I'm at a really big rough patch with my faith right now. I keep having OCD blasphemous thoughts, my faith keeps decreasing then in feasting then decreasing MY FAITH IS LIKE A CRAZY ROLLERCOASTER! and I keep fearing blasphemy and I also fear The Holy Spirit has left me and that my heart is hardening against Hod and Jesus because I'm having a hard time believing how Lord Jesus is my Saviour. Is this a trial from God? What makes me really worried is that I'm not that concerned but still seeking more faith just not concerned. I think I'm not concerned because Jesus said He would NEVER cast away anyone. I'm not taking advantage if that verse by sinning willfully but it has kept me calm but staying calm scares me because it feels like I don't care but I do. Have you been through a rough patch like this before?