anyone else... feel depressed all the time and sometimes deosnt know the reason

[HomeChicklet]

i am depressed alot... here lately more than usual... i see a counselor... i also have soem sturggles... i have serious thoughts about suicide... i have cut some but have gone a week without it... and i starve myself alot... so its all kinnda odd for me to be talking about this... i have had deep thoughts about suicide lately...i know i am loved... and i know that there is purpose for me... but i still dont always wanna be here and cutting is something that attacks my thoughts alot... and eating its something i hardly ever do any more so am i the only one with this or does someone else feel as i do or has felt as i do... someone please help me... im not ready to crush more ppl because i am crushed myself

 

[servant4ever]

Hi HomeChicklet
Yes, I feel the same way as you, I struggle with suicidal thoughts a lot. I would recommend telling your counselor about this. I mention everything to my counselor and he helps me feel better. If you need to talk to somebody, you can PM me.

servant4ever

 

[skeetercts]

I struggle with this as well. One thing I do is have someone I always run to. I have never met him, but I talk to him all the time when I feel so worthless and suicidal. Most of the time, I don't even know why. You definitely aren't alone in this. I would suggest finding someone in real life to hold you accountable for everything. that is a big part of it. I would also suggest talking to a youth pastor. Maybe even seeing a doctor would be a good idea. There are cures for depression. I hope everything works out for you, and my PM box is always open if you need to talk at all. I will be praying.

 

[lala]

I've constant struggles in this part of life. So much so that I consider depression as my best friend. I'm on anti-depressants. Maybe you wanna see a psychiatrist instead of a counsellor?

 

[bnkessler]

You are definately not the only one who feels this way. I struggle with all of those problems, plus anxiety. You are not alone in this, and you have your reasons for feeling this way. Please don't invalidate those feelings. Feelings are never wrong...EVER! When you are feeling suicidal it is really hard to see a light. It's only when you get through that really rough time do you realize how bad things have become and how you want it to be differently. But think about this one (especially when you're feeling suicidal). Is it that you don't want to live? Or is it that you just don't want to live the way you are currently living? I hope it is the second one. If not, please PM me! You can PM me in any case, if you'd like. I wonder if your counselor is doing you any good. I have gone through 3 counselors before finding a therapist that has actually helped me change my behaviors. I liked the other counselors and they were really nice and understand and everything, but they didn't help me fix my problems (especially the cutting one and the suicidal thoughts). You really need to have someone who you can click with and who will help you through everything, and to the point where you can see a slow, but steady change in the healing process. I hope some of this helps you. If you need anything, or want to ask any other questions do feel free to PM me anytime at all.

Love, Briana

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

I do too... *hugs* hope your ok.

-Jo

 

[TheMainException]

Trust me when I say....YOU AREN'T ALONE. There are so many people who struggle like you, but that doesn't mean that you are just a number. Are you on meds? If the counselor isn'nt helping you, maybe you should try some meds. Since I have been on prozac, I have felt much better. It may be something chemical in your brain. Think about your past also, is there something back there that hurt you bad, emotionally or physically? If so, that may be the problem.

 

[Sangarime]

Would you believe me if I said that even as an adult, I too, have struggled with this? And it has taken me a while to come to an answer about what makes me feel this way and it has to do with the way I "think". The way I "think" about ME and what I believe are important in life...
Joyce Meyer is a great author and I suggest getting her book "BattleField of the MInd" and there is also one I am curently soaking in little by little..."How to Suceed at Being Yourself' and here is part of her writing below:
"This book is about knowing yourself, accepting yourself and fulfilling your ....destiny." But as we read on she mentions how big a problem it is that people just do not like themselves.
"If we don't get along with ourselves, we wont get along with other people. When we reject ourselves, it may seem to us that others reject us as well. Relationships are a large part of our lives. How we feel about ourselves is a determining factor in our success in life and in relationsips....
It is certainly not God's will for His children to feel insecure. Insecurity is the devil's work.
Jesus came to bring restoration to our lives. ...."
Joyce goes on to say: " I still remember the agony of being with people and feeling they did not like me, or wanting to do things and not feeling free enough to step out and try them. Studying the Word of God and receiving His unconditional love and acceptance have brought healing to my life. It will do the same for you."

Anyway, there is one thing that I am holding on to right now which is underlined. Here is what else she (Joyce Meyer) says: "God never intended for us to feel bad about ourselves. He wants us to know ourselves well and yet accept ourselves.
Nobody knows us as well as God does. Yet, even though He knows us and everything about us, including all of our faults, He still approves of us and accepts us. He does not approve of our wrong behavior, but He is committed to us as individuals."..... " you will learn the difference between your "who" and your "do". You will discover that God can hate what you do and yet love you; He has no trouble keeping the two separated. "
"God is a God of hearts. He sees our heart, not just the exterior shell 9the flesh) we live in that seems to get us into so much trouble. I believe if God can keep the two separated., he can teach us to do the same thing." (for ourselves)

I almost wish I could read this book along with you all. Like we could soak a part or two together...maybe I should open a forum on that or something....I am really taking it one day and one moment at a time. I do not feel so much like I did before....because it is so good to talk about it, write about it, pray, just being busy, "doing" something else as opposed to just "thinking" alone and finally succumbing to something harmful.
May we really feel His embrace for Us, His great everlasting LOVE, and just His COmmittment to us.....i am praying for us all....that we make it every step we take! with so much love and thank you's to you all

Jesse

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Yeah, I am double time on the depression and suicide. I have more than thoughts though, I have tried to commit suicide twice...swallowed a bunch of stuff but thanks to being bulimic I vomited the pills. I feel like I am constantly depressed, even though I am on medicine, it doesnt help.

I am constantly playing Russian Roulette with how I respond to things...sometimes it's good and often,...I get the bullet of anger and sadness...

 

[Aussie_Gareth]

Hi Homechicklet,

I know how you feel, I've been struggling with Suidical thoughts on and off for about 12 years, and I've been depressed all my life. I've only recently (4 mths) started with Anti Depressant medication. Depression is a very difficult thing to try and deal with, you don't feel motivated to do ANYTHING in life. Some days you should feek ok, but you don't and you don't know why, that's your brain chemistry playing tricks on you. Medication is very important because it will even out the seratonin levels in your brain.

The thing that helped me is becoming a Christian, I've been saved for about 2 months now, and it's the best thing I ever did for myself, God is doing a lot of work in me recently, and my walk with him has just begun. If you have a bible, go to the concordance and find some bible passages that speak to you, look under Struggle. Read James 1:12 for me, that's one of the passages that I keep underlined and think of when I'm struggling.

The other thing that has helped me is having solid support, like people that you can tell, if you haven't already, sit your parents down and really tell them what's going on, pour your heart out to them, tell them how you feel and make them understand that this is serious, you need someone to talk to about all of this. Keep a journal for yourself, write in it everyday, write about how you're feeling, write about anything. It will be a good reference years down the track when you can look back and see what kind of progress you've been making.

Importantly you need support of people who know what you're going through, it's all well and good for people to say "ahh you'll be ok, you need to do this or that" but they don't know what you're thinking and feeling. You're not the only one out there with this, and YOU'RE NOT CRAZY it might seem like it, but you're not.

I have attempted suicide, and it was only a few weeks ago, I realised as the pills I swallowed took effect, that I didn't want to die, I'll never forget the feeling, I'm going to PM you with a link to my journal in the journals section and tell you the actual post where I talk about that experience.

If you want to PM me please don't hesitate, I'm here for you and will help you any way I can, I can relate to your struggles and I won't judge you or belittle your experiences.

I'll keep you in prayer

Take care, and please don't kill yourself, life is worth living, death is only going to end the pain it won't fix anything, you have so much to look forward to, it might not seem like it now, but you do.

Lord? I pray that homechicklet can find peace in you and realise that death is not the answer. I lift her up to you Lord, she needs you in this time of struggle, give her strength to keep living and to cope with the day to day pressures of her life. Lord? I pray that you fill the spirit that lives within her with love. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

 

[Melody Joy]

I completely understand. I didn't start having these feelings until I was 19-20 though. I am almost 25 and still think that suicide seems like the best option. Because I'm so tired of trying. I want to die because I don't know how to live. Sometimes I feel hope for the future, but then I go back to being my old self and feeling like I can't do it any more. Like I'll never get it right. I know God is trying to talk to me but its like I don't want to hear Him. But I NEED to or I'll go crazy!!
I don't have any advice. Just to let you know there is someone else going through something similar. I'll pray for you

 

[Srgnt-York]

Homechicklet, hang in there...Remember, God has you here for a reason, and taking your life into your own hands would be saying you know better than God. He has a plan for you, just live for him as best you can, and don't ever forget that suicide is a permanent solution to a temperary problem...God will pull you through!

 

[Ave Maria]

I get depressed a lot and I usually have no idea what the reason is other than the fact that it is a chemical imbalance in my brain. I can't afford prescription medicine so I am looking in to trying St. John's Wort which has been proven effective for victims of depression and has less side effects and less serious side effects than prescription medicines.

 

[wannagohome]

homechicklet,
You sound like I did as a teen. I still get depressed, but I am also thankful that I made it this far. Remember sometimes the worse storms produce the most beautiful rainbows! God Bless You!!! Jen

 

[Crazy_nut_4_Jesus]

yeah, mandy. i do...
i haven't talked to you in a while about anything that has been going on... so.. pm me or give me an im one day....

 

[guitar_gurl07]

hey! I dont have any advice really,but if you have read all these replies, you should see that not only you struggles with depression and suicide..i am one more person to add to that list also...i have ben stuggling with it for about 2 yrs now...you can PM me if you want...i may not be able to give good advice, but im always here to listen i will be praying for you i wish i could have written a better reply but im a little depressed myself...sorry

~Haylee