Sometimes, when i walk around in college, i see a lot of guys who are larger than me. and then, i think 'damn! why can't i have their body shape'.
I look back on me and see how thin i am. a lot of people think that they themselves are overweight but for me, they look just right. They are not fat, just big (know what i mean?).
i am a guy. and i am supposed to be big. I don't expect to have a muscular body like Arnold or something but sometimes i wonder 'why can't God give me a larger body so that i appear more masculine?' i don't wanna appear like a twig or a mouse in public.
Don't get me wrong. i did all sorts of things. I drank high protein milk, live a very inactive lifestyle, eat two bowls of rice twice a day. and yet, i don't get any larger. I don't wanna be fat , i just wanna be large. you know, large enough to appear more masculine. Girls like that.
sometimes, when i look at a large guy in college, i fantasize i would point at him and say to my Father in Heaven 'I want that type of body' and poof! i am larger. THe cruel reality is , it does not work that way.
i get ashamed of my body. i wear two layers of clothes just to look bigger. I am ashamed......ashamed.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
I look back on me and see how thin i am. a lot of people think that they themselves are overweight but for me, they look just right. They are not fat, just big (know what i mean?).
i am a guy. and i am supposed to be big. I don't expect to have a muscular body like Arnold or something but sometimes i wonder 'why can't God give me a larger body so that i appear more masculine?' i don't wanna appear like a twig or a mouse in public.
Don't get me wrong. i did all sorts of things. I drank high protein milk, live a very inactive lifestyle, eat two bowls of rice twice a day. and yet, i don't get any larger. I don't wanna be fat , i just wanna be large. you know, large enough to appear more masculine. Girls like that.
sometimes, when i look at a large guy in college, i fantasize i would point at him and say to my Father in Heaven 'I want that type of body' and poof! i am larger. THe cruel reality is , it does not work that way.
i get ashamed of my body. i wear two layers of clothes just to look bigger. I am ashamed......ashamed.
Thanks for listening to my rant.