whereloveandmercymeet
There but for the grace of God...
- Nov 12, 2018
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So you just get all of the good parts of mania like extra energy and stuff? I could handle that. What I don't get about mania is you have to sleep regularly to prevent it yet once it happens you can't sleep for like weeks at a time which only makes your mania worse and worse. It doesn't make any sense. During my last manic episode I could barely sleep for almost 3 months. It was my longest episode ever. Needless to say I got to enjoy most of Spring this year.
I get the impulsiveness and the energy and skewed decision making. It’s the lack of sleep and consequences of the impulses that are the only bad bits. Apparently I get quite judgey as well but I only get agitated if I’m prevented doing what I’m doing. And I only get verbally snappy. It’s also a fantastic diet because I never get hungry. But blimey is the fall out from weeks of minutes sleep hard. I felt like superwoman at the time. I was balancing so much at once and managing to work all day and night and parent all at the same time and I liked it. But afterwards when I’m ill and exhausted and have really messed myself around and messed up my budget and everything all the not fun becomes obvious. My worst was 7 weeks and I was up for 3 days at a time. Then 2-3 hours sleep, then another 3 days. That was 2 months after my dad died and I was so busy sorting family out and everything I let go of routine and sleep. Big mistake.
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