I think, on this, you've lost me. I understand what you're saying, but I quite strongly disagree with the idea of someone reaching such a "place of human personal development". I wouldn't call that spiritual, but soulish. I'd view it as an example of prelest and a spiritual woundedness that itself needs mending. That I should think myself having ascended to a higher spiritual perspective, I have in fact regressed away from grace.
The term "prelest" (which I am very familiar with) comes from a church that has a psychospiritual tradition that potentially places a very high value on silence, contemplation, and even the eremitic life. I know, because years ago I was an Orthodox catechumen. So I am not unfamiliar with Orthodox spirituality and asceticism.
One of the ancient desert fathers, Sisoes the Great reportedly on his death bed was seen by the brothers at the monastery speaking to invisible persons, when they asked him who he was speaking to, he responded that he was asking the angels who had come to take him to give him more time so he could continue to repent. The brothers told him that he had lived a virtuous life and he had nothing left to repent of, to which Sisoes is reported to have said, "Truly, I do not know if I have even begun to repent.".
I think Sisoes' words are filled with profound truth worthy of contemplation. The Christian life cannot be a life lived beyond the cross, but inhabits this place at the cross. It kneels before the cross, at the foot of the cross, and one can only confess to being a beggar in need to receive what is found only here at the cross.
Orthodox Christians do not understand the Cross as a blood sacrifice to assuage God's wrath, as some Lutherans do. God is impassible, and freely gives his mercy to those who seek it.
Being as I do not believe in Original Sin through an historical Adam, I understand sin potentially differently. And I understand metanoia in the true sense, the renewing ones mind. It is not a juridical concept involving penance. It's a recollection of humanity's divine vocation or theosis in
this world. The Reign of God is about
this world.
One of the things I have frequently been critical of with much of contemporary Christian religion, especially here in the United States, is that it frequently acts and behaves as a "beyond the cross" religion. The cross is seen as where the Christian life begins, but one eventually progresses beyond it.
I don't necessarily think we live beyond the Cross. I just understand the Cross in a manner different from historical Protestants.
I believe the spiritual life involves pressure and change, just as in all evolution. Jesus death and resurrection was a metamorphisis or the ultimate spiritualization of matter, that Jesus of Nazareth is emblematic of the New Creation which will culminate in the Parousia, when God will be "all in all".
What I observe is much of the "conservative Evangelical" world is "a form of religion, but denying the power thereof" as Paul called it. Because of rampant preaching of theologies of glory, because there is an absence of the cross, because, I think, there has been a failure to preach repentance.
I'm not speaking of a theology of glory. It's a theology of deep sympathy for the creation, akin to what the Japanese call
mono no aware (the feeling of things). Of course the creation groans and travails. However, it also contains a sublime majesty, as St. Francis noted, often hidden under the lowliest things:
O sublime humility! O humble sublimity that the Lord of the Universe, God and Son of God, should so humbly hide himself for our salvation under ordinary bread! Look, then, upon the humility of God! And pour out your hearts before him. Humble yourselves that he might exalt you.
St. Francis saw that sublime humility not just in the Eucharist, but in everything that God created. And I believe this grace is not just for a select few, or even just Christians, but is there for anyone who has eyes to see. This really hit home to me several months ago listening to a Zen roshi praising St. Francis'
Canticle of the Creatures.
Because "repentance" has been perverted and distorted to become "what that other person needs to do", rather than how I ought to live. It is, in essence, what Pastor Bonhoeffer warned of when he spoke of cheap grace. Moralism has replaced repentance. Moralism has replaced the preaching of Law, and moralism has replaced the preaching of the Gospel.
In the United Church of Christ, I don't encounter moralism, quite the contrary. I encounter people seeking to find depth and sincerity in their lives. Not a faith that people hid away on the back pews out of a false humility, as I see many Lutherans do at my church. Over the past few months as I've gotten to know the pastor, I found somebody who had lived the Christian life beyond the horizons of creed or dogma, and had developed a sensitivity towards the creation, in her own small way. She had an open-hearted curiosity about the world and though she was several decades older than me, she exuded vitality. When you find somebody like that, you are touching reality in a world that is increasingly unreal, where hearts are hardened and ideologies rigidly held: that in itself is a miracle.
The solution, however, isn't found in the cultural opposites of modern conservative Evangelicalism. The answer to the spiritual poverty of the Religious Right isn't found in, for lack of a better terminology, religious progressivism.
I don't want to go to a church that idolizes politics (especially right now because politics is so toxic), but I do think Christianity has to change in American culture or it will die. In that sense, religious progressivism is vital.
So, as I currently see things, I can look to the so-called conservative churches and the so-called liberal churches and I don't know that there's a big difference--speaking in broad strokes rather than looking at specific cases. Because I think in both cases there is a treatment of the cross as behind, an idea of maturing beyond the cross. And it's not just on the subject of repentance, it's in the ways that the cross is lost sight of. Without beholding the cross right in front of us, we are ultimately turning toward our own ambition, our own power, our own structures of spirituality--and that's just spiritual suicide.
Lutherans are quick to emphasize justification, but some (the anti-Pietists) absolutize this doctrine out of a despair towards praxis due to psychospiritual brokenness rooted in Lutheranism's past, with Luther himself (and look, you just can't use Bonhoeffer here because while he was Lutheran, his religion was far more radical, active, and almost Anabaptist in its ethos). St. Paul warns about a spirituality where we look in the mirror and promptly forget ourselves. The Christian life wasn't meant to be so compartmentalized. As one Episcopalian Eucharist prayer says "Deliver us from the presumption of coming to this Table for solace only, and not for strength; for pardon only, and not for renewal."
If this is spiritual suicide, you need to explain why I see Christians who live without their "fire insurance", and whose lives are obviously not spiritual wrecks. Perhaps its not all about "me and my eternal security"? Perhaps this sort of thing is more akin to Hell than to Heaven. A Hell of spiritual slumber, a perpetual Limbo where people sleep in a shadowy world of eternal rest, free from actual sin but nontheless lacking any supernatural virtue to enter Paradise or even Purgatory. St. Paul does
not preach that sort of Gospel. The Gospel for St. Paul an initiation into awakening in the light of Christ. Christianity is properly a religion of moving towards enlightenment and gnosis, not despondency or
akedia (which is all too real, it's tragic so many Lutherans at my church have children that need antidepressants, and don't realize the spiritual and social dimension to that condition.).
Because the reality of ourselves is that we are incurvatus in se, human beings turned inward onto ourselves.
That's only one stage of human development. At higher levels of human development, peoples sense of self expands to include their community, then an expansive consciousness that few human beings, and no societies, have actualized. Various cultures, however, have developed psychospiritual technologies that allow people to get out of this
curvatio in se, as you put it, and I'm certainly not denying the validity of Lutheranism in this regard. I'm merely saying that Luther's 16th century insights are not good enough for a world where ecological holocaust and gross material inequality are all too real.