Anyone else feel this way?

[Laura]

I just had a pretty long period when I wasn't depressed at all. I knew that period wasn't going to last, and it didn't. I sometimes think I would rather have not felt better at all, because when the sadness comes back it's so much worse. If it had been there all along, it wouldn't be as bad...because those good times wouldn't have been taken away from me.



Does anyone else feel like this or am I just really weird?

 

[Stanfi]

Hi Laura,

I am and depression and anxiety sufferer, and yes it can be a roller coaster ride. However, with some discipline, life can be a little nicer. First, if you take medication, keep taking that. Do not miss a day. Excerise, excerise and execise. If not else go outside and run up and down the road, even if you don't feel like it. Get plenty of rest, 8 or 9 hours a night.

Put God first, serve God with all your heart, read pray read, and learn about him. Something that has helped me is learning (as I am in the process ) to trust God with our lives. All of the things that we worry about, if we will trut Him, and let Him take care of it, the we won't get so worked up about it!

You just have to learn what helps you and what hurts you and adjust your life accordingly, you just gotta get the humps out of the roller coaster.

 

[Laura]

Thanks for your reply. I'm not in treatment or on medication or anything, so that doesn't apply to me. As far as sleep goes, I try to get as much as I can...but it's really hard. It's hard to get to sleep, and lately I've been waking up really early again and not being able to get back to sleep. I always hated that. It's the worst being the only one awake and having nothing to do but think and worry.

Anyway, thanks again. I appreciate the reply and your advice.

 

[Stanfi]

Maybe you should try some medication, that will help your sleep. It did me anyway.

Thanks for your reply. I'm not in treatment or on medication or anything, so that doesn't apply to me. As far as sleep goes, I try to get as much as I can...but it's really hard. It's hard to get to sleep, and lately I've been waking up really early again and not being able to get back to sleep. I always hated that. It's the worst being the only one awake and having nothing to do but think and worry.

Anyway, thanks again. I appreciate the reply and your advice.

 

[Laura]

I'm not really up for treatment or whatever would be necessary for that. I do take sleeping pills sometimes, and they help a little.

 

[Deamiter]

Do you sleep during the day? If you do, try keeping yourself awake until night -- take whatever caffeine you need at first, but after a week, you should NEVER nap during the day. In addition, you need a spread of no more than 2 hours (like 8-10) that you actually go to bed. You really can train your body to go to sleep at night -- it just takes some work.

 

[allieisme]

I have this problem as well.. I just went through 4 days with out taking my anti depressant medicine, and I completely lost it.. I was crying over the smaillest things, and I'm still struggling today..
So my advice, if your depressed or anything go seek a dr.. God did create Dr.s on this Earth to help people..Take that into consideration,

 

[allieisme]

**bump**

 

[The-Sacricolist]

I feel like that alot, I almost hate feeling good because I know when I crash, I'm gonna crash hard.

Sam

 

[maxer]

I just had a pretty long period when I wasn't depressed at all. I knew that period wasn't going to last, and it didn't. I sometimes think I would rather have not felt better at all, because when the sadness comes back it's so much worse. If it had been there all along, it wouldn't be as bad...because those good times wouldn't have been taken away from me.



Does anyone else feel like this or am I just really weird?

Yeah definitely felt similar before. but don't let the devil rob you of the good times while they're there! Hold onto the fact that the good times can get longer and sad times shorter because you've got out of the bad times before - you have proof - its happened before, excellent, it can and will happen again again for you.
In a way it could be seen as a positive thing because you've probably learnt methods of getting out of the sad times last time so this sad time will be shorter. Thinking of you.

 

[runner650]

hey hun...
I know the feeling. For the longest time I couldnt sleep or when I did, I would wake up sooo many times in the night. I know you dont like the idea of doctors but you dont have to explain why you cant sleep. Just tell them you are having trouble sleeping at night and they should be able to help. Thats what I had to do and the sleep is wonderful now. I hope you are able to go to God and ask for his help. He will be able to lead you to the correct doctor is you allow Him to help. I will be praying for you!

 

[HoosierCanuck]

I feel like that alot, I almost hate feeling good because I know when I crash, I'm gonna crash hard.

Sam

Amen!!! With relation to my relationship with God (did that make sense?) I feel as though I have crashed....no desire to go to church, read, pray, anything! Other areas of my life are okay and tolerable but not necessarily HAPPY. My spiritual life is a wreck but I'm currently in 'I don't care' mode. Unfortunately, experience has told me that I will eventually be as depressed as always and come crawling back begging for forgiveness. I hate it! Why can't I be consistent? Why can't I have the 'right' kind of joy? Why doesn't anything feel right when it SHOULD? Maybe these questions are off topic here.

 

[Iddie4him]

As someone who suffers from Bipolar disorder and ADD, I definitely know about the roller coaster ride. I was diagnosed 10 years ago with this and had suffered from it since childhood. I looked forward to the manic highs, but, knew that when it ended, I'd crash and burn. I hated that feeling. I never talked about this with my parents till after I was diagnosed, I guess mainly cause they would think I was crazy and making stuff up. My childhood wasn't the greatest and still haunts me to this day. With Gods help, love, and compassion, I have been able to sort things out and get more active in life instead of dwelling on the past and being bitter.

Guess I got a little off track, But, Yes I do know the frustration of laying down to sleep and laying there wondering if you will even get to sleep. I hope that things get back to normal for you and that you get back to a regular sleep pattern. God Bless.

 

[hisbloodformysins]

Hi Laura,

I am and depression and anxiety sufferer, and yes it can be a roller coaster ride. However, with some discipline, life can be a little nicer. First, if you take medication, keep taking that. Do not miss a day. Excerise, excerise and execise. If not else go outside and run up and down the road, even if you don't feel like it. Get plenty of rest, 8 or 9 hours a night.

Put God first, serve God with all your heart, read pray read, and learn about him. Something that has helped me is learning (as I am in the process ) to trust God with our lives. All of the things that we worry about, if we will trut Him, and let Him take care of it, the we won't get so worked up about it!

You just have to learn what helps you and what hurts you and adjust your life accordingly, you just gotta get the humps out of the roller coaster.

Wow, this is really good advice. What the lord has been leading and helping me to do being how I'm someone who also suffers from depression. I will say that medication has really helped with the anxiety and depressed mood, if i'm taking the right med for me. But I'm such an undisciplined and lazy person, and am learning how to be more disciplined, for example, plan on going to gym today- and won't psych myself out of it this time LOL because, I do feel so good physically and energy wise when I do make myself go to it. Going is like 90% of the battle, feel great when I'm there.

I also want to add- how is your diet? Being someone who lives on junk food myself, I find that what I eat really does make a difference in my mood and energy level. Do you take vitamins, or eat a well balanced diet like vegies, cutt back on the fried stuff- don't get rid of it completely, not necessary and can be unrealistic- but focus on getting fresh fruits and vegies in diet with some milk and lean meats- and of course, bread. That reallly might help. Good luck.

 

[hisbloodformysins]

I also want to add, that I have learned about hell week. Been through it enough that I just know without looking at the calender, or keeping track, when I'm going to start my period, because of such a shift in my mood. It's like I wake up and am lacking some necessary hormone that keeps me rational and balanced. During those times I can't help but take everything personally, and no matter how much self control I must, it's almost impossible, that is if I'm continually being exposed to something that drives me crazy like my hubbie's abnoxious playful, touchy feely, grabby behavior- oooh, being a serious person and someone who doesn't want to feel bound and controlled- how I usually feel when my hubby tries to playfully force me to stay near him- grrrrrrrrrrrrrr- I literally have violent images at the time and have become combative from time to time. Anyways, off topic. But as a female, there is the pms factor, and sometimes it lasts two weeks out of the month. Just realize that it is probably compounded by pms, that the emotions are something beyond your control- and once you start that blasted period, and lose all that extra retained water- you'll be normal again.

 

[MrsGnomeCrusher]

I'm not really up for treatment or whatever would be necessary for that. I do take sleeping pills sometimes, and they help a little.

I understand your rollercoaster ride. Had a lifetime ticket. I know what it feels like not wanting to be TOO happy because it wouldn't last very long . . .

. . .but this line really stuck out at me. You're going to have to make an effort in your own treatment to get better. I'm not saying this to be rude, so please don't take it that way. May I apologize in advance if I'm reading that statement incorrectly. I'm reading it as if you're expecting a "quick fix." I'm stating that there's no magic answer to make you feel better. You have to make the effort to try to get better. Sometimes it takes treatment. Sometimes it takes meds. Unless you're going to try to make an effort yourself to do something about it there really isn't anything anyone here can say to help.

 

[pending]

I also want to add, that I have learned about hell week. Been through it enough that I just know without looking at the calender, or keeping track, when I'm going to start my period, because of such a shift in my mood. It's like I wake up and am lacking some necessary hormone that keeps me rational and balanced. During those times I can't help but take everything personally, and no matter how much self control I must, it's almost impossible, that is if I'm continually being exposed to something that drives me crazy like my hubbie's abnoxious playful, touchy feely, grabby behavior- oooh, being a serious person and someone who doesn't want to feel bound and controlled- how I usually feel when my hubby tries to playfully force me to stay near him- grrrrrrrrrrrrrr- I literally have violent images at the time and have become combative from time to time. Anyways, off topic. But as a female, there is the pms factor, and sometimes it lasts two weeks out of the month. Just realize that it is probably compounded by pms, that the emotions are something beyond your control- and once you start that blasted period, and lose all that extra retained water- you'll be normal again.

Yeah, PMS is definately an excuse to become combative towards your husband.

 

[Rosa Mystica]

I just had a pretty long period when I wasn't depressed at all. I knew that period wasn't going to last, and it didn't. I sometimes think I would rather have not felt better at all, because when the sadness comes back it's so much worse. If it had been there all along, it wouldn't be as bad...because those good times wouldn't have been taken away from me.



Does anyone else feel like this or am I just really weird?

You're not weird, Laura.

If you think that's weird, then you'll probably think it's even weirder to almost want to feel depressed. That's how I often feel. As much as I hate the condition, I just feel like something's missing when I'm not in a state of depression. Like I'm not myself or something. Now that's weird.

 

[Mintyman]

Something that a good freind of mine told me once...

Life is basically a journey. We all go through our ups and downs, mountains to valleys. While the mountains are beautiful and you can see for miles at the top and you feel great, the oxygen is thin, and you run out of food. So, you have to go down to the valley. The valley, though you can't see very much, and it seems like the wild animals are out to get you, is lush and full of spiritual food. Sometimes, like it looks like in your case, the valleys are extra long. But, if you are persistent and seek the face of God, you will come through and once you reach the summit, will be able to give even more thanks because you know what the bottom is like.

I personally don't think medication will do a whole lot, you can try it, as well as getting more sleep etc... but, this whole thing may very well be an attack from the enemy. The only way to combat this is to pray, fast, and seek God.

I hope this helps- God bless

 

[AmeriLovesJesus]

I just had a pretty long period when I wasn't depressed at all. I knew that period wasn't going to last, and it didn't. I sometimes think I would rather have not felt better at all, because when the sadness comes back it's so much worse. If it had been there all along, it wouldn't be as bad...because those good times wouldn't have been taken away from me.



Does anyone else feel like this or am I just really weird?

Yes!! It likes a rollercoaster... One day Im completely fine.. and the next Im completely depressed.. Everytime I feel that way... somehow I remind myself that God will get me through... I have a problem with thinking too too much.. Then I begin to worry... Then I remind myself again that God will get me through somehow.. even if I dont understand how.. i just trust that he will..

I refuse to take medication... I also suffer from Anxiety attacks... I had taken meds my frist time I had ever panic attacks.. then went to a shrink!! He helped along the way... to know that I wasnt the only one.. who had them.. but I can truely honestly say... God was the best cure for my panic attacks.. Sometimes I feel glad that I had them.. otherwise my eyes would have never opened.. to everything I have now..

To answer your question yes!!! I have felt that way...

I feel as long as I know God is by my side.. I am willing to go through anything... for him!

Just know that everything is going to alright!!!God will help you through this!! ... .... (HUGGS)