Come on in, the coffee's hot

[Silver-winged Flyer]

I hope it goes okay.

 

[complexity]

Nothing went wrong yet... I cleaned my room and computer desk like he told me and when I first came home he said we would discuss it later but its been hours....

I love my dad but we have never had the best relationship, and he stresses me out, I can honestly say he is one reason I started my medicine

 

[spoiltbrat2003]

So today has been one of the worst days ever. It started out even before I left for school with my dad and I arguing, well more like him yelling at me and me just leaving and saying see you tomorrow! He must of thought I was joking because I never came home and he called me and started like hardcore yelling at me (by the way I just went to my mom's and she is out of town)...I can't take it, I don't want to go home to see him but I know if I don't he WILL come to me and I will be in so much trouble

well maybe you should have rung him and told him where you were instead of letting him worry like that

 

[Soulwings]

/me tiptoes in and settles in a beanbag in the corner with a spiced chai latte and Dante's Inferno.

 

[spoiltbrat2003]

Hey soulwings,
I am so bored, i hate sundays!

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hey, how's everybody doing today?
I need to do some more programming and hope it makes sense.
This week won't be too easy for me, I'm leaving two jobs, one on Wednesday and one on Saturday and starting a new one the following Monday.
Plus I have a extra maths lesson and I'm doing stock take on Saturday means working all day!
I hope everybody's looking forward to a really great week.

 

[Soulwings]

Eh. Weeks are okay as they keep me busy ..... but I hate them too, because they keep me so busy. I've three hours of tutoring today (I'm a tutor on campus), and one class, and then a counseling appointment in the afternoon. And I don't *feel* like doing any of that, although I'm going to have to. Ugh.

And then I'm anticipating a mood crash tonight. Again. Just like every other night. Nothing helps.

Gahhhh......

/me hides in a dark corner so she won't talk anymore.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Had one myself yesterday with lot help from my Step Dad.

When emotions are in control, hard to swim against massive waves it throws at me. Slept it off, and reclaimed my sanity. So easy to just want to give up and wished to be rescued, but I'm too old to know that's not how it works.

Took one of those EHarmony profiles, it was pretty good. Confirmed what I thought all along, I am different from everyone else. Why I feel so out of place in most if not all things I do. *chuckle* What I been thinking was a weakness all this time is accually a rare strength.

Sometimes the answers are right in front of me, but I never really grab it. What's the saying, best place to hide a key is the most obvious one?

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

How's everybody doing today?

I'm tired, nothing new. I really should try to go to bed earlier. Concerned about a friend and hoping to hear from him before I go to bed.

 

[Soulwings]

WorkinProgress, I agree with you when you say that when emotions are in control, it's hard to swim against the waves created. Whew. Except it's not necessarily emotions for me... it's the whole recovery process. SI, ED, getting manic swings under control (was just "officially" diagnosed bipolar) .... it never ends.

TLB. Bed sounds like a good idea right now... I am so exhausted!!

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Having fun with my sister in Christ. Here are two good Proverbs!

Proverb 18:14 "The human spirit can endure a sick body, but who can bear a crushed spirit?"

Proverbs 19:8 "To acquire wisdom is to love oneself; people who cherish understanding will prosper."

Thanks to god, in a chipper mood. Finally gave me answer on loneliness problem.

Anycase enjoy!

 

[everlast]

nice proverbs AWorkInProgress they lifted me abit, anyhow how is everyone doing today, im feeling good today becuz I turned in one of my art projects and everyone loved it, made me feel good cuz usually i never like the end result, hope it keeps me in a positive mood for awhile.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Hey everlast, congrats on the art project.

How's everyone doing?

Only got two days left of my one job - just under 6 hours because I only work three hours a dsy.
Found out yesterday I don't have to work on Saturday, we were supposed to have stocktake at my other job so my last day there will be Friday.
Got a maths lesson on Thursday night and an hour and a half lesson on Saturday morning.
Feeling very overwhelmed about my new job, a bit scared that I'll look like an idiot and not know anything even though I've been given some work to do and tutorials.
Hope everybody is doing well today.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Nobody else been in lately?

The depression forum is definitely not as popular as it used to be.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Nobody else been in lately?

The depression forum is definitely not as popular as it used to be.

Noticed that developing software. What language do you use mainly? What envirment you like working in OS type and such?

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

I'm starting my first software/web development job on Monday where I'll be using DreamWeaver/ColdFusion.

I am currently studying towards a degree and have studied C++, Delphi and VB. Only used Windows, I like XP.

 

[AWorkInProgress]

I'm starting my first software/web development job on Monday where I'll be using DreamWeaver/ColdFusion.

I am currently studying towards a degree and have studied C++, Delphi and VB. Only used Windows, I like XP.

Just out of curiousity, tried Linux at all? Tempted set up another box to try it.

Always wanted to learn C++, got few self starter books but never keep my mind focus on it. Like I need to be challenged. What was learning in school like?

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

No, never had any experience in it.

I'm battling with C++, its not a very difficult language to learn but I had a difficult text book and its hard trying to memorize everything for the exams.

 

[Soulwings]

Oof this did get quiet....

Just popping in to see how everyone is doing tonight. Anyone want some hot chocolate or coffee or chai or anything??

I'm doing okay. Exhausted, I haven't been sleeping very well at all lately .... and if I don't sleep I can't function unless I have a mad lot of caffeine, and lots of caffeine makes me feel sick, which makes me sleep less.... the cycle is vicious.

But I will sleep tonight, I will, I will. *crosses fingers*
And then I will finish my coursework tomorrow.

Off to do some yoga right now to get in exercise for the day. If I can make myself stay awake that long, though.

Hope you all have a pleasant evening!!

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Oof this did get quiet....

Just popping in to see how everyone is doing tonight. Anyone want some hot chocolate or coffee or chai or anything??

I'm doing okay. Exhausted, I haven't been sleeping very well at all lately .... and if I don't sleep I can't function unless I have a mad lot of caffeine, and lots of caffeine makes me feel sick, which makes me sleep less.... the cycle is vicious.

But I will sleep tonight, I will, I will. *crosses fingers*
And then I will finish my coursework tomorrow.

Off to do some yoga right now to get in exercise for the day. If I can make myself stay awake that long, though.

Hope you all have a pleasant evening!!

I will pray that you can break that cycle Soul.

I'm probably going to part ways with this forum, just no longer haunted by depression. All I have is fist full of lessons god taught me and strong spirit to do what is right.

Know thy enemy.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mark%205:1-20;&version=51;

We all have free will, it's our gift. Be honous with ourselves when faced with our demons. What could I have done to better myself or could I learn from these mistakes. God helps us if only we listen to him and ask him for help. Not to do all the work, but lend a hand and show the way to some extent. He's a father, not the slave.

Just feel like I needed to say it one more time. Not leaving just getting out more.

God bless you all!