Can a backslider return to God?

[Romansthruphilemon]

 

[Romansthruphilemon]

 

[Romansthruphilemon]

I'm still really struggling with this area. It's very much affecting my walk with the Lord. Especially when I pray or read anything biblically based. The fear of being lost and being damned is something I really struggle with. It's just so hard for me to get past those verses in Hebrews looking like they are saying that if a person is a Christian and ever backslides that they can't come back to God. The problem is it just seems to plainly say that. And it almost seems like people have to somewhat pull out other interpretations for it not to say that. And of course my biggest fear is that it does say that a person can't come back if they ever backslide from God.

I really want to rectify this so I can have assurance of Salvation in my heart so I don't have to live with the fear inside of me that I may go to hell when I die. It feels like the struggle is a stone just grinding me down into dust. And I'm doing all that I can to fight it off and believe in faith that I am saved and try to stay right with God.

The fact that there are so many different interpretations of these passages in Hebrews makes it that much more confusing for me to be honest. With that said, how can anyone ever truly know that they're believing the right interpretation? There are Bible scholars on all sides that take all the different interpretation viewpoints. They can't all be right. And on such a subject so massive as the state of someone's soul one has to know that they're believing the correct view point.

At the end of the second paragraph you basically said that you are doing all that you can do to try to stay right with God.

Salvation is not of yourself, not of works. You seem to think it is up to you to keep it. That is probably why you don’t have assurance.