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[Mask]

Good morning .

Just popped in before leaving for church this morning to say hi.

Lynne...I am the lead singer in the worship team. If I get someone else to sing the lead part, I can sing the harmony too. Ah...your life sure doesn't sound boring....you sound like you are always doing something fun! I wish I had all that fun stuff to do ! Hope the graduation goes well and they show a nice picture of you (I would hate that part...I hate getting my picture taken!).

Sorry that you and Hannah didn't get the jobs you wanted....hopefully something even better is still out there just waiting for you guys !

How are the baby birds doing Hannah? Sorry to hear about your grandfather. Seeing someone getting old is never easy. Just enjoy him, where he's at, while you can !

Well gotta go get ready to leave for church. Have a blessed day!!!

 

[Soulwings]

Hannah, I'm sorry that you're still down and stuff. :-( That's never fun, and I hope that it clears up some soon. Darkness and depression are such heavy burdens to carry around - that's why I'm so glad we have forums like this and a thread like this as well!! Support is important. Anyway, I'll get off my little podium now and quit my pep talk.

I know what you mean about growing older. I don't mind myself growing older as of yet, but it's scary about being old, as in elderly old. My grandparents are aging, and while they are still alert (for the most part), I can see the differences in how they are now and how they were a year or two ago. I think that things change much faster in a year once you're that age (80s, 90s) than any other age other than infant/toddler age. Funny, isn't it, how that kind of comes around full-circle?

How're the baby birds doing this morning? I hate seeing little things like that so helpless. :-( Jarrod and I found a baby bird about the size of my thumb, lying (dead) in the parking lot behind his apartment. So fragile and so sad. :-(

But I've heard that Joyce Meyers is good as well. I've got all of her books in a collection downstairs in my room, but I've not had the time to read it yet. I need to do that sometime, since I think that a lot of the stuff in there would be muchly helpful!!

Lynne, sounds like you'll be busy today!! I hope that everything goes well and that you enjoy the recital and the concert. I remember graduation Sunday for me (high school, that is). My name and photo were up on screen as well, and it was rather funny, because there were only about three people (other than my parents) in the congregation who knew who I was.

Mask, that's really cool about your worship team. It's so much fun to lead it but such a lot of work as well. You must be madly gifted, though, to be able to sing both melody and harmony. I never could get the hang of that!!


Today is going to be a pretty quiet day. I've got the poetry group this afternoon, but I'm dreading it, because I don't really feel like being around people that much. It scares me. :-( In the summer it's especially bad, because I'm not going to uni so I'm not used to crowds of people. Even still, though, the group is only composed of 8 people at the most. So..... I'm being rather silly about the whole thing. Argh.

Other than that, not much else new is going on. Last night was rather rubbishy, and I thought about posting but decided not to. It all boils down to the fact that I just don't feel like taking care of myself (in regards to recovery) anymore. I'm tired of it. And I'm just tired in general. Hehe.

But oh well.

Anyone want anything to drink? I think I'm going to go for a chai latte... it's a bit chilly here (okay, so I'm cold, but it's about 80'F outside...). Mmm. I do miss my coffee, though! :-(

 

[HannahBanana]

Thanks, everyone. I'm feeling a bit better today, and I'm even managing to laugh, thanks to Engrish.com. I am still bored and lonely, though, but oh, well. As for the birds, they're up in the treehouse in our yard right now. My mom brought them there so that they could stay safe. She's also been bringing them food to eat (so far she's brought them peanut butter and sunflower seeds, both of which they've loved). As for the Joyce Meyer books, I think I'm going to relax into my chair and start reading one of them (namely, Battlefield of the Mind). God bless and have a great day.

(BTW, sorry I'm not responding to you all personally like I used to. I'm just not up to that quite yet. I hope you all can understand.)

 

[Jo1]

Hi everyone how are you all
hannah glad your feeling bit better i love joyce meyer books too. i have a couple including that one. straight talk is really good, on different subjects like depression and loneliness. its good your managing to laugh too.
mask hope the singing went well, didnt know you did that.
hope your doing better Lynne. done anymore bird spotting?
hope your doing well tlb and your assignments went well.
hi soulwings hope you had a lovely birthday. and your doing well.
hope your doing well bigtoe.
Im feeling pretty depressed too,and lonely at mo church life is EMPTY part from here of course,.this is my church. i dont feel like posting either..
and had some real sad news today my nan(daves) i call her my nan as im so close to her has been diagonosed with leukemia she is 88 years old and wont be receiving treatment its really harsh and she isnt christian yet im real worried for her. i know she will be so concerned. her names molly.
see you later. love Jo

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody, sorry I haven't been around much. I didn't even switch my computer on yesterday.

I'm doing okay thanks. I didn't get my formal logic assignment done yet. Its almost finished, just two questions to go.

I hope everybody's doing better. I'm not going to reply individually because too much has been said since the last time I was on here.

April - don't give up. I hope the poetry group went well.
Everybody - stay strong.
Hannah - I had to watch my gran slowly become senile too, it was very sad but a relief when she passed away.
I'm discouraged and angry with my church at the moment. It seems to be dead/dying. Most of the members couldn't really care about what happens. It also doesn't help that I don't really like the minister. He's only standing in for a short time, we should be getting a new minister next year.

 

[LonestarEagle]

Jeremy checking in.

Looks like I will be working a lot MORE than what I expected. Yesterday work called me and told me we had two people just up and quit. This leaves me and one other dude who are qualified to handle the position. Probably for the next month or so, I wont have any days off. This isnt going to help me none. But hey, the paychecks are nice.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi Jeremy, sorry to hear you have to work so much.

April - Belated Happy Birthday!!

 

[Mask]

Howdy people!

Sounds like we got ourselves some people who could use a few BIG HUGS and some prayers!!!

Sorry to hear that most of you are feeling kinda crappy about one thing or the other. I hope you all feel better real soon!!! It is hard not to want to give up sometimes...to just say "I QUIT, I don't want to do this anymore"!!! The healing process is never easy! Anything worth working/fighting for is never easy! It just kind of reminds me of a woman during childbirth. You get so tired and sometimes the pain gets so great that you start thinking that there is no way you can possibly continue with this process! You start thinking " I can't do this...I don't want to do this...I change my mind (that's the funny one...like you have that option )". Your thoughts get clouded by the pain and you start having all these doubts, you lose your confidence, and your willpower and fight! Do you know though that it only take a second, one thought of the possibility of reaching the goal, one word of encouragement, and suddenly your strength is renewed, your thoughts become focused and you realize that you must push through the pain, you must risk it all and go for it! Oh what sweet joy comes from all of that pain! Once the goal is reached, once you hold that precious baby in your arms, the thoughts of all that pain, that had to be endured during the process, all but fades. It is no different going through mental/emotional healing. Sometimes the pain/struggle you go through seems to much to bear....but just think of the prize set before you. You can do it! This too shall pass! Hang in there you guys, don't give up...victory is ours! Hopefully this made sense and you guys don't think I'm some sort of nut job !

Joyce Meyer is a great teacher! She is so down to earth! She struggled with low self-esteem and depression too so she can relate. She's so funny too!

As far as the singing goes...I certainly am not "madly gifted" ! Singing harmony just comes naturally to me. When the old worship leader asked me if I sang harmony or melody...I didn't even know what either one meant ...how embarrassing! I guess I always knew how to sing harmony...I just didn't know that was what I was doing. Things went o.k yesterday. It is a lot of work and a very big responsibility. Sometimes I get tired of it. I do love it but sometimes there are times I just want to quit! It seems like it's been a lot of work lately. Things can get a bit dry (spiritually) or boring. I hate that! It's awesome when the worship is annointed. Whatever!

Hi LonestarEagle. Wow...that sure is a lot of days to work without a day off! I pray they will hire someone else so your load will be lightened. Hang in there...try not to get to stressed with it all. Relax and enjoy yourself any time you can manage. Like you said, the positive thing will be a nice hefty paycheck!

Anybody hear from dnihila...haven't seen her for quite a few day?

Blessings to you all!

 

[jesusfreak220]

Hey, everyone. I've been so wrapped up in my show that I haven't been around much. How's everyone? Now that I'm ALMOST on summer break, I plan to be around a lot more!

 

[lmarie23]

Jesusfreak, what's this show you've been so wrapped up in? That's nice that summer break is coming up! Do you have plans for the summer?

Mask, I'm impressed that you can just sing harmony naturally. I can sing harmony, but I sang in choirs for years (soprano, then mezzo, then alto). plus i play a few different instruments. i think it's somethign i've definitely learned, didn't come naturally to me! yes, i agree, it's so exciting when worship is "annointed"!

Jeremy, sorry you have to work so many hours. But like you said, the paycheck will be nice! hopefully it's not too stressful.

Tracey, i hope you got your logic assignment done. I'm sorry to hear about your church. My church has undergone a lot of turmoil in recent years, but we're really growing now.

Jo, I'm sorry to hear about your nan. I just said a quick prayer for her. I hope that you are feeling better now. If you ever need a friend, I'm here...

Hannah, feeling any better? I'm glad the birds are doing ok.

April, how was the poetry group? Good I hope.

I am doing pretty well. Today I had lunch with my friend who's visiting from Kentucky, then I had a counseling appointment, which went ok. It was a very open, honest session, I revealed some very personal things, so now I'm kind of afraid to talk to my counselor anymore. But I'll get over it. Tonight I had a local art league meeting and we're planning this fun summer show with the theme "Sun, Sand, and Surf." I'm planning on taking pictures during my trip to Texas next week to create artwork from for the show. We'll be on the Texas coast, so it should work out great. I'm psyched.

Also, I was looking through the paper for jobs today and I found out about a job that sounds interesting. It would be working at a group home for people with mental retardation or developmental disabilities. Challenging but rewarding, I think. I'm just so tired of my silly retail job, where we argue about how to best straighten and fold the clothes to impress the district managers, and compete over getting charge applications. It just seems so petty and insignificant. Most everyone who works there is nice, but still... I think this new job would be more fulfilling. And my friend's boyfriend used to have this exact job until he got promoted recently. I talked to him about it tonight and he said some positive things. So it sounds good.

Lynne

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Mask - I can understand what you mean about worship getting dry and it being a huge responsilbity. I'm in charge of the sound and showing the choruses and sermon points on a screen at my church and sometimes it just feels like I'm 'working' at every service, I'd just like to go to a service and not have to do anything, just sit in the pew and enjoy the service. We're doing God's work and we will be rewarded one day. You are a blessing to so many people when you lead so don't lose heart.

JesusFreak - hi, tell us about this show. What plans do you have for the summer?

Lynne - its good that you can trust your counselor enough to be really honest and open with her. I hope you show us some of your artwork, I'd love to see it.
That job sounds fantastic! Let us know if you get it.

 

[Soulwings]

So, I wrote this huge long reply to everyone's posts...... and then my computer's broadband connection went absolutely crazy. Needless to say (since it's obvious), that post was dead before it had a chance to be seen. Drat.

I'll try and repost some of my replies tomorrow. But I just wanted to pop in and say hello and let y'all know that I'm still alive.

Mask, how is your husband doing? and your family? And how are YOU? Doing anything fun lately? (And how's the weather up there? )

Lynne, I hope that job works out for you. What all does it entail? And yes, I too would love to see more of your artwork! You're very talented - in fact, I am amazed at how this thread works to show us how each person is gifted with something different. Just goes to show that God blesses everyone, and that everyone has different strengths and weaknesses. So amazing.

Tracey and Jo, how're you doing? Have any smashing plans for the rest of the week?

Hannah, I hope that you start feeling better soon. :-( If I/we can do anything to help the depression clear up, please let us know! I'm sure that we'd all be ready and willing to help.


I'm doing alright. I have my weekly appointment with my nutritionist tomorrow, and I'm a little worried... it's been one week instead of two and I feel like I've gained weight, all bloated and such. I figured out though, that it's probably water retention, since my body tends to do that (and it doesn't help that it's getting to be that time of month [TOM]). But it does retain water randomly as well - guess that's what comes with becoming hydrated after being madly dehydrated for years, sometimes purposefully, sometimes not. Ugh.

And one exciting thing (hehe) - I pierced my left ear again, in the cartilage. I did my first piercing there almost exactly a year ago, but I used a star stud, and after 6 months, the points were growing into my ear - needless to say, that hurt, and I've got scarring from that. So this time, I used a smooth stud, so I won't have to worry about that! It should take about 8 weeks to heal. The only problem with that is the fact that I'm afraid that whenever I get super angry/frustrated, I'm going to pierce my ear. And I really don't want to end up with 8 cartilage piercings in my left ear. Haha.

Okay, so that wasn't very exciting. :o

I should be getting off to bed, so take care, everyone, and have a good night (and good morning, to those of you who will read this tomorrow). *hugs* ♥

And, as another aside, before I leave, is anyone reading anything good??

 

[jesusfreak220]

This show was amazing! It's called the Stage Door and was a movie in 1938. It's set earlier that decade in a boarding house called the Footlights Club in NYC and it features a bunch of aspiring actresses trying to get a job on Broadway. I played Judith Canfield (who was played by Lucille Ball in the movie-and yes I am incredibly excited about that) but the roles in the movie are different than those in the play. Rehearsals were 3 days a week for a while then they got upped because we really needed it and we were down to crunch time. They also went from one hour to several. We're done now and although I really miss everyone so much, I'm glad to have my life back.

This summer, I'm in a musical (same director, same group-YOHP) and the rehearsals are about 3 hours 3 or 4 times a week. I'm going to do VBS for a week from 9am to noon, go to camp from July 2 to July 7, possibly go to a Casting Crowns concert in early August, maybe go to a weekend a cappella music thing at a nearby college, possibly do some college campus visiting, and hopefully actually have some time to sleep and just hang out with my friends. Oh, and work at my gram's store. lol I'm going to be quite busy but I won't have much work (I am taking one AP so I don't know how much summer work there'll be for next year) so I should be able to stay active on here when I'm in town! Oh, that reminds me, we might go camping too! ::wipes sweat off brow:: That's all. What are y'all doin' for the summer?

 

[Soulwings]

Ouch, you are madly busy, Jesusfreak! (What's your name, btw? [if you prefer to keep that private, that's fine ]) I hope you manage to stay sane with all of that going on... and your show does sound rather exciting! I'm glad that you enjoyed it.

This summer..... haven't done much, and probably won't. I've a mini- Mt. Everest of sheep wool in the garage waiting for me to take care of, so I'll have to get busy with that shortly - skirting (cutting off the manure and lanolin encrusted parts) and then instead of just storing it, I'm going to try to buy a pair of cards and work with those. They're for softening the wool and getting the tangled straw/hay/burrs out of it, and basically making it ready to be spun. And either after or before that is the washing (I think before) ... which is tricky since the water has to be hot, but not too hot, or else the fleece will felt (like the felt that you buy in craft/fabric stores). That's a bad thing.

So yes. That's my project.

Plans for this week... going to the mall tomorrow with my mum, just to window-shop and have a "girl time" ... although I am planning on stopping in at Hot Topic and seeing what I can find there. I already have loads of shirts but it's so hard to not keep getting more! I collect interesting tshirts - as long as they don't have sexual innuedos or seriously negative messages, they're fine with me. Right now I'm wearing one that says, "I hear voice and they don't like you." Kind of an inside joke as that's happened to me, thus the reason for my antipsychotic (and diagnosis, haha).

Aaaanyway, enough blabbing about me!! How is everyone else doing??

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody,

Jesusfreak - I admire you for being able to act in front of people, I could never do anything like that. You are going to be really busy this summer but it all sounds like lots of fun. We've had a couple of VBS's at my church a few years ago and they were such fun. We had two groups of Americans come out in two different years to help us run them.

April - your sheep wool project sounds like fun but lots of hard work. Its amazing to see what the wool eventually looks after its been spun. It looks so different when its on the sheep. Let us know if it turns out okay. Are you going to keep the wool after its been spun? Will you do the spinning or get someone else to?

I'm doing well, my job is still lots of fun and challenging. I'm halfway through a mini project, I'm waiting for my boss to give me the second part of it. I've got another project to keep me busy in the meantime which I'm looking forward to doing.

I hope everybody has a great day!

 

[Soulwings]

Tracey, best of luck with those projects! Hopefully they're enjoyable - what are they all about? (that is, if I/we can understand ) Oh, and I probably asked this before, but where do you work? You have a good day as well. And take care of yourself.

Um, I plan on spinning the wool myself (this is a very large-scale project, I have to admit! Haha). I don't have a spinning wheel, but there are things called "drop-spindles" which is basically a hand-held spinning device (not a wheel, though). I don't know how else to describe them, hehe .... but they are small enough to be carried around wherever you go, so you can drop-spindle while watching tv or a movie or even talking with someone. That is, once you've got the technique down. It'll take me a bit, but I've got enough wool that I can afford some mistakes!! And after it's spun, well, I'm not sure what I'll do with it. Learn to knit, perhaps, or else just sell or give the yarn away as gifts (I have several friends who knit). But we'll see how far I actually get with this. I'm betting not very far..... but you never know.

Good morning to everyone else! How are you doing this morning? have any smashing plans for the day?

 

[Mask]

Good morning gals (and guys...if any are here to read this)!

I'm doing fine today. I haven't been doing much lately at all ! I'm really trying not to spend any money unless it is for something that is a necessity. That's very boring!!! I've just been hanging around the house by myself really. I did go to town yesterday to drop my daughter off for early morning band practise and then I did most of my grocery shopping. I've been trying to cut back on grocery money too...that's a hard one! I haven't bought store packaged sweets for two weeks now! I've been baking my own. I'm a regular Betty Crocker....not really ! We also haven't eaten out in a restaurant for about three week now (well my Pastor and his wife treated me and hubby to pizza on sunday night...(don't tell my kids)...but they paid ). I'm just tired of being in bondage to debt so I'm trying to behave and cuts costs in small places, to help boost things along. I just keep telling myself that $5.00 and $10.00 add up and will make a difference in the long run....."LONG" is probably the key word here ! Oh well enough of that!

Well hubby is feeling much better and is back to work this week! Thanks for the prayers. He is not 100% healed yet but it's not to bad now. I am excited because he's gotten everything planned and booked for us to go camping for a week, at the end of July!! I love the Park we go camping in! The beach is absolutely beautiful!! It is just like therapy to me...sitting in the sunshine, feeling the warm sand under my toes, listened to the sound of the waves, and seeing all the beauty God created... ...I can't wait!! I feel very at peace there plus I don't feel the need to be "doing" all the time, while I'm there. I still like to keep things tidy so they don't get out of control but it just a quick tidy up and do the dishes and then go play! My hubby usually works while we are there though but he comes home in the afternoon. He can work on an oyster buyers fishing lease, just 5 minutes from the camp ground. It works out great for us, because we can have the best of both worlds...relaxing times and still have an income coming in to pay for it all!

Well enough about ME!! How are you all doing today? I hope everyone's feeling a bit more up today!

Spinning wool...you're a real country gal April aren't ya!! It just makes me laugh to hear you talk about doing farm stuff! It just totally goes against the mental imagine I have of you....especially because of your CF picture! Cool!

 

[lmarie23]

Hi everyone.

Jesusfreak, that show sounds like so much fun! and it's nice that you're doing another one for the summer... I used to be in musicals, i really enjoyed it. i was thinking of being in one this spring but i decided not to, in case i got a job.

April, how did your appointment with your nutritionist go? Good I hope. That wool sounds like quite a task! Yeah, I don't really picture you as a country girl either...

Tracey, I'm glad you like your job and are doing well...

Mask, camping sounds like fun! I hope you have a lovely time! I've never really been camping, like I have in a cabin but not in a tent.

I applied for the job working with mentally-handicapped and developmentally disabled adults at a group home. It was a pretty complicated application so I'm glad I have it done. Last night I had my Bible study, we're studying Revelation, and it's so fascinating. Last night we were talking about whether people would still follow Christ if everyone went to the same place in the afterlife and it didn't matter on the eternal scheme of things. And whether following Christ gives you a better life (we decided not an easier life, but a better life). And whether it is good to tell people, God has a great plan for your life. What if the person was going to die tomorrow? Would you still say that? We decided that although God has a great plan overall, we can't confine him to just the limits of our lives. Our lives fit into his great plan, but when we say "great plan for our lives" we so often focus on material things which isn't what God is concerned about. Really interesting discussion.

I love Bible study but I also hate coming home aftewards, because when I have a nice time somewhere I struggle with depression when I get home. Do any of you have that? So last night I was so depressed... oh well. Nights are just really hard for me.

Next week my family is vacationing in Texas. It should be a nice trip but maybe too much family time. My sister really gets on my nerves, so hopefully we get along ok....

Lynne

 

[BigToe]

*snuggles* for everyone.

 

[lmarie23]

*snuggles* for everyone.

snuggles for you too, BigToe