Have you lost the Holy Spirit? Do you have some experience that is outside what God's Word says? Peter wrote about that, "Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
So, you're in God's family, His child, until one day He decides that you're not His child any more? You and Dorothy Mae must be very scared that God will throw you out for being bad. Is your faith really that weak?? Here is what the Bible says about it, "Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.” So, do you believe Jesus, the Son of God, or do you not??