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[Mask]

Good morning !!

dnihila...I like the big heart ! You are welcome...even though I'm not sure who you are thanking or what exactly you are thanking them for . Are you going to tell me how many brothers and sisters you have?? You are up early for a saturday...or maybe it isn't early...maybe it's just the difference in time. My hubby's truck woke me up at 8:30, when he left to go to work, so I just decided to get up. The sun is trying to break through the clouds here. What kind of weather are you having in Saudi Arabia?

Well, don't bother to ever rent the Sandlot #3 movie...it was very boring !! That bugs me that I spent $5.00 on a movie that I didn't enjoy watching !

Hello BigToe! How on earth did you come up with that name...BigToe...ha..ha?? How are you doing today? I'm fine. I wish my hubby didn't have to work all day today though...sigh! Do you have any plans for today?

Have a good day ladies!

 

[NoQuestion]

Ugh. I thought about killing myself. Not exactly how I would do it, but just that it would be nice. I am so sick of myself, and the things I have done. And how I think I've ruined myself. I don't think I would kill myself, but just thinking about it was scary. Would I do it, now that it has actually entered my mind? I mean, is it possible? I don't know, I wanted to take my mirror and crash it over my head. But I know I can't quit, because Jesus didn't. It's just so hard, and life is so long. I don't know if I can make it to the end.

 

[dnihila]

Hi mask, I am thanking everyone in here and I am happy that you have warm hearts and you welcomed me as a new friend.
And about the wheather in saudi arabia it is the beginning of summer which means heat and humidity.
I am a Teacher
I love designing fashion
I have 4 brothers and 2 sisters
I love truth and try my best not to lie at all.
I love loyal people and I love the honest ones.
I like to see people loving each other and I hate seeing someone in pain.
I love Justice and I hate Injustice.
I like making friends and helping people as much as I can.
I am so senstive that I can feel that there are some doctors passing by those forums to help. lol
I don't mind doctors' helping but not the undercover doctors. Because I know their way of helping.
What about you all , I like to know about your concerns and I prefer that we all get out of pain and start talking or doing something together. cause just getting in a forum that is called depression will make you utomatically feel depressed.
I hope that everyone will get over the pain that we are having.
And thank you Imarie23 for your kindness.
TLB thank you for starting this thread.

 

[dnihila]

Ugh. I thought about killing myself. Not exactly how I would do it, but just that it would be nice. I am so sick of myself, and the things I have done. And how I think I've ruined myself. I don't think I would kill myself, but just thinking about it was scary. Would I do it, now that it has actually entered my mind? I mean, is it possible? I don't know, I wanted to take my mirror and crash it over my head. But I know I can't quit, because Jesus didn't. It's just so hard, and life is so long. I don't know if I can make it to the end.

The devil tried it with prophet Jesus (PBUH) and he didn't succeed cause Jesus knew how to deal with him when he asked Jesus to jump from the high mountain but Jesus refused.
So, the devil is trying his best with everyone. Don't listen to his whispers. And whenever you have those kinds of thoughts just say May God protect me from the devil's whispers.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Mask - that's really sad that you had to grow up in foster care. I'm sorry that you aren't as close to your brothers and sisters as you could be.

I'm studying to be a software developer. I do cuurently have a job as a web developer although I've only had the job for over 2 months and I'm still learning the programming language. My boss writes software applications using the language that websites are written in. I just study in the evenings and over weekends.

Welcome back BigToe, pop in anytime you want.

Its a pleasure, dnihila.

NoQuestion, suicide is not the answer. You're still so young, your whole life is in front of you. Forgive yourself for the things that you did that you aren't happy about. Every day is a new opportunity, ask God to help you through each day.

 

[Mask]

Good afternoon all!

I am totally exhausted!! I've spend the last 4 hours helping my husband (kids did some too) moving a BIG pile of firewood and cleaning a bunch of garbage out of the back of our property .....I could snooze now . I hate the thought of having to cook supper now . Oh well it was a good job to get done!

NoQuestion...why do you think you have ruined yourself...if that is to personal...don't answer? If we repent of our sins, God forgives us of our sins and remembers them no more!!! You need to forgive yourself ! We have all made mistakes that we aren't proud of (well I know at least that I did, for sure) but we cannot live in the past, holding our sins against ourselves. If God forgives then we must also. I do know how you feel, sometimes I get disgusted with myself too. We need to see ourself as God see us. He loves us so. Please don't listen to the lies of the devil, like dnihila said. Jesus said that the devil came to kill, steal and destroy! He wants you to kill yourself so you cannot complete the purpose that God has for you in this life. You are uniquely special...one of a kind...no one can take your place. Be strong and pray for God to strengthen you mind. Is there anyone you could talk to about how you are feeling? I will be praying for you! Sending you big hugs .

dnihila ...thank you for sharing about yourself . A teacher...how interesting! What grade do you teach? Do you design fashion to sell or just for you own personal use? You sound like a very loyal, strong and caring person! I hope we all get over the pain we are having too! That things get revealed to us, that will help us to feel better and think better. I must admit that lately (a couple of months now), I am feeling quite good!! I haven't felt depressed since that time...so that is great for me! I hope things stay that way too!

TLB...thanks for caring! You must be very smart to work in software development! That would be way over my head!
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Have a wonderful evening!

 

[Jo1]

Hi everyone how are you all? havent posted here for a bit. ive just posted here
http://www.christianforums.com/t5420085-is-it-a-birda-fishor-a-mammal.html
its all about an article by a creationist Bruce Malone from a book called "Search for the Truth". Its about the amazing abilites of the Loon duck.
Im doing great!lots of love to you all. speak to you later love Jo hugs all round.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Mask - I don't think you have to be any more intelligent then the average person to study software development. You just have to be willing to work hard. Looking at my marks, I'm definitely not that intelligent.

Jo - its so good to hear from you again and so great to hear that you are doing really well. I'll definitely look at that thread.

 

[BigToe]

I named myself BigToe because my big toe itched when it came time to pick a name.

As far as will you go through with suicide after having thought about it, I don't think it means you will but I don't think it means you don't have to worry or get help. For some fantasy is only fantasy and stops at that. For others it is merely a beginning. Since you're worried about it, it can't hurt to find someone to talk to about it NoQuestion.

*snuggles* for everyone.

 

[chauchat]

NO QUESTION, This is my first post--I just found this site.
So sorry to hear about your weariness It sounds like you are just tired of fighting depression.
I recently felt somewhat like that in the middle of a long, mysterious illness. As I get better, I can't imagine what I had been thinking before...
Wish I could sit with you until you felt better!

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi BigToe. *snuggles* back.

Hi Chauchat - welcome, its always good to see new people on this forum. We'd love to hear from you anytime.

 

[dnihila]

This is a practice for all to look at the following pictures then to describe feelings and wishes after looking at each picture:

From Dnihila With LOVE

 

[BigToe]

ok, I wish I were in that little boat in the one picture. I'd love to go canoing there, it's so pretty.

 

[dnihila]

In the first picture I feel that I am looking for someone cause there is a road of rocks
The second one is taken from my Country Saudi Arabia in the Northern Region and I feel like there is a leader for those deers
The third one whenever I look at it my heart beats so hard cause it is so beautiful and it shows how Great is The Creator and how tiny we are in comparison with His Creations
The fourth picture It gives me hope that there will be a better future with the waterfall and the place which is behind that the waterfall doesn't reach it, how dark it is. It is like the answer from the Almighty when you pray to Him.
The fifth picture is like death, when everything is frozen and stands still. But the white cover shows peace and quietness.

Do you see it the way I see it?
and Big Toe your reaction is exactly like mine I loved that picture so much and look at the details.So, lovely.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

In the first picture I feel like I'm on a journey. I want to follow the path and see where it goes.
In the second picture I can imagine what Moses and the Israelites' lives were like, wandering through the desert (I don't know if it is a desert but it does look very dry on those hills).
In the third picture I am reminded of how awesome God is and how beautiful His creation is.
In the fourth picture I feel peaceful and tranquil.
The fifth picture is so beautiful.

 

[Mask]

Hello everyone ! Hope you all had a nice weekend.

BigToe... you are so funny!

Hi Jo1...good to see you again...I've been wondering where you were.

I don't know TLB...I still think you have to have a brain for it !

Welcome to the group chauchat.
dnihila...I just love all of those picture !! Thanks for sharing them.

#1--It makes me want to run through that lush green grass and feel it under my feet!
#2--It makes me feel sorry for those animals...they must be so hot and thirsty!
#3--WOW!! It makes me stand in awe at how wonderful our Creator is! How much He must love us...to create such beauty for our enjoyment!
#4--It makes me feel refreshed! I want to swim under that waterfall! Water is life giving!
#5--It is so beautiful and peaceful....still! It looks like glass. Makes me wonder what the Crystal Sea in heaven will look like?

I am so stiff and sore today from all that yard work yesterday...I can hardly bend down ! I am so out of shape...it's disguesting!! I need a kick in the pants!

I'm just hanging around home today...not doing anything much other than laundry and tidying up. What are you guys doing today?

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi everybody, I hope you are all doing well.

This thread is quiet without April and Hannah. Hannah has been scarce lately, I hope she didn't get banned again.

I'm just busy with work. Nothing much to say.

 

[BigToe]

*snuggles* sorry I've not posted much. I went out of town with family and they drove me crazy. So I'm taking some time to myself to think things up.

 

[Mask]

Hi TLB and BigToe and anybody else who might pop in later .

Sorry to hear that your family trip didn't go so well BigToe! Hope you get all your thoughts sorted out !

It sure is quiet without April and Hannah! I forget, when is April supposed to get back from her trip?

Well I am happy to say the building is finally moved in the back yard !!!! It just got finished this morning. We got a guy to come with a big dozer and plow down our back yard, push everything back and level the ground off. It was terrible before...full of big holes. The people who owned the house before us, moved the house here. They just basically dug a foundation for the house, cut down the bare necessity of trees and pushed some dirt aside ! It just left us with a very uneven lawn. Anyway now we will have to rake it over a bit and plant some new grass seed. We might end up doing the front yard (leveling it off some more and planting nicer grass) at a later time.

Hope everyone is feeling good today!

Well I have to go now...my supper is almost done cooking...have to get it on the table.

Bye for now!

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hi

Big Toe - I'm also sorry to hear your trip didn't go well.

Mask - I'm so glad that your building is moved in and at least you could sort out your yard too. I think April should be back at the end of the week sometime. From what I can remember she was only going to be able to see Jarrod for one or two days. She's probably with him now as we speak then.

I need to get off and go to bed. Its really late and I need to get up for work tomorrow.