A poem for my Danny

[c1ners]

Why'd you have to love me so much Danny? It only makes life harder now that you're gone, and I have to live with no love. If I never had love in the first place, I wouldn't know what I was missing, and it wouldn't hurt so bad. Maybe you shouldn't have died to begin with! I'm angry with you today. I'm angry with you for leaving me. You promised you never would, and I don't feel you right now, so that means you're not here. Where are you Danny? I need your love right now. I really really need your love right now.

 

[c1ners]

A rose for my bestfriend and wonderful husband.

I love you Danny.

 

[c1ners]

Happy Birthday Danny.
Today you would have been 47

I love you as much today
as I did 25 years ago
when we first met.

I will always love you
I will always miss you

My heart hurts today, but
today is the day the Lord hath made,
and I will be happy and
rejoice in it.

Happy Birthday my love

 

[c1ners]

I didn't send you any flowers this year, so I'll give them to you here. There they die. Here they'll stay beautiful forever. I'll get you some balloons and a cake later. I love you.

 

[c1ners]

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I liked this one better. It fits you​

 

[c1ners]

My Grief Is like a River:
My grief is like a river—
I have to let it flow
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.

Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again.

I crash on rocks of anger—
My faith seems faith indeed,
But there are other simmers
Who know that what I need

Are loving hands to hold me
When the waters are too swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.

Grief’s river is a process
Of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope’s channels
I’ll reach the shore at last.

 

[ephraimanesti]

Grief’s river is a process
Of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope’s channels
I’ll reach the shore at last.

MY DEAR SISTER,

May God grant that your destination be reached quickly and your tears dried by the loving hands of our Lord!

WITH LOVE IN CHRIST,
ephraim

 

[c1ners]

MY DEAR SISTER,

May God grant that your destination be reached quickly and your tears dried by the loving hands of our Lord!

WITH LOVE IN CHRIST,
ephraim

Thank you. Today I am crashing on those rocks, but this too shall pass. For no matter how my heart breaks, the sun sets, and it reraises, and it becomes a new day. Hopefully a day of hope.

 

[c1ners]

Twenty years ago today I lost you. Today I have to keep reminding myself to breath. Just breath Cin. It'll be okay. Just breath.

I miss you Danny, and I wish I could sleep away this day, but I can't. I have to be strong even though my insides are weak.

I love you my husband.

 

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[c1ners]

Do you remember the song that was playing Danny?
"Baby I'm leaving".
That was the first song we ever danced to. The first time I felt your arms around me. The first time I ever felt loved.

It was 27 years ago today, but I remember it like it were yesterday. That song certainly describes things doesn't it?

I miss you Danny. I miss you so much that sometimes I can't even breath.

Shhhh....listen quietly. Can you hear me singing to you?

Babe I'm leaving
I must be on my way
The time is drawing near
My train is going
I see it in your eyes
The love, beneath, your tears
But I'll be lonely without you
And I'll need your love
to see me through
So please believe me
My heart is in your hands
I'll be missing you

'Cause you know it's you babe
Whenever I get weary
And I've had enough
Feel like giving up
You know it's you babe
Giving me the courage
And the strength I need
Please believe that it's true
Danny, I love you

Babe, I'm leaving
I'll say it once again
And somehow try to smile
I know the feeling we're
trying to forget
If only for awhile
'Cause I'll be lonely without you
And I'll need your love
to see me through
Please believe me
My heart is in your hands
'Cause I'll be missing you
Danny, I love you

 

[JPPT1974]

Praying for you as you remember Danny
As he is smiling down from heaven!

 

[c1ners]

I know I shouldn't be, but I'm scared Danny. I'm afraid that this growth is something serious, and I'm afraid of getting sick. I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid of getting sick. I'm afraid of leaving my girls. But I'm not afraid of going to Heaven. Of that I'm not afraid at all.

 

[c1ners]

I'm tired Danny. So tired.
My test came back normal, but I'm going back Monday. The way I feel is not normal, and this thing isn't getting any smaller. I just want to go to sleep, but I can't. Know why? BECAUSE KATRINA IS HOME!!!!!!!

 

[c1ners]

"Christmas with Jesus"


I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas
choir up here. I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices
bring. For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
But I am not so far away, We really aren't apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, You know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory of my undying love.
After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do.
For I can't count the blessing or love he has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear
Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ
this year.

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[c1ners]

Oops, it didn't work right. I was trying to send you a candle. HUGS. I love you my husband. Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and forever.

 

[c1ners]

Why'd you leave me Danny? Why?
I hate this life without you. I really do.
You promised Danny.
You promised you'd never leave me.
You promised I'd never be alone.
You lied. I am alone. And I need you!

 

[c1ners]

I think I've found the perfect apartment Danny. It's only less than ten minutes away from work, and will only eat up 1/4 of my paycheck each month. Not to mention I'll be saving around $200 from tolls and gas. I've worked it out, and I think I can manage it. But just not right now. I promised Katrina I'd visit her in England, and I mean to keep my promise. But right now I have enough to go ahead and purchase the ticket. Then I can start putting away half my paycheck each week until I get the deposit money, and enough to get utilities turned on.

I'm tired of being abused Danny. I can't take it anymore.

Thanks for being with me in my dreams last night. But you almost made me late for work this morning. I don't really remember what we talked about, but I do know that it felt wonderful to be in your arms again. So peaceful that I actually turned off the alarm clock this morning.

You know, it's funny...I've been sleeping with your sweatshirt the past several nights. When I go to sleep I put it beside me and I hold onto it while I sleep. But when I wake up one of the sleeves is always around my neck just as if you were there holding me. And I have my head on the shirt like I would be laying on your shoulder. It's sweet, and it makes my day a little more bareable. I love you Danny. Always.

 

[c1ners]

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY MY LOVE!!!!!