you all know where I was, so that you didn't think I was banned again or anything.

Hi Hananh sorry to hear that. when those thoughts come why dont you think the opposite thing and then speak it out. there is a God and then perhaps try and look up scriptures to help you.
speak this out too friend if it helps.
there is no condemnation for those who live in christ Jesus. romans 8:1 dont feel bad friend god understands.
he cares and loves you.
dont give up friend i know its hard ive been going through it too recently.
There is a god because in genesis 1 in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.. for eg. if i find some more will post them. so speak out against those lies. see 1 colossians 15-20. too .
what do you mean about not using science too?
if you dont mind me asking. hope this helps in anyway.take care god bless love Jo

 

[Mask]

Sorry I haven't posted here in a while. I've just been struggling with a bout of depression and feeling like I shouldn't bum y'all out. I've also been struggling with my faith and feeling like giving up on it, since I can't even manage to pray without thoughts like "There is no God. Why are you even praying when there is no God?" running through my head. I've also been struggling with not using science or logic to explain what God has done in my life. I'm just in a bad place mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and that's why I haven't been posting.

Just thought I'd let you all know where I was, so that you didn't think I was banned again or anything.

I know how you feel Hannah...I've been there before. Our faith does get tested. Satan tested Jesus so he is going to test us too. Jesus always resisted Satan with scriptures so that's what we need to do as well. It really isn't any easier to believe scientific explainations, than to believe Biblical ones...so just choose to believe the Bible ! Don't give up girl!!! You don't have to stay away either, just because you feel depressed...hence...the name "Depression Forum" . We can handle it!


Jo1...sounds like an interesting ministry you and your husband are trying to get going!

Hope you get one of those jobs Lynne!

I'm kinda feeling uneasy and a bit ticked off because my hubby insists on going to a wake/viewing (whatever you want to call it) for his brother-in-law's brother who died yesterday. I don't want to go!!! I hate those things, plus it is a two hour drive each way. It is just stupid to drive 4 hours, just to pop in for 5 minutes and say "sorry for the loss of your loved one"!!! AHHHHHHH!!! If it was someone we knew well or family, we would go for sure but we would probably spend extra time with the people so it would be worth it. Plus he had to take time off on three days, in the last two weeks, trying to moving in that building. We really can't afford for him to be taking time off work again tonight! I tried to talk him out of it, to tell him to just call his brother-in-law and explain things and give his condolences to him...but he won't! I can't let him go alone (I would like to so I wouldn't have to go to the stupid thing!) because it is such a long drive....I'm afraid he won't make it there and back without falling asleep and getting into an accident. He gets so tired from working outside from 6:00 a.m - 9:00 p.m. He has fallen asleep driving before so I have to keep a close eye on him, if he is really tired. SIGH!!!! Oh well, I should look at the positive...I will get to spend a few extra hours alone with him.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hannah - its good to hear from you again. Don't worry about not posting when you're depressed. We're here to give support when you need it.

Jo - I hope you're doing well.

Mask - four hours is a long time to be in a car when you won't be there long. But as you said, there is a positive side to it. It'll be nice to be able to talk to your husband while you're in the car.

 

[lmarie23]

Mask, i hope the wake/viewing goes ok. At least you'll get to spend time with your husband, like TLB said...

Hannah, i can understand not wanting to post here because you feel depressed, because i am in the same situation right now. it's nice to feel like i'm not alone, please feel free to post if you want to. I hope things start looking up for you

i've been busy planning our family trip to Texas. it's exciting but at the same time it's been kind of frustrating, we can't agree on things. i hate arguing. <sigh>

my depression has been worse than usual lately, which is frustrating. i'm so tired of struggling with the temptation to SI as well. hopefully soon things will start getting better. i posted on the board about it, maybe someone will give me a helpful suggestion.

Lynne

 

[Soulwings]

Hullo everyone, I'm back. And it feels good to be back... wow, I've missed a lot of posts in the time that I've been away!

Dnihila, I'm sorry that I/we didn't make you feel welcome when you came! Many apologies for that. Sometimes we either don't know how to welcome a new person if they don't introduce themselves a little, sometimes we just get caught up with those that we've already "met," and sometimes we just forget. But anyway... welcome to the thread, and I hope that we all can support you in any way that you need.

As far as the pictures go, I looked at them and just went "WOW." I love photos of God's creation..... the rocky path looked like somewhere that I would like to hike... the photo of the deer in the desert/dry place makes me realise how well-equipped for such terrain they must have to be.... the lake photos, both the one in the summer and the winter, made me want to be there... and the waterfall just reminded me of peace. Thank you for posting them - they're beautiful.

Mask, it's so awesome that you live on P.E.I.! I was just there in summer 2005 for a day, and it was beautiful. We went to the North Shore (carefully avoiding all of the touristy places), and on our way back managed to get lost and so saw a lot of the back country. I was amazed at how red the soil is, although I expected that from the Anne of Green Gables movies (and yes, I am a fan of L.M. Montgomery, but I hate how she is so publicized and flaunted by the touristy places *gag*). It was indeed beautiful, and looks somewhat like where I live (Pennsylvania) - forested hills and windy backroads. More evergreens than here, though. And I can't believe that it's so cold up there now! I mean, I know that Canada is cold (60s in July in New Brunswick proved that to me), but .... wow.

NoQuestion, if you are really worried about the suicide thing... please talk to someone. Fantasizing about suicide can lead to attempts (said from experience). I know that the thought can pass through someone's mind and s/he won't be further affected by it.... but sometimes it stays and causes trouble. So please tell someone before it gets to be a common thought. Life is meant to be lived, and if God intended for us to die when things get bad, I think He could take care of that Himself. I know that sounds funny, but... well, it makes sense in my mind. Sort of.

BigToe, Molly sends Elton and Beep Beep snuggles. And I send you snuggles as well. I'm sorry that things have been rough lately.

Tracey, Lynne, Jo, Hannah, I hope you are all doing well. I would respond to your posts but that would take me forever, since you've updated with so much interesting news while I was gone!! Oh, and Hannah, it's okay to post when you feel depressed, unless you'd rather not talk about it. (Actually, this holds true for everyone.) I know that I wouldn't mind... this forum is for depression, and this is a support thread, as well as one to just share what's going on in our lives. So... feel free. *hugs*


The trip was lovely. Spent two days with my grandparents and extended family, and we did leave a day early so we got to Jarrod's town about four hours earlier than we would've had we stayed the night with my sister. I'm glad it worked out the way it did. I got my ring, and it's beautiful *happy smile*, and the time spent with Jarrod was well-spent indeed. We walked a lot (around 5 miles, actually) and got quite sunburnt as it was a very sunny (and hot!) day, and we're both pale and unused to the sun after a cloudy and long winter. My profile photo is one that my dad took (I ordered him to be a shutterbug *grin*) a little while after Jarrod presented me with my ring (he got down on one knee and slipped it on my finger, and a prayer was answered since it had to be resized and I was hoping that it would fit properly, since I did the sizing from charts online and told him [from 1200 miles away] what size my finger was. But anyway.... it was sweet, and memorable, and lovely).

Saying goodbye was really hard, though.... it'll be another three and a half months until I see him again in person (I pray that it won't be any more than that!). But after he moves here, hopefully there won't be any months-long goodbyes, ever. That would be amazing!!


How is everyone doing today?? I've missed you all while I was gone!!

 

[Mask]

Hello April...great to see you back!!! We really missed you around here! I'm so glad that you had extra time with Jarrod and that you got your ring ...how exciting!! I know three and a half months seems like a long time now but it will go quickly and before you know it, you will have the rest of your lives together.

That's so cool, that you've been to P.E.I.! How come you guys came here?


Well we survived the wake thingy ! I really shouldn't have been so selfish and so dramatic about the whole thing. I was just feeling a bit crabby (that time of the month). It was a long drive and we (especially hubby) were tired and very glad to get home, at 11:00 last night. We did have lots of time to chat at least .

I feeling very tired and crampy! I just want to snuggle up in a warm blanket and watch t.v all evening but I can't! I have to lead worship practise tonight . Yah, just what I'm looking forward to, standing up and exerting a lot of energy, for 3 or so hours. Wah wah...my back hurts already! Lord help me!


Hannah and Lynne...it's very hard while you are going through a bout of depression...but just remember and keep telling yourself...this too shall pass !!!

Oh, I forgot...can you guys please pray for my hubby, he pulled a muscle under his ribs a few days ago and now it is really hurting. It must be really hurting bad for him to admit it hurts and for him to come home from fishing and say that he thinks he will have to take a few day off. He NEVER takes days off unless it's absolutely necessary! Please pray that healing comes fast! We really can't afford for him to be not making any money. No sick days when you work for yourself...sigh!! Thanks.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Lynne - sorry to hear you aren't doing too well. I hope your depression gets better/goes well and you don't SI.

April - welcome back! We've missed you too.

Hi to everyone else, I don't have much news. I'm just working on an assignment that has to be in tonight! I can submit it online which is very nice. I still have two more questions to go.

 

[Jo1]

hi everyone, how are you all? hi mask hope you were not too tired with the travelling.hope your doing ok. thanks for the comment about the ministry. hi tlb hope your doing well, good to hear you sleep well at night. hi bigtoe hope your doing well. Hi soulwings nice to see you. glad you had a nice trip. Hi Imarie23 sorry to hear your feeling down. bless you.
im not too bad still kinda feelin down with what happened this week. kind of feel being alone more when im struggling.didnt feel like posting today but decided too! at least managed to get out today and be with husband a bit. probably quiet day tomorrow. been on holiday from work wish i could enjoy it more though.
anyway catch you all later love Jo

 

[Mask]

Good morning gals! Hope you are all feeling up today !!!

I'm just bumming around the house today! Hubby is off for a few days because of the pulled muscle thing. He's gone for a drive with our neighbour. I feel a bit tired right now .

Worship practise went fine last night. I was tired but got through it o.k. My little grand nephew comes to practise with us...he's only around 8 months old...he is soooooo sweet! His mom and dad are on the team with me, so they just bring him along. We pass him around and hold and play with him while we are singing. I don't know what we will do with him once he starts walking around....that will be interesting ....he already tries to grab your microphone all the time !

Well I don't have much else to say so far today. Talk to ya all later. Blessings!

 

[Soulwings]

G'afternoon, everyone.

Mask, I hope that your husband feels better soon! That's got to be hard, for both of you. :-( And definitely painful... wow.

I was in P.E.I. when my family came up to New Brunswick for a family reunion. My dad's side of the family is originally from N.B. and in fact distant relatives of ours own the chocolate company up there. I wanted to see P.E.I. and basically say that I'd been there, so we took a day trip up. It was gorgeous - even though it was a cloudy and windy day, I loved it. I love the ocean, and the bridge was amazing! although the toll for it was rather insane. Do the residents of P.E.I. have a pass for it? Oh, and how's the weather up there now? Has it snowed lately?

Tracey, how're you doing? Did you get the assignment done and turned in okay? (What assignment was it?)

Jo, how're you? Are you doing anything fun on hol from work? or just spending time with your husband and relaxing?

Lynne and Hannah, are you guys feeling any better? I hope so!


I started lithium this morning, so I'm a bit nervous about that. I've been told that it causes weight gain (in some people, anyway)..... and that scares me. Ick. Other than that, not much else new. Yesterday was my 19th birthday, and it was a quiet, pleasant day. I spent it with my parents only, and we went hiking in the morning (on a path that ended up to be only about a foot wide, winding down the side of a bluff [aka cliff-like tree-y "hill"] to the river below) - talk about adrenaline-pumping!! It was gorgeous though. Afterwards we went out for milkshakes, which was lovely as well.

I think my favorite present was a box of accessories for my hamster's cage. Before I got that, she didn't have anything other than a box off the side of her cage for her "bedroom." Now she has climbing tubes and two extra "rooms," one with a wire roof (her "patio," hehe) and the other with a plastic roof. And now I don't feel like an animal torturer, since she now has places to climb. (Before, she was climbing the wire walls of her cage. Poor baby!)

Oh! and my other favorite present was a membership to http://www.music-scores.com, where I now have access to loads of sheet music. I play piano (12 years) and violin (10 years) and viola (4 years), so any sheet music is welcome! I can't wait to get more Beethoven and Mendelssohn, for piano. And Saint-Saens! I now have access to all of his Carnival pieces. They're challenging though... oof. Anyway.... *stops rambling*

*snuggles*

 

[Mask]

Good evening!

Hubby is feeling quite a bit better. He thinks he will be able to work on monday...if he doesn't push himself to much...we will see!

No, the residents do not have a bridge pass. We have to pay the toll just like everyone else does. It's weird but you only have to pay the toll to get off the Island...you don't pay when you come on ...I don't get it, maybe they are hoping everyone who comes, will stay . No we haven't had any more snow but we did have frost one day! The temp is in the low 2 digits. We do have sunshine now...so that's great!

HAPPY BE-LATED 19th BIRTHDAY APRIL !!!!!!!
It sounds like you had a nice day with your parents. The hamster cage accessories sound cool! I'm sure she will love them. Playing three instruments is awesome! I wish I could play something ! It sure would help in leading worship. I don't have the patience to put so much time into learning an instrument. I'm to lazy I guess . I love guitar...but it hurts the fingertips so bad!! Hope you enjoy your new sheet music.

Have a good evening.

 

[HannahBanana]

Hey everyone. I'm still feeling really depressed, but I'm trying to keep my mind occupied, lest I start daydreaming about harming myself.

As for what's new in my life, my mom found some baby birds on the ground outside our house this morning, so we've been keeping both cats inside, and my mom put out some sunflower seeds and peanut butter for the baby birds. One of them had actually died by the time my mom noticed them this morning, and it was sad to see it lying there, all still and unmoving. Poor little thing.

I also went to the library this morning and got out a bunch of books. I've decided to read Joyce Meyer's books...is she any good? I hope so. From what I read in the reviews on Amazon.com, it sounded like she was a good author, but I just thought I'd make sure. Also, my baptism certificate, along with a sweet note from the pastor who baptized me, arrived in the mail today, so that was exciting.

Oh, and also, for those who don't know already (which would be everyone other than April, lol), I didn't end up getting the baby photography job. I was finally contacted about it a week ago, and I had my interview this past Wednesday. On Friday, I got the rejection letter via email. So there goes that dream of mine.

As for Florida, it was okay, though it was kind of sad, since my grandfather is quickly slipping more and more into senility. He's becoming so child-like, and that frightens me a bit. I hate growing older, and I hate that my loved ones grow older right along with me. It sucks, and I wish like anything that humans didn't have to get old and die.

So, I'll end this now, since I've probably bummed you all out just as much as I am. I hope you can all have a good night and that I didn't just spoil your good moods. I love you all and God bless.

 

[lmarie23]

Hannah, sorry to hear you're still struggling. if you ever need a friend, i'm here. sorry to hear you didn't get the baby photography job either. i've been really frustrated myself with not getting jobs i've wanted. i keep telling myself, there are more jobs, but i really get my hopes up. sorry to hear about your grandfather as well, i went through that with my grandpa and it was hard.

on the positive things, yes i've heard Joyce Meyers is a really good author, though i haven't read any of her books personally. and that's great that you got your baptism certificate in the mail

don't worry about "bringing us down," we're here to support each other, and reading what you have to say just makes me feel like i'm not alone, because i've been through some of the same things. i'll pray for you.

Mask, i'm glad your hubby is feeling better. worship practice sounds fun with your little grandnephew to pass around.... what part do you sing?

April, it sounds like you had a nice birthday with your parents. Happy belated birthday! The sheet music sounds great, I need to get back into playing piano and viola more.... Lately my brother's been playing my piano music, and it's neat to hear him playing the pieces I know so well. He says they're harder than anything he's ever played, so they're quite a challenge for him, but he's working really hard on them... Your trip sounds great too, it's so nice the ring is beautiful and fits and everything, and you got to spend that extra time with Jarrod...

Jo, I didn't realize you were on holiday from work. I always struggle with depression when I have too much free time, which is why i've been depressed this spring/summer since my graduation. Maybe you can empathize. Are you feeling any better? Any birdwatching?

Tracey, how are you?



I worked today from 8-2, work was ok. Pretty busy. I'm happier when I'm working so that is good. This afternoon I went out to ice cream with a friend of mine from work, so that was nice. Tonight my parents and I watched "What A Girl Wants" on tv - cute movie. Tomorrow I'm teaching Sunday school, going to church (it's graduation sunday so they'll be showing my picture on the screen), going to a recital of my former viola student (who now is a better player than me!), and going to a gospel concert in the park put on by a local church, with a free cookout. My life is pretty boring these days, mostly I just hang out with my family, but I'm doing better than I was at coping with depression. Partly it's probably because my sister is away for the weekend....

haha this is a really long post. sorry!

Lynne